Whoa

   This entry will test my powers of memory since... it's been a while. The last thing I can recall worth writing about waaass... maybe some charms I sold? I feel like my investments were for naught. My Etsy has been silent. It's a little baffling because I've gotten so many "when are you selling them?!", so when I finally do it's kind of... not that.

It is what it is. Though, I haven't really advertised it much, but spamming people is not what I want to do. Word of mouth seems way more legit. There's a psychology behind that I think; if someone tells you about something they saw, heard, or bought it's because they want you to enjoy it as they did. If you shove something down someone's throat, forcing this on them, it's more likely that they'll just get sick of it and ignore or avoid it all together- unless they're brainless and just want to be a part of everything.

K.

Look at this!

Super cuuute! It was a custom for Kyrie. I can make those in a bunch of different colors you know. Guys. I can make them. In all the colors. Guys. Ok? Just saying.

No word from the Beta, so I take it I wasn't accepted. Which blows, but I'm still glad they're being that strict. However... LET ME TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED THAT HAS CHANGED MY LIFE AGAIN FOR THE BETTER

I'm playing World of Warcraft again!! What? WoW? Really? Gross.
No, not... WoW wow, but Vanilla WoW :DD

We are playing on a private server created just for veterans like meeeeee ^_^
Literally. Look!

I read that and almost cried. I actually got teary-eyed when I left the tomb I spawned in and didn't see a bunch of yellow shit all over my monitor indicating where to go. I was home again.
No blatant tool tips, no obnoxious yellow question marks on my map, no retarded re-made starting area... just silent, unpressured (not a real word?) quest reading and seeking out your next location like a true RPG. Ah.... :) *purrrrr* ^_^

Ever since, this is pretty much what has been taking up most of my free time. I'm level 14 and I also rolled a Warlock.

Also I made this:

Cool shit, right?! I loved that show! It's another commission piece. So I haven't fallen completely into the mmo relapse of utter uselessness. However, I have fallen short of my other charms that I really want to make, but ... get distracted from. :P heehee.

Here are so more WoW screenshots :D

Spawning point!

The spiders in the cave are agro again. :) 

I remember when they changed that... totally unneeded. Rot, Josh, and I all played that night til late just reliving the starting zone until we reached Brill. Good times. We cleared this cave just for the hell of it. Ahhh... ^_^

The original Sylvanas model. I admit, this was one of the changes that they implemented that I actually really liked. Mostly because it didn't affect my gameplay, and it made her more accurate, aesthetically. But it was still cool to see her in this form again.

:D Apothecary in the Undercity. 

What our nightmares were made of back in the day. Son of Arugal would somehow sneak up on you and destroy you. He'd just patrol the area, and he was way higher level than you. so killing him was rofl no.

My friends had a show at the Viper Room on Tuesday! I've never been. What a teeny, tiny venue. But I saw a bunch of people I know there. Unfortunately I didn't take any pictures that night. My bag is a pain to get in and out of, and Rot gave me his jacket to stow away so... meh. Jamison's band played; Modern Weapons. Before them was a metal band, I forgot their name. Kauze? Idk. They were alright. I don't even like metal. I'm not talking about the shit that's on TV, btw...with the clown make up and ugly chicken hair. That's not even metal. I had to clarify that. Anyway, after Jamison, Elena's band went on! She looked so beautiful and did great! She's gotten so much better since she first started. You could see a little nervousness before, but now she's blowing everyone away :)

I saw my friend Eric that night, Jason too. Met some new people who weren't crazy. That was neat. 

It's always nice to be surrounded by people you know. At least for me it is... I don't get anxious and start panicking. Or at least with sort of like-minded people. Makes going out a little less stressful for me. I will admit at some points it felt like this 

 I had a good time though. We all did, I think. It was good to see Elena again. She always tells me how much she likes me. I like her too. I wish I didn't suck at showing it, though.

At one point during the night Dave Navarro grabbed one of the locks hanging from my up do and asked me if it was yarn or my real hair. 

