Birdday!

Lort give me patience. This climate. ALL OF THEM. ALL OF THE CLIMATES. I'm tired.
I miss my friends. Like. My two soulmate friends. I haven't seen Ponies in months. Lauren even longer.

Ah, I miss Lauren a lot. She'd hype me up. There's no doubt in my mind that if I were to do something, she'd be right there cheering me on and pushing me. Ponies is a great hype man, but sometimes it's nice to get it from my girl friend. It hits different. I MISS YOU LAUREN.

Dude friends are fine, I just... at the end of the day, I'm a girl. And sometimes I just want a friend who is also a girl, but is like, genuinely happy for me and down to listen and share stuff with. I'm a girl. Like. I'm sorry. WARNING! WARNING!

I miss Lauren.
 Sigh

We need to start this with a photo of my petunias. Because they're too pretty to be real and also I thought black flowers only existed in Animal Crossing. So.
Also, 3 blooms. So much green!

Secondly, HAPPY BIRDDAY TO MEEE
Another year being alive, and grateful for the people and things in my life ^_^

While we couldn't do anything like we did in the previous years, Chicken still surprised me with lovely gifts that appeal to both my vanity and my love of practicality!

I'VE WANTED A CYOO TEA SET FOREVER and he did it T____T
I've been using it every day for endless cups of tea. Endless, I tell you.  AND. If we've spent enough time together, perhaps you've been exposed to my tangents about Japan's role in WWII with biochemical engineering. If you have, I'm sorry. No one talks about it. But I do. I talk about it. Forever.

So he got me a book about it, where I can inhale everything and spit it back out resentfully at unsuspecting company, while sipping tea, glaring... at nothing in particular. This is sober Cynth. Drunk Cynth goes on tangents about Christopher Columbus. But I digress. I don't even like history, but what I dislike more than history is countries denying their history and not teaching it. I'm not talking about what people think the US does. I'm talking about a blatant, flat out denial by the government, refusal to acknowledge or mention it, ever.

Unit 731. IT'S DISGUSTING. JOSEF MENGELE WAS A BB UWU COMPARED TO GENERAL SHIRO ISHII.

and then, and then and then...

ROOSEVELT PARDONED ISHII AND HIS COMMANDERS IN EXCHANGE FOR THE DATA OBTAINED FROM "research"


uh oh. there she goes. I'm at an 8, dial it down. Here we go.
How's bout a bonnet?

Me like bonnets. Bonnets good. Had to get one. My face quite literally rejects ultraviolet rays by screaming pus and inflammation out of the pores on my face. I could've gone with one of those circle wide brimmed hats, but lolno.

I'm a bloodborne boss. I tend to my garden, and when you come near me, my arms fork into long sharp appendages that function like giant tentacle-like sheers that cut you in half if you hurt my black flowers. I scream, "WHAT KIND OF MOTH ARE YOU? NNNNNGGGAH!" and just launch at you and try to cut you in half. My hair is just black vines that spit poison. Same thing except the poison part. The only way to hurt me is to do damage until my bonnet falls off. I gradually turn a little more red and scream in pain as the sunlight agitates my grotesque rosacea. It's fine.

This was a gift to myself. FFFFFFFFF THE SUN.

My mama also sent me yummy stuffffff!!! She made pionono and alfajores omg. They're caramel desserts. The top one is like a spongecake, the bottom ones are like... two soft chewey cookies sandwiching caramel. It's hard to describe. But I love theeeemmm...

AAAANNNNND since she's been growing huacatay (black mint) all summer.

She had so much of it that she sent me two jars of the concentrated sauce in oil with aji. In this state it's not ready to eat, but I've been making aji de huacatay and we're almost finished with the first jar. If anyone is familiar with Inca's by campus, that green spicy sauce? It's similar to that. Mmpf. Been using it on everything.


| MORE CAR STUFF

 Damn, I have to admit... before Chicken, cars held zero interest to me. None. If anything, that entire subculture came off to me as like ... the flashiness, making spectacles of themselves, the expensive DLCs for looks... exhibitionism was the biggest trait at first glance. I say this now with an obnoxious rig housing a bunch of RGB parts screaming inside it.

Now, I'm slowly shifting that obnoxiousness to my car. But differently. Chicken is far from obnoxious. He just likes comfort and things that look good. I look like Gollum, but that's neither here nor there.
He recently put in red footwell lights in his GTI, and now I want purple in mine. Help.

