Thursday, February 28, 2013

Cyoot

   I haven't felt like writing very much lately. But there's a lot to write about - that may have something to do with it. We'll start with what I got in the mail today.


 They're way cuter than the other dice we have.
These are for our DnD game that a few of my coworkers and I are starting. I think maybe 2 weeks ago we all got together and DnD guy went over everything with us. Some of us are completely new to game mechanics and roles in general, and I wanted to get a better understanding of things. It was fun (for me) and I think he did really well in explaining almost everything. It almost felt like a class lecture. Not gonna lie, it was kinda hot.
I used to have a crush on a friend from high school who I didn't even know I liked until he lectured me one night on physics, religion, psychology, his philosophies and space shit. He just kept going for hours, and we just sat in my basement all night. I just listened, and he lectured me. Totally unforgettable. He was also quite eloquent. If he wasn't, I don't think I would be writing about him right now.
Hey, so yeah. That's a thing.

I had brought over my 4th edition manuals to have some sort of guideline. I think it helped quite a bit. You guise I'm eating so many grapes right now. Once we were done we just all kinda hanged out and talked about what classes/race we were gonna be. I sort of downloaded something on his computer.



Welcome to the nerd squad, Kaitlin.

He wants to go over some details with me about my character. Initially, I had decided to go with a Sorcerer, but today at work we talked about the flavor she'll have and he suggested I be a Warlock based on her story. I think I'm going to go with a Half-Elf. I was actually supposed to go over there tonight to finish her with him. I guess he got distracted or forgot. I'm really excited to get started. Perhaps I should've just shown up... but that's weird, right?


O n i g i r i   -  batch # 2

Yep, I made another batch. I had to before the salmon went bad. But I wasn't going to be able to finish them all on my own, so I brought them to work for my co-workers. I took some pictures while I made them so you guise could see


Bust out dat rice. This batch I only made 2 cups. Spread it out on a flat surface. I use my rice spoon thing to 'cut' off portions of rice.


My hands were all onigiri'd up but this is what they look like. 


Nori is so good omg. First time I tried it it was surprising to me how flavorful nori is. I felt like a Pokemon eating these. The first time I ever saw one was in a Pokemon episode back in the day. They called them donuts on the show at the time XD


lol, I was like wtf kinda donut is that O_o ...


On Friday Rot and I went to Das Bunker for the Velvet Acid Christ show. We had a good time for sure. I think he was legitimately star struck for a bit. It's the first time I've seen him that giddy to meet someone. 





Good show. They played mostly stuff from previous albums. The crowd really digged that it seemed like. We also ran into Krz, who plays for DOA. Later on in the night Elena showed up in that special way she does. Really late for everything, lol. It's always good to see her. SHE'S SO THILLY I LUB HUR. 


We all have dreadlocks. looooool


 *gurgle purr* ^_^


MOOSHIE MOOSHIE MOOOSH MURMURMUR


The obligatory dreadstach photo... but with a TWIST. 
UNIDREOW... wait.. what

We went with a mission, buuuut unfortunately it was a busy night so that mission had to be put aside. However... Rot got to meet someone who has influenced him much, and I can confidently say that he was actually enjoying himself. At least for the moment these were taken.




He even bought merch!


I thought about it, but they didn't have much of a selection for the ladies. Fun night ^_^


Saturday the Kitties came over. We sneaked off to go get sushi first before Rot got home from work, though :P
It would've been nice if he would go, but he doesn't like anything that isn't a burger and fries or pizza. Or my cooking. 
I suggested we go to Octopus!! I swear by that place. Sushi lovers in The Valley... go to Octopus in Burbank. Go to it. You will be blown away. The kitties said they frequent a sushi place by where they live that they walk to and said was really good. However they were also impressed and a little taken by surprise by this place too. 