My initial thought was "oh wow... why are you grabbing something of mine without asking me?" 

I told him it was my real hair, he complimented me. I smiled a thank you and turned my attention back to Elena.

Sociology of the Day: Status doesn't make being presumptuous okay. At least not with me it doesn't.

Towards the end of the night I was invited to go to an after-party at Angels & Kings, but I wasn't in the mood. We all had just gotten WoW on our machines and I was eager to just get home and play. Rot drank himself too much again, so I drove us back. Josh said the Subway by our house is open 24 hours... soooooooooo we stopped there. When we got home everyone just went to bed. I had to get Rot ready for bedtime again. It's like this happens every week. lol sigh. The next day we played some more WoW until I pooped out and took a nap.


What else?
Last night was my co-workers birthday party. From the last few get-togethers I've attended, I had assumed, mistakenly, that it would be just as all the others. A humble little thing between co-workers. I was severely mistaken. A co-worker came to get me so we'd all go together. It took some convincing, to which I later found out that there was some stupid gossip drama at work again. I was so blissfully ignorant of it all. I'm unsure of who has been talking about it but I can take a huge wild guess, and can probably say it's the same people that fabricated the crap about me as well. I told her it's always a pissing contest and to not worry about it. We got there and there were only a few people there, mostly from work. My ride left shortly thereafter, but I told her I'd stay and find a ride later. More people started arriving that weren't from work. It got louder, so I asked if there was an xbox or ps3 somewhere that I could check out. They led me to another room with an entertainment system with a PS3. I chose Bioshock. I sat in that room in solitude for a while. Mainly due to the game needing an update, and after that... it also needed installing. Which felt like an hour. As I was waiting for everything to finish, the party sounded like more and more people kept showing up, and there was shouting and "WOOOO"- ing. I called Rot and asked him if he could come get me. He was drinking, so he asked Josh. The game finally finished installing, and I didn't get very far before another co-worker came into the room and asked me about dating a friend of theirs. I don't know if it was because she was tipsy or not, but she was very jubilant. All I could do was look at her in horror and arch my eyebrow in a "why are you asking me this... no" way. She said we'd be very cute together and all geeky and whatnot. I'm moved. I told her I was leaving, we talked a little more and she left the room. I went to the bathroom. Came back to a missed call and walked out. I wanted to say goodbye to everyone but there were so many people that I only got to say goodbye to one co-worker and gave up and just walked out.

I'm... not normal. Sorry.

Rot took us to get frozen yogurt!! So yumms ^_^

Nilla calls.

Shout

 I had my job review today, finally. The pay raise was implemented months ago, however I still wanted to know what she felt I could improve on. Is that weird? Maybe it's an ego thing, I don't know. But it mattered more than just the money. Integrity is so stupid.
We also had a meeting today. It came across to me more as entertainment than a lecture.

Some stuff came in the mail for my little business (?) --- I feel weird calling it a business because like, it's just an online store. It's not like... legit. It is. but it's not ... I don't know. It's Noobish. Does that make sense? I dunno. Anywho I got some stuff for packaging, which elevated my mood. Also I got this little caddy thing for all my tools. I'm not OCD at all regarding that shit, but my little work desk was so cluttered that working on it was blegh. The simple things.


I had this song stuck in my head all day today.

Such a great classic.
The vocals, the music, the mood, tempo, everything. You can feel the emotion in the song.

It's actually really upsetting to me that the music that's considered good these days is... nothing at all within the plane of the talent from back in the day. I wasn't even born when this came out, but I love the music from that era, the 80's. It just feels and sounds more... genuine. There's real feeling to it, and the relationship between the instruments is like... they have this beautiful choreography that just fits so well together. And then there's the shit out today - stupid ass dubstep, shit like nicki minaj, qq bitches crying about the same old crap in dumb, cliche love songs, and stupid LOOKING bands that sound just as stupid trying to call high pitched whining "metal." It sucks. to me. And don't get me started on rap. I'm glad they can keep a rhythm as they speak, and rant about whatever in stanzas, but please... there's a massive difference between having ghost writers and keeping a rhythm... and being a composer. No, not producer. COMPOSER. Musician.