There are red reflectors detailing the interior. It looks cool. I just. I... 

I don't know how I got here.

And he looked cute changing the oil in his car :\

Um. So.

A few posts back, we learned that Cynth, me, I, suck royally at tinting. But it's my birthday weekend. So I'm going to gift myself something nice.

WOOKIT BULLY BB SO CYOO

HE EVEN HAS HIS EARS INTACT, WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WELL BEHAVED BB

Chicken found this place, Top Tint Shop on yelp. Had insanely good reviews. We were out doing errands when he messaged them on yelp, they responded, and said they were open that same day for what I wanted done. So.

THERE'S MY NOODLE before getting fitted for her new vinyl oufit

I was uncomfortable leaving Noodle somewhere all by herself, but it had to be done. It was my birthday. Had no choice.

LINO WAS AWESOME. TLDR: HE'S DOPE. WE WENT BACK LIKE 3 MORE TIMES

It came out so sick that Chicken decided to have his windows and tail lights tinted also.
After all of our visits, we both left there will fully tinted windows, tail lights, and he opted for a protective film on his headlights. Later on, I may go back to get my head lights tinted. But what I really want now is to have my hood wrapped with black satin. I've been learning so much, and I wanna do right by Noodle. Also my ego.
But like... now, I'm understanding wanting to customize.
It may very well be, for some, an exhibitionism thing- whatever. But why the shit did I care? I don't even know. It's not that for me, nor Chicken I don't think. He wants something classy. I just want Noodle to match my wardrobe, (Lino asked me if I wanted chrome delete, but honestly I like the chrome because it matches my braces and piercings kek). Uh, but yeah, it's like customizing your PC. Just on a bigger scale. It looks cute. And everyone does it for different reasons. And that's fine. Past Cynth was annoying. Young. Naive. Future Cynth will thank me.

His and hers tints ayyyyy.
Driving back from the shop felt cuuute cuz we drove side by side for a while lol. Stupid xD

Following that, he went in and changed his exhaust out for what I call a purr tube.

da purr tube.

He literally removed the lung.

Buh it's been fun. Chicken also said now that my tail lights were tinted, LEDs are a safer alternative than the factory bulbs. So he did that for me. At least, the reverse lights. The brake lights come later. He's been doing all kinds of stuff to his car that makes me wanna add cute lights too uwu

ANYWAY OK. END CAR STUFF

BDAY DAY STUFF
Chicken made me dan bing and prepared rose tea for breakfast T___T
Is yummy Taiwanese egg crepes that are sooo so yummy. They taste like dumplings but in crepe form with the yummiest garlic dipping sauce omg. He would make these for me before, but it's been a while. We had a couple green onions we could pick from the garden, but not enough for several. Still yummy.

CONFIRM: FRESH GREEN ONIONS PICKED FROM THE PLANT ARE LEGIT AMAZING

waaaah so cyoo

And I didn't find out til later that we were gonna have a bday bbq lol. oH man. They went all out with food

Bacon wrapped shrimp, corn on the cob, steak, ribs, spicy chicken

 

I whipped up some aji de huacatay and served it with the steak

That feeling when people try something from your culture that you've grown up with, and then they're like damn wtf is this it's so dope, and you're like... thanks man. It really is.

*chef's kiss*

Lifa was at it again with the drinks

Is this offensive? I don't know.

I don't remember how we got into the topic... probably huacatay... it's a Quechua word... and
my grandma spoke Quechua.
And, when you go to Machu Picchu, the tourists pay $6487393874 to get pictures with the natives chillin on the roads up the mountain with their llamas and parrots. I know this. Because I've been there twice. And.
That's me.
I'm natives.

jk sort of

Chicken sent pictures to my parents.

Oh yes. 

The indigenous people of Peru also get down with brimmed hats. And that's exactly what I think of when I see them worn with certain "aesthetics" kek

There is a bat beanie baby in my shaw. It's fine.

Honestly tho, a while back, I wanted to implement those elements into my wardrobe more, so that's why I even have that skirt and hat. No lie. I went on a shopping spree of different skirts that I could wear casually, with a brimmed hat, and... well, there I am. My parents appreciated everything about it, including the lols and attention to detail

Oh hey, he's accidentally lighting stuff on fire again :D

Ahhh, so good. 

