Questions

   These use to run rampant on Deadjournal and Livejournal once upon a time.
Anyone remember those? Or used to keep one? I used to write religiously in my Deadjournal, every day after school, for years. Then I moved onto Livejournal, as more people seemed to be using. Then ... I started writing in here.

Anywho, I used to fill these out all the time. They're fun ways to pass the time, and probably just as entertaining for readers.
After the news Fett gave me today about our next adventure, I'm feeling like doing something else on here.

SORRY IF IT SUCKS.

 1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
Fett

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Depends who I'm accompanied by usually, how tired I am, and/or their energy.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Probably D-Piddy in his next Cosplay at the next Con

4. Are you easy to get alone with?
I think so. I have this traditional honor system that doesn't fit with the way many things are done in L.A., so I judge people more here than anywhere else. But if you're not a sycophant, we'll get along pretty well.

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
No. I wouldn't expect him to and I wouldn't want to put him in that situation. (Traditional honor system vs. LA lifestyle = no.)

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
Well spoken introverts with hobbies similar to mine.

7. Do you think you'll be in a relationship two months from now?
Easily

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
My dad. I wonder how he's doing.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Depends on who I'm having this conversation with.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
"Deep" is subjective. I don't think I've really had a "deep" conversation with anyone, recently.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
 Nope

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
Daddyuwarbash | Skinny Puppy
Reich Mir Die Hand | Blutengel
Bei Mir Bis Du Shoe | Andrews Sisters
No Big Deal | Love and Rockets
Flood II | Sisters of Mercy

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
Not really

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
Not really

15. What good thing happened this summer?
Last summer was full of Cons :)

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Without hesitation

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
Yep! It's silly to believe we're the only living beings in existence.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
Noooooo. Ew! haha

19. Do you like bubble baths?
^_______^ YA!

20. Do you like your neighbors?
I don't mind them would be more accurate.

21. What are you bad habits?
 I pick at my brows when the hair is growing back in. Dries them out and the hair grows back all busted, lol.

22. Where would you like to travel?
Barcelona!

23. Do you have trust issues?
Yeah. Not severe, but I have little expectations of people. Standards are high, but expectations are incredibly low. This helps with not being disappointed all the time.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
 Waking up and hitting the snooze button! :D

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
My tailbone is broken. So the back of my pelvis comes out kinda weird because I ate shit when I was little and it got all fucked up, lol

26. What do you do when you wake up?
Stretch and cuddle my beanie baby fur blanket!

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
I'm content with my complexion.

28. Who are you most comfortable around?
Fett

29. Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up?
I don't think they're the kind of people to admit anything like that even if it were true.

30. Do you ever want to get married?
Would be nice. Everyone loves tax breaks!

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?
Mmmhm

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
Oh god... I don't know. Ew =\

33. Spell your name with your chin.
 What chin?

34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Nooooooo. Gross

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
I pretty much live without the two already. Netflix and gaming for me, kthnx!

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Nah. What fun is that?!

37. What do you say during awkward silences?
Silence is never awkward!

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
Masked.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Ebay is the best store ever.

40. What do you want to do after high school?
For a long time I really didn't know.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
That depends on the severity of the situation and how much control the guilty person had ;)

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
Leave me alone

43. Do you smile at strangers?
Only if I find them doing something extremely nice, considerate, and/or polite.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
 Spaaaace

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
 The responsibility of paying my bills.

46. What are you paranoid about?
People lying about their intentions

47. Have you ever been high?
 Yeah. I tried it once in the company of people I trust.
I lost all sensation in my neck and felt paralyzed. Thought I was going to die. Never again.

48. Have you ever been drunk?
 Yeah. I don't like it.

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
Nah.

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
I'm wearing a hoodie right now. It's black ^^

51. Ever wished you were someone else?
Fheck nooooo. I'm pretty content with my life :D

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
My genetic make up with a flaw I have. Yucky!