Ugh.
Ironically, I'm letting it all out. THANKS, TEARS FOR FEARS :D

Moving on.
Next week I'm hoping I don't exhaust myself with the all two outings I'll have. My friends' show, and then there's also yet another co-worker's birthday get together. I can't wait to watch the not at all subtle pissing contest that will ensue that evening. How many social experiments can one do in one night? Is that awful? Sorry. Simply and frankly, it's pretty entertaining to observe from a distance. Distance is great. I like distance. I wish to remain there.

I wish I had the balls to do a cover of that song. I probably could. Nooooooooooo, but I don't have the balls for it. Ew, I'm too shy. :( Also my roommate is literally always here, so I'm never recording another cover ever again.

Oh man. So I just saw this article that a friend shared: AKB48 member’s ‘penance’ shows flaws in idol culture | The Japan Times

OH. MAN.
Basically, this girl band member was seen leaving a boy's house.
Her contract with management forbids her to have a boyfriend because it will ruin the fans' fantasies.
This got out, and she shaved her head, which is considered an extreme act like.. oh shit, i fucked up. i'm humiliated.. and she's apologizing profusely and asking fans to take her back.
 Like the ULTIMATE I'm really fucking sorry. But her sexuality is stripped, and she just... ugh. she did that to herself... all over seeing a boy.

This hit the biggest nerve ever.
OH MY GOD the biggest nerve ever.

Some of you know. Some of you don't. I've dealt with some of the biggest bullshit of all time because of these "super fans" as Rot likes to call them. I like to call them burninafuckingfireanddie.
Can you believe that we've had that very "fans' fantasies and chances of getting with us" conversation?
WE HAVE. Believe me when I say it's HORSE SHIT. It's UTTER. HORSE SHIT.
NO. YOU DON'T HAVE A CHANCE.
EVER.
"They need to think they have a chance at having sex with us because we'll sell more albums, and they'll want to bring their friends to our shows"
But I can't say that. Because albums have to sell.
Ooops. Did I just say that?

This little girl's life is turned upside down, and her adolescence stolen from her because "super fans" wanna imagine themselves fucking her, and convince themselves SO MUCH that they have a chance to fuck her that she isn't allowed to have a personal life. GOD FORBID she kiss someone, WHAT WILL THE FANS THINK. OH NO.

Ugggghhh..

Can you tell I've dealt with that before?

I'm so irritated, lol.
I want to hug her so bad... and tell her how much I understand. And comfort her. and just... not see her cry over that. Begging for forgiveness and acceptance. That is such horse shit.



They really, really ought to know...
These are the things I can do without. I'm talking to you.

What a fitting song. Who knew?


Oh! On a happier note, haha, I sold more charms on my Etsy ^_^ so I will be busting those out and getting them shipped asap. Squeak. I want Ramen!

Implode

 There are many important times in your life where your skills are tested... on your persuasive talents, and eloquence. There's school testing, job interviews, and even the everyday interaction with other brain-having people --however banal that may be-- there's a performance check to maintain.

But none so other as important as the closed Beta testing essays.

Brown University's exclusivity has nothing on closed Betas. BTW, I only know about that University because of Gossip Girl.

If you plan on signing up, you better not BS filling this out. lol.
They want you to write an essay explaining why they should pick you to be in the Beta.
It felt like an entrance exam, which essentially it is.
I wonder if there's a timer coded on that page somewhere...

Anywho I'm glad they're taking those measures. Even if I don't get accepted, I'll be comforted in the fact that they're taking this seriously and are assuring us the best of the best to get the job done.
They also asked for my computer specs. I'm a little nervous about that. Even though I have a nice rig, it could be better. These days, the graphics engines that these games work on are becoming less and less forgiving which just means I have to get my shit together and get me that shiny, new graphics card. Hm.