Everybody chillin

Life is good :B

OH.
So... my petunias... I learned how to find seeds from them. It was kinda accidental and weird. I saw this pod on one of the dried stems and was like ooh, that's cool. I cut off all the dried stems that lost their blossoms anyway, so I decided to split it open just to see what was inside. And...

precious black magic petunia seeds!!

I've harvested several since. And have begun the germinating process to grow more in other pots. They've since exploded compared to the first photo!

UGH

I can't.

Idk what those blotches are tho. Might be from watering. I gotta be more careful. 

And lastly, like. I've been playing so much Sense these last few days. It's crazy.

I wanted to finish it before the devs launched the update that makes it modern/conventionally easier.

Dude, Mario only took 2 hits in Super Mario World and then you had to start all over. Like. :|

Whatever. I finished it. And the NG+. There's a small unlockable chapter which was cool, and this update is supposed to iron out some bugs in NG++. So that's what I'll be doing this weekend.

 God it's so satisfying to come across an indie game and utterly fall in love with it.

Is she talking to me? Hello? Yes?

On that topic of indie games and coming across teh gems, we were talking this weekend about how awkward it can be when trying to like... talk to other peeps who game. Like;

Hey man, what're you playing right now?

Ah, I just got [AAA title]-

Nice, I was thinking of getting it

Yeah, it's sick. I'm a few hours in and just got to____

Oh you're at _____, I'm watching ___ stream it

    Yeah haha. I watch him too did you see xyz? What are you playing?

Ah, I'm actually playing [AAA title] and it's so good

Oh yeah, I'm gonna pick that up next week

VS.

Hey man, what're you playing right now?

    Oooh, Sense; cyberpunk ghost story

Oh, cool. What's that?

2D point and click indie game! 

Ah, that's cool 

Yeah :) You?

[BIG WEINER AAA TITLE]

Y'know?
That's the best I could do. It was more sophisticated in conversation, but the gist of it is that. There's nothing wrong with AAA titles lol. It's just awkward when you're excited to talk about something and the reality is that more often than not, few will have an idea what you're talking about.

idk what I'm getting at. 

Indie games are dope. I hope a wave comes where everyone decides to go down the indie game rabbit hole just to see the crazy that's down there. Talk about it. Encourage future devs-to-be to pursue their dream projects and see them through. Because chances are, someone will absolutely love what you created. 

And then on the flip side... I recently watched a thing on youtoom on this channel that visits abandoned places. Turns out, there was a school that fed radiated oatmeal to the students because MIT wanted to see what would happen lmao. So MIT and Quaker oats [yep] partnered up to ... yknow... Shiro Ishii* up these kids. And. Fallout 4 totally has a school with radiated "pink slime" that was being fed to the kids, with all these tapes and files you discover in all the desks and stuff, talking about what the school was trying to hide and stuff. Crazy. Idk if it was on purpose, but ... if it was... that's pretty cool. 

screenshot SAVED thank da lawrdt

This is what I think about now that I'm wiser. RIght? Older = wiser? 

psyche lol 

i just want chipotle

okay BYYYYE

*Shiro Ishii: asshole doctor during WWII who got greenlit from emperor Hirohito to oversee Unit 731, a covert human experimentation unit for development of chemical and biological warfare stuff. It was pretty shitty.

Pwnage

    School is in session! I'm already ahead on everything. It's so easy when math isn't involved. Ever. Again. Been cool though. Everything's online and I loooooooooooooooooove iiiiitttt. The classes all encourage discussion and whatnot. Graded lol. Whatever. But people think I'm funny and the validation from that is like sustenance. NOM LAUGH DO IT NOM NOM
No-face but with different specs.

My mom is ecstatic about the field I wanna go into. Chicken's mom is worried I'll attract hungry ghosts. He jests, but like... was half serious. I get that. Eastern culture is saturated with spirit folklore and celebrates a whole month for ghosts. That's cool. Latin culture vibes with that too.
I mean, I like to think that I'm respectful as far as sacred places go, but lol ... I thought I was being respectful in Pennsylvania, and then we had 103 fevers all weekend. So.
To reiterate, I don't believe in them, but I do believe in negative and positively charged places, items, people, etc. But it's cool. That's what talismans are for

BUT
yknow what's totally scary? Scares me, even?
Shamans. Shamans are scary. All the way up, dial on 11. In all cultures. They [can] fuck with the wrong side of everything ever. Like. If there was spiritual debt and payment... they gamble. The chips they use are atrocities. Shit is wHAcK. lol I'm not even joking. From Peru to Panama to Uganda to India; THAT shit is scarier than anything I obsess over. And I'm not talking about the ones you can find on google that claim to heal you. There are "good" ones, and then there are the whack ones. The documentaries about the whack ones are mind blowing.