 SO FANCY MENU OF PICTURES


 LOOKIT DAT ONE


NO DIS MINE


I got an avocado roll, a salmon roll, and the black dragon roll which is eel and avocado + whatever shit they stuff in there. 
They got 3x as much as me, lol. There was so much food! Super tasty though ^_^
 Once we stuffed ourselves stupid we came back here to be greeted by a Rot. Kristof and him stayed in the living room while Miss Bananna and I hung out in my room talking about crafties and such. 

Here's a video I took of us a while back. She didn't know I was recording XD


She knows I posted this btw, haha. SHE SO CYOOT

We stayed up late until they left around midnight-ish. I had work at 4 in the morning, but fortunately I took a nap earlier to compensate. I find myself doing that a lot. It fucks with my sleeping schedule like you wouldn't believe, haha.


I mailed out some charms and finished the two Dr. Who tardis charms. No more! hahaha omg. I got those done with more ease this last time around because I knew what I was doing, but still. So many details >_< lol. There's a commission piece I'm doing for someone that's gonna be really fun.. and interesting. Link's shield! 

http://www.heavenlyswords.com/images/P/zelda-shield.jpg 

I want that, btw. 
so.

I may end up replicating it if it doesn't take me forever just to do the symbols.  Also I'm crazy exited to get the stuff I ordered off Ebay.

http://i.ebayimg.com/t/Vintage-Vicky-Vaughn-Black-Peasant-Gypsy-BoHo-Hippie-Chic-Goth-Punk-Dress-/00/s/MTYwMFgxMjAw/z/zi0AAOxyoA1RI88b/$T2eC16RHJF0E9nmFSIbDBRI88,)tSw~~60_57.JPG http://i.ebayimg.com/t/BANANA-REPUBLIC-black-knit-ruffled-top-size-XS-1-/00/s/OTI5WDYyOA==/z/VFkAAMXQDXRRGbH9/$T2eC16VHJGkE9no8h,CIBRGbH9JCqw~~60_12.JPG http://i.ebayimg.com/t/WET-SEAL-black-LACE-V-neck-waist-tie-cap-sleeve-top-XS-/00/s/MTYwMFgxMjAw/$(KGrHqJHJCYE-df1Im3vBPtD9ivZ,!~~60_57.JPG 

SO ADORBS. Ebay is where I pretty much get all my clothes. And everything else ever. I'm also thinking about getting a notebook. After my graphics card of course! 
TAX RETURNS YAY

I may be modeling for THE CUTEST THING EVER. I don't wanna say what it is just yet but IT'S THE CUTEST THING EVER. It's a collaboration for a give away to promote the new Gothy book to on Bat's Day. I can't waaaaiit!

Shit my grapes

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Onigiri

  I got to level 20 today. And I've run Shadowfang Keep twice now. I'm not gonna lie, it's way more challenging than I remember. However the necessity of our classes' crowd control spells is refreshing. The last time I ran anything in WoW while I was still subscribed, we would just faceroll through the dungeon like it was nothing. It became boring. People were always in a rush to get them finished, and you just stood around waiting for the Dungeon Finder to queue you in. Even though it's convenient, it negates a lot of the mmorpg values in that you have to go out and do things, lol. Challenging things, and earn your way up with skill and patience so that when you finally achieve it, it means something. Instead, they made everything easy to achieve and implemented the 'achievement' mechanism that XBox Live has so it gave people a false sense of accomplishment over mostly trivial things.

ANYWAY ... it's great to have to pay attention and work together again. I had to sheep and pay attention to my focus target. And keep him cc'd. And decurse! haha I haven't had to decurse in so long. ^_^

Today also I worked some more on my commission piece. These are special because
1. I've never made one before
2. It's a super detailed piece
3. I have to make two

I was working on them for a few hours today, took a break and then experimented with more shapes so it'd look right. I'll have them done by tomorrow. Never again, haha.



I feel so fancy sitting here. Rot made me a screwdriver. What an influence he is! lol.

Also today I went ahead and attempted to make some onigiri - or rice balls. It was fun! Messy, but fun.