My Etsy shop is doing okay. I got a few more sales. Not a lot, but it's a start. The only thing I don't like is that there's a fee for everything. No wonder some of the prices on there for the dumbest things are so whack --to make up for the fees! It's cool though. I have some orders to finish today and ship off, and then I'm gonna work on possibly more BOI and Penumbra charms. They've gotten some attention on Deviant Art in those little communities and it makes me feel giddy ^_^

Also... look at these cute little guys!

 I saw something on Tumblr a while ago that made me want to make this.

Actually I see a lot of things on Tumblr that are pretty inspiring. Like those little pudding charms?

They were different on Tumblr but still, so cute.

Since my friend Ponies generously supplied my little factory with some blocks of different kinds of clay, I put some to the test! This little guy I made by mixing Fimo translucent with a little of Fimo D-20 (sparkley purple) and got this really pretty pastel. I thought it'd be perfect for another cepholopod charm because... they kind of are translucent, but also pigmented. Voila! It blended beautifully, I love it.

 There is a MASSIVE difference between Sculpey transluscent and Fimo transluscent. 

OH MY JESUS, is there a difference. 

ST is pretty much just lame. Or maybe I've been baking it shitty? I don't know, but amazingly... FT came out great! Crafters who work with these two brands said that same thing, and now I know why. Fimo r best.

PS: Cute ghost cupcake is cute.

I'm sure a lot of people feel this way. They try to help someone else through their pain, and offer a temporary solace.

Then WHAM, used up and thrown away! hahaha

Isn't it cute though!?

Look at its little face, it's so sad! Believe it or not, this little charm was ALSO inspired by various gross images on Tumblr. ha

I feel like a tool. There's a dnd blog I watch on there and my soul hurts.

:(

That's SOOOOOOOOOOO not Drizz't! Initially Pharaun Mizzrym came to mind, but he wouldn't wear that kind of armor... so it couldn't have been Pharaun. Pharaun is a Wizard. So he'd wear like.. flaunt a dress or something. Psyche, they ain't no dresses they're ROBES!! :D

But Gromph is also a Wizard. Except he's the most powerful one in the Underdark. So I guess he can wear whatever the shit he feels like. And there's reason to kill him. Makes sense. 

His daughter sort of reminds me of Faith from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. She's kind of a bitch. Calms down later though. 

Okay. Done being a tool.

Even though I'm incredibly thankful and love everything I've received, I hope the packages cease, lol. It's nice to occasionally receive little gifts, but I don't want to be that guy. Idk, it's just awkward to me. And that's probably weird to normal people who want to get showered with gifts every moment of their lives, like the Fraud Insurance Folk in Glendale. This doesn't mean I'm any less grateful, but I feel like I'm going to implode from modesty.

However, with my profits from my sales I've bought a few more things for packaging. Yay!

I also have an idea that is going to be SOOOOOOOO CUTE for all you PC gamers. OH MY GHAD I can't wait. It has to arrive in the mail, but UGH. Just wait. lol

Okay...

Boring entry is boring.

Also, Rot and I are going to our friends' show at the Viper Room on Tuesday! Both their bands are playing (cuuuuuuuute) and and and and... it'll be fun because it's like.. we know everyone, and we've all shared Tuesday Time and birthday times together. And it's been a while since that's happened, all of us together and stuff. So that should be fun. LOTS OF PICTURES. EXPECT THEM.

k.

Sillies

   Remember when I said that Disney more than likely wasn't gonna happen? Well, I was right. I should be more disappointed but I'm not. I have today mostly to myself, and tomorrow as well. Gvies me time to make charmsies and game.


I was just in the kitchen cleaning the stove (girl power!) and my roommate walks in and goes:

Him: "Ray Park is going to be signing autographs at that comic convention next month."

me: "Huh, that's cool." *wipes counter*

Him: "Yeah, I told Rot and he all he said was 'who's Ray Park?' "

me: "... Yeah, I don't know who that is either."

Him: "Darth Maul."

me: "Oh, that short Puerto Rican dancer guy?"

Him: "He's a martial artist, yeah."

me: "Yeah, short Puerto Rican dancer guy."