So yeah, ghosts suck less than shamans.

❀ The living are scarier than the dead ❀

Is that how we're starting this post? LOOKS LIKE IT

SO SPEAKING OF GHOSTS :D
MY BFF SURPRISED ME WITH THIS (cuz Mary Shelley and I share the same day of birth)

lol Bendy

Killer Instinct was the first fighter I played growing up. On SNES. I still have that cartridge- the dope black one. Hisako wasn't added til much later, with tons of lore. She's the best waifu, also pretty op. Her design and stage are soooooooooooooooooooooo pretty. There's like... two versions of her. This one is the original, and then there's another that's supposed to be when she transforms into some kind of guardian. This one's cooler. Man, Killer Instinct is crazy underrated as far as fighters go. People sleep on it and like... why? It's so good
And like, adding an onryo character like this... they simply don't exist outside of the realm of survival horror games. HINT HINT HINT TO ALL GAME STUDIOS EVER - so for this character to be in a game outside of that is .... *chef's kiss* fucking amazing.

Chicken saw how excited I was about photographing her so he sneaked in some lights

 She's so well made. The details are mmpf. I wish I had taken more of her kimono and the whole statue but, can google it lol. This is kinda what she does in the game. She has this glow around her when she does stuff. It's sick.

THANK YOU PONIES, I LOVE HER. SORRY I OPENED IT EARLY.


Car stuuuuuffff.
There were two more lights that needed tinting. The little ones beneath the tail lights. Chicken went in and took everything apart just to get to them T_T

So now it's all blacked out. :D
The tail lights are still gross, but it's fine


PLANTS

I need to wear a veil or something when I go outside because ever since i got the plants, I've been going outside every day to smother and love them too much. There's nothing wrong with that except for being blasted by photons, agitating the dumbest concentration of this rosacea battlefield across the center of my face. I HATE THE SUN SO MUCH


I have hats, they just don't offer much sun coverage. yeugh. So I just impulse bought a bonnet. Bonnets are in right now, right? Cool. Problem solved. Little Cynth on the Prairie in hellish Southern California sunshine, at your service.

CAN I TELL YOU
Once upon a time, someone once told me that she had to cut caterpillars in half while tending to her garden. We all teased her about how barbaric that sounded. It still does sound barbaric.

UNTIL A FEW DAYS AGO;

lOOK AT that fucker. EATING MY PETUNIAS.
Dude. I had NO idea. How brutal those are. I was a toll noob. No clue where they came from. Probably was already on there when I bought the petunias. But BOY DID I LEARN STUFF.
So,  earlier this week when I went out to water, I noticed these tiny tiny itty bitty black dots. Like tiny little black pebbles, all over some of the leaves. That didn't seem right, so I looked it up. Not surprisingly, they were tiny poops. From budworms. That devour petunias. Which made a lot of sense, because the flowers that were there were eaten through and were wilting. Like... so bad. And I was like WTF THAT TOLLY SUCKS ASS.
It's suggested to distinguish where the poops were, and behead the buds that were growing in those areas because its likely that they are infested with eggs. I was PISSED. They ate my flowers, but are also eating my leaves, and now infesting the buds. But I couldn't spot any. It took me several minutes to finally spot the first one, that was just chillin on one of the stems.

I did it. I did the thing. I stormed inside, grabbed the sheers and did the thing. Idk if it was because I was projecting, or if it was because of the other person telling me that's how she controlled them, but I did it. The site suggested drowning them in soap water, but like... idk about that. Anyway, it was dead. I cleaned off all the poops and eggs I could find on the leaves. Left it alone and went back inside. I went outside later to check on it. POOPS REAPPEARED. BITCH WHERE ARE YOU.

See image above.