It was definitely tricky at the start. I saw a tutorial on youtube a long time ago on how to make em, and they seemed simple enough but phew! If you don't have it down right, you end up with a huge mess XD. When making these, water is your best friend!

That bowl has salted water in it. The white stuff is all the rice that fell off my hands when I'd wet them again.

Man... I wish I had recorded it. Basically you have to keep your hands wet with salted water so that the rice sticks even more. You take a little ball of rice in the palm of your hand and dig a little hole that you stuff with whatever you want in it. I chose salmon. Not a lot though, or you're gonna have a bad time. Then take some more rice, a little more than what you already have in your hand, and cup it over the stuffed rice. Immediately start molding it together or you're gonna have a bad time. The shit will spill and stick everywhere. Sprinkle water, and keep your hands kinda wet.
If the rice is still warm, it'll fall apart easier, so let it cool off first before doing much. I learned this the hard way.

Wrapping them with nori was... interesting lol. I didn't know wtf I was doing so I just did it however, and as long as it wrapped it all, it worked for me. haha


Again, water. Water, water, water.
The nori is dry and flakey when it's in the package. It becomes soft and flexible, almost rubbery, when it's saturated. The rice sticks to it as soon as they touch so keep a neat work space, lol, and wrap that shit!


 They're so yummy! I had one as soon as I finished and they're really good. The nori really gives a lot of flavor. And they're great snacks! I was able to make 8 with 3 cups of rice, and I also have some left-over salmon for sandwiches and such.
Later it occurred to me that they would be so much better with avocado. Next time!
Rot and Josh didn't seem interested in trying them. Oh well. That just means more for me! ^_^

This week I may be back in Little Tokyo. DnD guy asked when we could go again, and it just so happens we have the same day off, so woohoo! More Ramen and boba for meeeee! ^_^ His equally nerdy bff just moved here from Virginia (I think?) and it calls for LT time. I'm excited, should be great fun ^_^


Also, for anyone that's interested in the server I play WoW on *ahem xp black os user who's name shall not be mentioned* http://www.emeralddream.com/guide/windows go there and do what it says. It's about 5 gigs. Super easy.


Thursday, February 14, 2013

Saint Valentine

  A  Roman saint celebrated on the 14th of February so you can get laid.

"Saint".. isn't that a Catholic thing? So do Athiests celebrate Valentine's Day? Jews? Sorry.
Brain went from 0 - 60 because I had such a great day today!

I'm really thankful to have the loves that I do in my life. And I'm extremely lucky to be living with one of them, but I don't think I've ever really celebrated Valentine's Day before. I think like... once in high school. And last year. Other than that... I don't count grade school because the ninja turtle cards were mandatory but putting that aside.. never been a Valentine's Day type.
Last year was a joke. Rot and I decided to finally do something, and we plan everything out to spend the day doing the stuff you're supposed to do for the sake of obligation, when I get a phone call from a former friend who found out her internet boyfriend sent the $40 box on the website to his friend, and she only got the $20 plant from the same website. She's probably the world's greatest private investigator / google user.
Rot was livid because he doesn't care for V-Day much either, but we were driving around, wasting gas, to try to do something nice specifically for that day so we could be normal just like everyone else. So I guess last year didn't count much either. I don't remember what we did... I think we went to some restaraunt OH YEAH we went to this greek place no wait. NO. WE WENT TO THIS LIKE RAW, VEGGIE PLACE WITH POTATOES. Or something. No they had meat. Anywho we went there. And then I forget what else we did, lol.

OKAY. So I figured... I do something for myself today ^_^
I worked this morning, but I pushed through my tiredness and as soon as I got home I got ready and asked Rot to drop me off at the train station on his way to work. Today was Love Yourself, Cynthia day! It's so great to have people you love and love you back in your life, but don't forget to love yourself first, and always!