Him: "Haha, yeah."


The short, Puerto Rican dancer guy has a name! 

That's cool I guess. He was just so tiny compared to Qui Gon and Obi-Wan. =\ Like a little yelpy dog or something. idk. I'm a bad person.

I'm re-watching Buffy and can't believe how much I've missed. I'm so happy.

So last week on Monday night we had some guests. Most random shit ever but it turned into Tuesday time. Literally and metaphorically. Kristof and his lady, Vanna Bananna came over! They brought wine. I made Kristof play some of Penumbra: Black Plague but his attention span was shot to shit, or he was too tipsy to focus lol. Vanna Bananna and I talked about how shitty WoW has become. She used to play, too! We all were just chilling for a while in the living room talking about video games while Rot ignored us. :) That's my Peemp!

Suffice to say we all got silly from the booze that was at hand. I wasn't as silly, but the boys definitely sillied way more.

Vanna Bananna ^_^

EPIC DUCKFACE

 

Kristof was trying to get Rot in the picture.

Rot wasn't having it. So he tackled him instead.

Sillified Kristof is sillified. XD

Josh made them rice and beans, lmao. It was Tuesday so... it's kind of a thing.

Vanna is great. I really, really like her. They just got a new place and am happy for them. Wish them both the best. 

They weren't in any state to drive so we made them stay the night. Josh gave them his great grandmother's knitted quilt to snuggle in. 

T'was a fun evening ^_^

He invited me to go see them at Bat's Cave last night but I'd be kidding myself... =\ 

I dunno, I have to be in the mood to engage in that scene. Otherwise I'll just hate it. 

What can I say? I'm a boring hermit.

Then I think it was Friday night? That I went to get some sushi with me pal Eric. We met a while ago through mutual friends, and the only thing we talked about was Warcraft III. So we got dat sushi at Octopus and literally just talked aboot mostly WoW, and he ranted about Death Knights. Probably one of the most hilarious things because the passion in his voice was similar to how Jeremy from Pure Pwnage talks when he's going on about his Command & Conquer games. We ordered a shit ton of sushi. I ate most of it. Ugh

So good T_T I felt like a fatass for eating that much in front of someone, lol. buuuuuuuuuuuut idgf! hah! Then we went to that bar place that my co-workers go to all the time. Brick..something. And we talked about more video games and Salad Fingers. Which brings me to this!

I made a Salad Fingers cupcake. Is that retarded? Yeah =[ 

I had already made a Salad Fingers chibi and thought HEY CUPCAKES ARE CUTE. WHY NOT MAKE A SALAD FINGERS CUPCAKE!? He has black frosting oozing out of his head ^_^ heehee

You can buy a Salad Fingers chibi charm on my Etsy. Eric motivated me to make all of the characters. So they will be a thing very soon and up for sale :D

 

Eric's impersonation of Salad Fingers has me loling because WHO DOES THAT.

And speaking of clay things, my friend's generous gifts keep on coming! I don't even know how to react anymore. He's sent the baking mat, two Fimo blocks of transparent and glittery purple clay. Two Sculpey III blocks -Ballerina pink and Granny Smith green (perfect for Gir charms), a shirt (that he insisted on exchanging) and a book. And clay softener which I've been using religiously since I've gotten it. It works amazingly. Also he sent me a mini cookie cutter set. I've already used the Fimo clay from the sampler and I can't believe how easier it is to work with. No wonder people prefer it over Sculpey III. 

I can be artsy when I want to.

Also made my first two sales on Etsy. That was a weird feeling, but I'm learning to deal. I'M WEIRD. WHY DID THAT FREAK ME OUT? I don't know. 

Maybe I just need Ramen. I would've liked to go today but... I'm scared of walking to the train station (here in NoHo) alone. It wouldn't be just for Ramen though, I wanna pick up some things at the book store. And boba tea. And Ramunè. And mochi. And candy. And everything. And a new parasol. I left mine in a friends car and unfortunately he lives very far away. And and and... I just wanna go. 