53. Favourite makeup brand?
Ebay.

54. Favourite store?
Ebay

55. Favourite blog?
I'm not sure.

56. Favourite colour?
I like several Purple shades

57. Favourite food?
 ALL OF THEM. Except "healthy" reduced fat foods.
They taste like nothing and/or shit.

58. Last thing you ate?
 Dinner tonight was chicken and eggs over steamed rice

59. First thing you ate this morning?
 I didn't eat anything this morning :P

60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Nope! I don't enter competitions just over the principal of how stupid aggressive people become.
It's tacky.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
Yessum. I was in a fist fight in high school.

62. Been arrested? For what?
 Nope! I'm a good girl ^_^

63. Ever been in love?
 Yesssssumms

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
It was in ESL class (rofl) in 2nd grade. His name was Johnson and he was this little azn/pacific islander hybrid or something idk. We went behind the puppet theater and kissed. This was after much teasing and being mean to each other in our home class. Teehee

65. Are you hungry right now?
 Kinda. Good thing I'm at Starbucks!

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?
What's a tumblr friend? lmao

67. Facebook or Twitter?
 Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr?
Twitter

69. Are you watching tv right now?
Fcuk no

70. Names of your bestfriends?
Mom

71. Craving something? What?
Pastries and an iced mocha

72. What colour are your towels?
Purple and black

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
4

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
If they weren't constantly getting kicked off the bed, yes! haha

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
 Lots and lots!

75. Favourite animal?
Cuttlefishies

76. What colour is your underwear?
black and white striped with black lace lining boy shorts

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
 swiiiirrrrl-iiirrrlll

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
mango ^_______^

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
It's my purple skelly tank top

80. What colour pants?
 My jack skellington jammies

81. Favourite tv show?
 Bob's Burgers

82. Favourite movie?
 The Professional

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
Mean Girls 2 didn't appeal to me, so I never watched it =\. It wouldn't be fair to answer this

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
 Wat?

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
The dumb one.

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
Dory, of course!

87. First person you talked to today?
Fett

88. Last person you talked to today?
Some other regulars at Starbucks sitting across from me

89. Name a person you hate?
 Hate is pretty charged, so I wouldn't use "hate" but there's a lot of animosity towards Anita Sarkeesian. She grinds my gears >_<

90. Name a person you love?
My Papa!

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
Anita Sarkeesian

92. In a fight with someone?
Anita Sarkeesian

93. How many sweatpants do you have?
Ewwwww...

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
There's a turtleneck sweater that I own, and this one hoodie I'm wearing currently.

95. Last movie you watched?
 Lovelace? I don't remember, I don't retain movies well.

96. Favourite actress?
 Nope.

97. Favourite actor?
Nope.

98. Do you tan a lot?
Eww..

99. Have any pets?
Not currently. Here's hoping that when I get my own place I'll be able to have a little companion

100. How are you feeling?
Sore in my back, with a sweet tooth, but relaxed.

101. Do you type fast?
I like to think so. All thanks to Mario Teaches Typing 2!!

102. Do you regret anything from your past?
 Not at all! I'm so glad to be where I am, I wouldn't change anything whatsoever :D

103. Can you spell well?
 The wellest.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
Of course. 

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
Oh yes. Very naaahce

106. Ever broken someone's heart?
Probably

107. Have you ever been on a horse?
When I was little, my mom took us to go horseback riding in Peru. I remember it hurt my crotch and it was really high up, and it felt like we were gonna fall off the sides! But I'd go again in a heartbeat!

108. What should you be doing?
 Nothing else really. Probably keep trying to pass that one stage in Bioshock Infinite. I think I'm close to beating it, finally.

109. Is something irritating you right now?
Noooope ^_^

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
I'm sure, back in like Jr. High or High School. 

111. Do you have trust issues?
 Yeah. I question peoples' intentions because the standards I hold for people to be just nice in their every day routines is difficult for many. So when they try to be nice, it's usually to get something out of the other party they're being nice to. There's a word for people like that; Sycophant.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Fett. He makes me so happy that I cry from joy!