I ventured to Little Tokyo today, parasol in hand because it was sunny as shit. It felt good to walk around and just... be there again. I wasn't scared. There were a few uncomfortable moments... which I come to expect just about every time I go somewhere because men suck at controlling themselves, but it's nothing speed walking and no acknowledgement can't fix.
The whole time I was thinking of how much I wished Devon were there, so we could go on a little search for our mystery boxes and do our little LT things.. which btw, I didn't get. The first thing I did was hit Mr. Ramen to stuff myself. The hostess was incredibly sweet. She recognized me I think... seemed glad to see me when I walked in. That felt really nice. :)
I sat further in, where we last sat together and got a bowl of Chashu Pork Ramen with an extra egg. She gave me 3 eggs, and only charged me for one extra. That also was really nice.


So I sat there by myself, content, pondering, remembering, and chilling there with my bowl of Ramen. That too was really nice. As I ate I looked at all the cool little drawings on the wall that people had sent in, and the menu pictures. I was content. Now I know why Carrie Bradshaw always goes out to just sit somewhere wit a cappuccino. She's fucking content just being by herself!



Oh my god you guys. After the hostess brought over my bill, she gave me a little gift. CUTEST GESTURE EVER.
She was all smiles, and super super sweet. She gave me a little thing of Pocky candy!


It was so random! I totally wasn't expecting it, and it was just... incredibly nice of her. She didn't give one to any of the other people who were there, so I was really humbled. So I left her a 50% tip. It was so cute, I brought it up to the counter and her eyes got huge and she goes "oh no! too much, too much!" and I go "it's okay!" smiling. And then we both happily bowed thank yous and exchange really really humbled you're welcomes in japanese, lmao. That moment absolutely made my day! I think she knew or remembered that Devon and I would visit there together, and saw that she wasn't there this time. Maybe that has something to do with it? I'll never know. I wish I had taken her picture. What a sweetheart she was :) I'll remember her kindness, for sure.

From there I headed to the strip with the red tower where all the restaurants are. Visited Tokyo Lifestyle and browsed a few other places, then headed to Marukai. I was there way longer than I intended. It's always hard to choose what I want when I go in there. All I know is that I was munchies type stuff. Things that I can eat in small portions throughout the week. And of course my drinks. They didn't have my daifuku or the flavored mochi that I generally lean more towards getting.. lol. So that delayed my visit considerably. Considerably. Eventually I ended up getting some candy, cream filled pan, and onigiri, which I never realized they had!! YOU GUYS. IT WAS SO GOOD. It was SO good that I'm going to buy some damn nori and fish and prepare some at home. And it's the most simple thing to prepare! I never knew nori could be so effing delicious.



After Marukai, I went upstairs to the bookstore. Where I sought out volumes 7 & 8 of XXX- Holic.
Btw, it's not a pornographic manga. The "xxx" is incredibly misleading, but it's about supernatural stuff, haha.


Of course... they had all the volumes except for 7 and 8. Unbelievable lol. But I wasn't leaving empty handed, so I looked over some other manga and noticed this one:

The synopsis made me smile and seemed really silly. It's a comedy but it's also yaoi-ish. Eerrr... I don't know. It's... weird. Google it, lol. ^______^

I also picked up a memo pad to keep track of my work schedule. It's Sentimental Circus themed. So cyoooooot.

And then I went back to the other shopping area and browsed some more.


Finally when it was time to leave around 5ish, I grabbed a boba drink and split. It was starting to get dark and I'd have to walk home from the train station. But it was a great day :D



When I finally arrived at my gate, I checked the mail to find the best thing to end my day.


A letter from Devon. 
Can you believe it? 
I knew it was from her because we both got stationary together the last time we went, so we could write to each other. The chances of something like this happening again are slim but... yay!!! Perfect. :D


Oh, Devon. :) You are missed little lady, but I am happy to know you are settling in and are doing good where you are. I love love love your drawings! Please don't flip any tables over my posting them, lolol


Here's what I got today:






ugh this was so good.