Now I'm hungry.

Something stupid

   Even though I'm not constantly working on what society considers a tangible accomplishment or even just productive, I couldn't imagine just sitting in my room all day and doing absolutely nothing. Not even working. Just constant nothingness but looking at websites and living vicariously through them. And I do that a lot. I'd die without my computer. And I don't go out. Which is pathetic all by itself, but I'm supporting my pathetic self, so at least I can say that, lol. I dunno. I saw an image the other night and it made me think. Despite my bitching about having to work, I'm thankful I do.

That guy is awesome. I hope to accomplish this some day.

Moving on!

 I have two cakepops. mmmm. I had 3, but I ate one. I also had a cheesecake brownie. I don't normally like brownies, or chocolate anything, but I was PMSing, so.

Op.. now I have one.

...

...

and now I have... 3/4 of one :)


Aren't they cute? They're my favorite. Honestly I think all the other cake pops taste too... too much. They're quite rich. I suppose that compensates for their size.

So I think I finally saved up enough money to buy a new video card. I'm thinking of stopping by Fry's on Friday after work. I'd get it on Newegg but the shipping + tax is a bitch. And if Fry's has it then boom.Which, if I remember correctly, they did have the one I had my eye on, but that was months ago. I'm wondering if something better is out.

I'm writing this entry while listening to "The Garden Meeting" by John Williams for the Memoirs of a Geisha movie. Is that weird?

So a few days ago when I got home from work I saw some packages at my door. Not my front door, but like.. my bedroom door.

...Did the mail carrier come into.. my apartment? I'm so scared..
It was probably Josh.
I had already guessed what one of the packages were, but saw that cardboard one and was like wtf is that? Looked at the sender address and was like wtf is this? Amazon.
I'm really smart, so I immediately knew.
Still though, the gesture was incredibly generous and it humbled the fuck out of me. I don't want anyone to think that they have to get me gifts for anything, as I am a chick who has come to appreciate intangible gaieties and vices more than material things; ironically through a very expensive material thing.
 It was a gift from my friend, Ponies.

 Unbelievable. These were some of the things that I had kept my eye on on my imaginary shopping list. I couldn't believe it, but I was very delighted. The most exciting thing was working with Fimo clay, to see how well I could work with it. It's a more expensive brand, but a lot of people really, really like it and prefer it over Sculpey III, and so I had to try it. And I did. It's AMAZING. Way more workable! I finished charms in less time because I wasn't sitting there conditioning it for 10 minutes for every new color I needed.
The tool set is awesome. I've already worked with it and I'm in love with it. It's way better than the other shit I picked up at Michael's, lol. Actually, I'm lying. I have different tools with different heads for different purposes. But this one is easier to use because of the handle and how lightweight it is, but the heads are well made and sturdy. They stay in the wand using a magnet and come with a little stand for the different heads. Super nice.

Look at all these awesome caution translations. I love it.
Look at the Swedish (I think?) one, and then look at all the others. It's horrifying.
ACHTUNG!  --- that's like the sound one makes when they sneeze. Wtf is that, is that German?

And the extruder I've used once so far. Takes a bit to get used to, but I'm sure I'll end up using it way more. I'll never have to roll out little, thin snakes ever again! haha

The clay has to be rather soft in order to use this tool. With sculpey that may be a bit of a challenge, but it's progress.

And what was in the other package?

My mailers. boring.

Wanna see something really stupid?

Not this. These are cute though. I wanted to put SBUX logos on them buuuuut then thought about... how like if I sell them with the logo I could literally get sued. So I did this as an alternative. That frappucceeni to the left has extra caramel... just how the latinos always order it.

"Is that Conan O'Brien?"
The answer is yes. Yes it is.
Believe it or not, it's a commission piece. I had no idea how to even approach this to be completely honest. However I'm happy with the final results considering how a couple people have already just taken one look at it and asked that exact question. Btw this isn't the stupid thing.


This is:

It's Chibi Conan O'Brien on the red carpet at the Post-it Awards!

okay bye.