113. What was your childhood nickname?
Cynti

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Mhm!

115. Do you play the Wii?
No. I have played on it, but I don't think it's for me :(

116. Are you listening to music right now?
 Yeah. It's what's playing at this Starbucks right now. No clue. Sounds like a jolly, soulful, black dude that's exclaiming how awesome this chick is. Good for him!

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
Mmmmmm...

118. Do you like Chinese food?
OH MAN, DO I

119. Favourite book?
The Stinky Cheese Man

120. Are you afraid of the dark?
That show was so good, omg. Wish it'd come back or at least be put on Netflix

121. Are you mean?
 I am very good at being mean because it's easy for me to disconnect myself from people and/or situations and be nothing but hyper-rational. It pisses people off when they are not appeased.

122. Is cheating ever okay?
 Nope. It's just one of those easy way out of things in life that people do.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
I'm sure it's possbile

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope!

125. Do you believe in true love?
Love is felt in several different levels. You love your parents, you love your friends, your love your partner, your professors, your colleagues, your favorite restaurant. "True love" is just another way to market to insecure people (mostly chicks) to buy magazines and watch stupid movies and tv shows and anything else that would tell them how to find "true love"

126. Are you currently bored?
Not at all! I actually just got a bunch of stuff to snack on ^^

 127. What makes you happy?
My computer, bats, my room, paid off bills, Fett :P

128. Would you change your name?
 Nope

129. What your zodiac sign?
Virgo! The nit picky bitch of the Zodiac

130. Do you like subway?
 Meeeehhhh. Maybe once every few months?

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

132. Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
I can't recall.

133. Favourite lyrics right now?
No clue

134. Can you count to one million?
I'd probably get tired before finished, so probably not

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
 was probably one to get out of school?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Ew, closed!

137. How tall are you?
5'2 ^^

138. Curly or Straight hair?
Wavy

139. Brunette or Blonde?
Brunette

140. Summer or Winter?
Fall

141. Night or Day?
Night/Dusk

142. Favourite month?
Con month!

143. Are you a vegetarian?
I unintentionally lean towards vegetarian diets, but no I'm not.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
 No chocolate :D

145. Tea or Coffee?
Iced Coffee!

146. Was today a good day?
Oh, yes. It most certainly was

147. Mars or Snickers?
 Yuck =\

148. What's your favourite quote?
"I can crawl inside my own ass to create a quantum singularity" - someone trolling Trade chat in WoW several years ago.

149. Do you believe in ghosts?
I'm not sure

150. Get the closet book next to you, open it to page 42, what's the first line on that page?
Noooo, I don't wanna get up =\

April/May is going to be crazy. I just took a look at my calendar and there's sooooooooooooo much happening. I'm actually missing quite a few days of work and a part of me feels like there's gonna be a talk coming from the boss to ask me to not take off as many weekends. Especially with my new added responsibilities.OH WELL. Gotta do what ya gotta do. I didn't realize how much time off I was taking until I looked at it today. That will be remedied.

It's really relaxing here at night. I should come by more often to write. 

Anyway, boring post is boring.
I got a new camera for filming, so YouTube things have been resumed.
See?

Okay. I'm sleepy. Time to split for sleepy things kinda. x_x

Booty

Lazy Sunday began early today. 

   Omg you guise it's been raining here more than L.A. has ever seen and I love it. It feels like an actual season that isn't gross!

This morning I woke up at Fett's. He split for work and I started my morning with a visit to my old work. My haggard ass needed it.

Nom, nom, nom!
Contrary to what some people say, I actually enjoy the caramel flan flavor. It's probably because growing up, my mom made us flan lol. I fucking love flan. Not the box shit; she'd make it all from scratch and it was effing delicious. I think the flavor comes pretty close.

I also got another package in the mail!