Oh, and a pen.

Tomorrow and Saturday I am off, which will give me time to work on some more pieces for my Etsy as well as finish the commissions for my co-workers. Someone ordered two Dr. Who tardis charms. fucking... detailed as shit. lol I still don't know how I'm going to do it, but the challenge is fun.

LOL.. Rot just got home. I told him to buy me bananas for Valentine's Day. He responded saying it's not banana day :(
BUT HE JUST GOT HERE WITH SOME BANANAS AND HUGGINS :DD KBYE


Saturday, February 9, 2013

Whoa

   This entry will test my powers of memory since... it's been a while. The last thing I can recall worth writing about waaass... maybe some charms I sold? I feel like my investments were for naught. My Etsy has been silent. It's a little baffling because I've gotten so many "when are you selling them?!", so when I finally do it's kind of... not that.

It is what it is. Though, I haven't really advertised it much, but spamming people is not what I want to do. Word of mouth seems way more legit. There's a psychology behind that I think; if someone tells you about something they saw, heard, or bought it's because they want you to enjoy it as they did. If you shove something down someone's throat, forcing this on them, it's more likely that they'll just get sick of it and ignore or avoid it all together- unless they're brainless and just want to be a part of everything.

K.

Look at this!


Super cuuute! It was a custom for Kyrie. I can make those in a bunch of different colors you know. Guys. I can make them. In all the colors. Guys. Ok? Just saying.

No word from the Beta, so I take it I wasn't accepted. Which blows, but I'm still glad they're being that strict. However... LET ME TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED THAT HAS CHANGED MY LIFE AGAIN FOR THE BETTER

I'm playing World of Warcraft again!! What? WoW? Really? Gross.
No, not... WoW wow, but Vanilla WoW :DD

We are playing on a private server created just for veterans like meeeeee ^_^
Literally. Look!


I read that and almost cried. I actually got teary-eyed when I left the tomb I spawned in and didn't see a bunch of yellow shit all over my monitor indicating where to go. I was home again.
No blatant tool tips, no obnoxious yellow question marks on my map, no retarded re-made starting area... just silent, unpressured (not a real word?) quest reading and seeking out your next location like a true RPG. Ah.... :) *purrrrr* ^_^

Ever since, this is pretty much what has been taking up most of my free time. I'm level 14 and I also rolled a Warlock.

Also I made this:


Cool shit, right?! I loved that show! It's another commission piece. So I haven't fallen completely into the mmo relapse of utter uselessness. However, I have fallen short of my other charms that I really want to make, but ... get distracted from. :P heehee.

Here are so more WoW screenshots :D


Spawning point!


The spiders in the cave are agro again. :) 
I remember when they changed that... totally unneeded. Rot, Josh, and I all played that night til late just reliving the starting zone until we reached Brill. Good times. We cleared this cave just for the hell of it. Ahhh... ^_^


The original Sylvanas model. I admit, this was one of the changes that they implemented that I actually really liked. Mostly because it didn't affect my gameplay, and it made her more accurate, aesthetically. But it was still cool to see her in this form again.


:D Apothecary in the Undercity. 


What our nightmares were made of back in the day. Son of Arugal would somehow sneak up on you and destroy you. He'd just patrol the area, and he was way higher level than you. so killing him was rofl no.