I missed it the first time. This time, I was gonna make sure that no leaf or bud went unchecked. After some more research, I learned that these fuckers come out at dusk and are most active during the night. SO

Just like how Leon the professional brings his plant in at night, lol... that's what I've been doing the last few days. I had to pluck off all the flowers that were eaten. The large one on the right was the only one from the original blooms that survived. Everything else, gone. The left one was a bud, and the sleepy one on the bottom right is blossoming. The good thing though is that because I cut off a bunch of buds, the ones that remained are now growing super fast.

Today... I found a tiny caterpillar... but no other sign of them anywhere else. I'm gonna watch my petunias like a hawk now. They're too pretty to die to asshole invasive moth pups. Like, I'm big on relocating insects to somewhere else for them to be safe and happy... BUT I'M NOT GONNA LET THEM EAT MY PETUNIAS. FCUKEM. Other than that, all my plants are chillin. Even Baby Sarlacc. His condition is stabilizing. His roots are growing, look healthy, and the buds growing in the center of his cute widdle serrated rosetta look green and promising.


Chicken got me this cyoo air freshener for Noodle :3

 She smells like matcha hyuuuuhhh ^_^

For anime tuesday, I told Lifa that I had a fever.

HE DELIVERED

Featuring the most delicious spacy sauwz. For that top tier ouch with that yums

Drunk Cynth took to the white board again;

 This household (just me and Homdre) believes in the Pwnage gospel. The godfathers of internet web series. And taking noobs to school. You can take a noob to like, water, but you can't make a noob like, drink.
Me and Homdre force fed Lifa 5 episodes before he couldn't take anymore. He hates it. But he understands it now. Chicken just refused and walked out of the room rofl.

I miss this.

 How long ago was this, I don't even know. Pre-rona beards. Sun Nong Dan galbi jjim goodness. With our best friend who used to be a SC pro back in Korea. Damn, good times. I don't even like back ribs but you know what... I'd tolerate them to have this again for one night.

Psyche lol no I wouldn't. It's supposed to be short ribs, we talked about this already

jk

I think.

No. It says short ribs, and it's an expensive dish. Nope. Can't. Lawful.

Lastly, this title just launched a few days ago on Steam; 

Sense - 不祥的预感: A Cyberpunk Ghost Story

Obviously. Appealing. to me. There's folklore and all of the above. But then like, almost immediately got pulled bacause there was so much negative feedback in reviews. I went through them, and it seems like a lot of people had a hard time navigating the game. Like... just dying a lot, not knowing what to do, being confused and stuff. Which can be frusterating. And then I saw the developers' note in their apology letter lol

When we set out to make the game, I wanted to make a game in the method of old school survival horror titles like Fatal Frame , Resident Evil, and most importantly Clock Tower. This meant very limited saves, deep exploration, repeated trial and error, punishing deaths, and a reliance on careful reading and planning your actions are the things; things I find engaging about those older titles. I wanted to bring those aspects back first and foremost.

 PRECIOUS. Don't they know that gamers don't read? lolz jk

It's fine.

I eat failure for breakfast. Tastes like LEARNING, MMMM.

Jk. 

I will say this though... There are a ton of indie games of that "aesthetic" on Steam that deserve more attention. Projekt Red has a monster marketing team pointing at itself, screaming at the top of its loud af yellow lungs to pay attention to them, but VirtuaVerse didn't. 

Phenomenal game. Beautiful soundtrack. Awesome story. Impressive, gorgeous pixel art. Like... idk. Just bugs me. 

That theme is big right now, and like... if you wanna experience that, can also play _Observer.

Different genres, but both submerge the player into that environment and atmosphere. _Observer holding a more noir feel than VirtuaVerse.

Mkay that's my preachy blabber. I know once my bonnet comes in, everything will be okay. I'll sit in the corner, bonnet equipped, and eat taro waffers until my rosacea goes away. Surely that's how it works. It'll make all the caterpillars disappear. Not forever, just within a 50 mile radius of my petunias. 

I sweartaghad if I see more budworm poop.... 

grr.
I gotta go to the garden center again and see if they have spray to sheep the adds. And probably buy more petunias. This time, I'll know what to look for. If I do get another petunia plant and it has evidence of budworms I'm gonna wreak vengeance. ALL of it. Maybe not use scissors tho and just smash em quick. War.

War never changes.

I'm gonna tolly pwn those moth noobs like, pretty hard and stuff, right

HAPPY FRIYAY 

fishnet or mesh masks are evil, put people at risk and make you look stupid :D

Have a great weekend!