My friends had a show at the Viper Room on Tuesday! I've never been. What a teeny, tiny venue. But I saw a bunch of people I know there. Unfortunately I didn't take any pictures that night. My bag is a pain to get in and out of, and Rot gave me his jacket to stow away so... meh. Jamison's band played; Modern Weapons. Before them was a metal band, I forgot their name. Kauze? Idk. They were alright. I don't even like metal. I'm not talking about the shit that's on TV, btw...with the clown make up and ugly chicken hair. That's not even metal. I had to clarify that. Anyway, after Jamison, Elena's band went on! She looked so beautiful and did great! She's gotten so much better since she first started. You could see a little nervousness before, but now she's blowing everyone away :)

I saw my friend Eric that night, Jason too. Met some new people who weren't crazy. That was neat. 
It's always nice to be surrounded by people you know. At least for me it is... I don't get anxious and start panicking. Or at least with sort of like-minded people. Makes going out a little less stressful for me. I will admit at some points it felt like this 

http://24.media.tumblr.com/dd2adf09ed083e47c37107345099885c/tumblr_mhwoo6gsyU1rjcfxro1_400.gif

 I had a good time though. We all did, I think. It was good to see Elena again. She always tells me how much she likes me. I like her too. I wish I didn't suck at showing it, though.
At one point during the night Dave Navarro grabbed one of the locks hanging from my up do and asked me if it was yarn or my real hair. 
My initial thought was "oh wow... why are you grabbing something of mine without asking me?" 
I told him it was my real hair, he complimented me. I smiled a thank you and turned my attention back to Elena.

Sociology of the Day: Status doesn't make being presumptuous okay. At least not with me it doesn't.

Towards the end of the night I was invited to go to an after-party at Angels & Kings, but I wasn't in the mood. We all had just gotten WoW on our machines and I was eager to just get home and play. Rot drank himself too much again, so I drove us back. Josh said the Subway by our house is open 24 hours... soooooooooo we stopped there. When we got home everyone just went to bed. I had to get Rot ready for bedtime again. It's like this happens every week. lol sigh. The next day we played some more WoW until I pooped out and took a nap.


What else?
Last night was my co-workers birthday party. From the last few get-togethers I've attended, I had assumed, mistakenly, that it would be just as all the others. A humble little thing between co-workers. I was severely mistaken. A co-worker came to get me so we'd all go together. It took some convincing, to which I later found out that there was some stupid gossip drama at work again. I was so blissfully ignorant of it all. I'm unsure of who has been talking about it but I can take a huge wild guess, and can probably say it's the same people that fabricated the crap about me as well. I told her it's always a pissing contest and to not worry about it. We got there and there were only a few people there, mostly from work. My ride left shortly thereafter, but I told her I'd stay and find a ride later. More people started arriving that weren't from work. It got louder, so I asked if there was an xbox or ps3 somewhere that I could check out. They led me to another room with an entertainment system with a PS3. I chose Bioshock. I sat in that room in solitude for a while. Mainly due to the game needing an update, and after that... it also needed installing. Which felt like an hour. As I was waiting for everything to finish, the party sounded like more and more people kept showing up, and there was shouting and "WOOOO"- ing. I called Rot and asked him if he could come get me. He was drinking, so he asked Josh. The game finally finished installing, and I didn't get very far before another co-worker came into the room and asked me about dating a friend of theirs. I don't know if it was because she was tipsy or not, but she was very jubilant. All I could do was look at her in horror and arch my eyebrow in a "why are you asking me this... no" way. She said we'd be very cute together and all geeky and whatnot. I'm moved. I told her I was leaving, we talked a little more and she left the room. I went to the bathroom. Came back to a missed call and walked out. I wanted to say goodbye to everyone but there were so many people that I only got to say goodbye to one co-worker and gave up and just walked out.

I'm... not normal. Sorry.



Rot took us to get frozen yogurt!! So yumms ^_^

Nilla calls.

Friday, February 1, 2013

Shout

 I had my job review today, finally. The pay raise was implemented months ago, however I still wanted to know what she felt I could improve on. Is that weird? Maybe it's an ego thing, I don't know. But it mattered more than just the money. Integrity is so stupid.
We also had a meeting today. It came across to me more as entertainment than a lecture.

Some stuff came in the mail for my little business (?) --- I feel weird calling it a business because like, it's just an online store. It's not like... legit. It is. but it's not ... I don't know. It's Noobish. Does that make sense? I dunno. Anywho I got some stuff for packaging, which elevated my mood. Also I got this little caddy thing for all my tools. I'm not OCD at all regarding that shit, but my little work desk was so cluttered that working on it was blegh. The simple things.


I had this song stuck in my head all day today.


Such a great classic.
The vocals, the music, the mood, tempo, everything. You can feel the emotion in the song.

It's actually really upsetting to me that the music that's considered good these days is... nothing at all within the plane of the talent from back in the day. I wasn't even born when this came out, but I love the music from that era, the 80's. It just feels and sounds more... genuine. There's real feeling to it, and the relationship between the instruments is like... they have this beautiful choreography that just fits so well together. And then there's the shit out today - stupid ass dubstep, shit like nicki minaj, qq bitches crying about the same old crap in dumb, cliche love songs, and stupid LOOKING bands that sound just as stupid trying to call high pitched whining "metal." It sucks. to me. And don't get me started on rap. I'm glad they can keep a rhythm as they speak, and rant about whatever in stanzas, but please... there's a massive difference between having ghost writers and keeping a rhythm... and being a composer. No, not producer. COMPOSER. Musician.

Ugh.
Ironically, I'm letting it all out. THANKS, TEARS FOR FEARS :D

Moving on.
Next week I'm hoping I don't exhaust myself with the all two outings I'll have. My friends' show, and then there's also yet another co-worker's birthday get together. I can't wait to watch the not at all subtle pissing contest that will ensue that evening. How many social experiments can one do in one night? Is that awful? Sorry. Simply and frankly, it's pretty entertaining to observe from a distance. Distance is great. I like distance. I wish to remain there.

I wish I had the balls to do a cover of that song. I probably could. Nooooooooooo, but I don't have the balls for it. Ew, I'm too shy. :( Also my roommate is literally always here, so I'm never recording another cover ever again.

Oh man. So I just saw this article that a friend shared: AKB48 member’s ‘penance’ shows flaws in idol culture | The Japan Times

OH. MAN.
Basically, this girl band member was seen leaving a boy's house.
Her contract with management forbids her to have a boyfriend because it will ruin the fans' fantasies.
This got out, and she shaved her head, which is considered an extreme act like.. oh shit, i fucked up. i'm humiliated.. and she's apologizing profusely and asking fans to take her back.
 Like the ULTIMATE I'm really fucking sorry. But her sexuality is stripped, and she just... ugh. she did that to herself... all over seeing a boy.

This hit the biggest nerve ever.
OH MY GOD the biggest nerve ever.

Some of you know. Some of you don't. I've dealt with some of the biggest bullshit of all time because of these "super fans" as Rot likes to call them. I like to call them burninafuckingfireanddie.
Can you believe that we've had that very "fans' fantasies and chances of getting with us" conversation?
WE HAVE. Believe me when I say it's HORSE SHIT. It's UTTER. HORSE SHIT.
NO. YOU DON'T HAVE A CHANCE.
EVER.
"They need to think they have a chance at having sex with us because we'll sell more albums, and they'll want to bring their friends to our shows"
But I can't say that. Because albums have to sell.
Ooops. Did I just say that?

This little girl's life is turned upside down, and her adolescence stolen from her because "super fans" wanna imagine themselves fucking her, and convince themselves SO MUCH that they have a chance to fuck her that she isn't allowed to have a personal life. GOD FORBID she kiss someone, WHAT WILL THE FANS THINK. OH NO.

Ugggghhh..

Can you tell I've dealt with that before?

I'm so irritated, lol.
I want to hug her so bad... and tell her how much I understand. And comfort her. and just... not see her cry over that. Begging for forgiveness and acceptance. That is such horse shit.



They really, really ought to know...
These are the things I can do without. I'm talking to you.

What a fitting song. Who knew?


Oh! On a happier note, haha, I sold more charms on my Etsy ^_^ so I will be busting those out and getting them shipped asap. Squeak. I want Ramen!