I got a new handheld with an old Zelda game. So I had to get a new Zelda game, duh. Thanks, Ebay! ^_^. Got it waaaaaaaaaaaaaay cheaper than what they had at Fry's and Best Buy, so the guilt is less shitty.   Shhh.... let me enjoy this...


N E W    C H U R C H  |

My favorite club night was last night! I told myself I was gonna go no matter what, and that almost didn't happen, not surprisingly. But I mean it's once a month so... c'maaaaaahn. Cynthia, staaaaaahhp and just gooooooo, c'maaaaaahn..

So I went with BURHURMURRRRR. Also know as Bahemoth. It just sounds better as BURHURMURRRRR to me, idk. I hadn't seen the guy in forevs, and he's another sculpey user that likes tentacles. One day I'll be able to sculpt the way he does. TURNS OUT HE JUST DESTROYS THEM ONCE HE'S DONE, UGH. He cray. Despite my level of craft with my miniatures, there's plenty left to learn. There's always plenty to learn! YAY LEARNING (about things I like and not like.. math and stuff)

He does stuff, if you care.

So he came over and we chatted while I finished getting ready. He's helped me pick out finishing touches to my outfits in the past. I think it's because of his hair?

We were hungry because bananas. So in lieu of the circumstances and for reasons, Hooters seemed appropriate. Not that Hooters it not ever appropriate for everything ever, but that it was especially perfect for this occasion. Because boobies. and we ate like fat kids.

 There's a little history FYI on how Hooters started you guise.

1983... humble beginnings boobs..

 What about my 6 day old tongue piercing?

 Fuck it.

 Our waitress was probably the friendliest person I've ever spoken to in my entire life, ever.

Her name was Corbin ♡

She wrote it out exactly like this on a napkin for us in case we forgot. Which was totally reasonable because I totally would've. No thanks to her very ginormous manners and bouncy personality which coupled well with her super charismatic people skills. I totally would've forgotten.

BURHURMURRR wasn't impressed. Probably because he's such a BALLER look at him

Yeah. We left with full tummies and learned that there's actually a Hooters pageant thing that .... is real. Like a whole bunch of Hooters girls compete to be the best at.... something really useful to society, I'm sure, and get crowned and titled Miss Hooters. It's wonderful

Then we split for Le Club.
Originally we were gonna hit up Complex and Bar Sinister. He was gonna go to Bar Sin, and my plans were to just go to Complex, but..... it was unanimous that Bar Sinister is nauseating, and he decided that Complex would be the best choice; which it totally was. 

We danced our BOOTIES off. The best thing about these goth clubs is that you can flail all kinds of busted drunken hell and it's still fine and goes with the music, generally.

With this logic, my shyness was dormant this night, and the flailing commenced thusly.

Eating shit on wet concrete in the high maintenance shit stompers equipped upon my feetsies was one of my few expectations last night. 

Of course, I was let down.

Figures.

We had a good time though. He even got out on the dance floor with me and got jiggy.

We also went outside to take silly pictures.

MISTER BROODNESS BY A POINTY GATE ALL DRAMATIC AND SERIOUS.

I told him to pose and this is what he did.

He captured this in mid laugh. This wasn't erased off my phone because look at it.

I look like a total idiot, and he has Jim Carrey brows.

Omg you guise. The coolest thing ever is happening right now. I think Lauren is recording an audition in her room and she sounds really cool, lol.

... damn. lol.

She's a voice over actress so like... she's really good at it, haha. I've never heard her record an audition and I totally hope she doesn't mind me mentioning it XD

ANYWHO, we left once we felt that we satisfied the flailing status-quo. 

 He dropped me off, at which point I hauled ass into my apartment, straight into my bathroom, took off a ton of shit and drove over to Fett's and passed out. Which brings me to this morning's pixelated drivel. 

AND NOW I PRESENT TO YOU in the rawest form ever possible:  

Vanity. 

I JUST WANT BIG BEAUTIFUL DUCK LIPS

AM I DOING IT RIGHT 

The photo above this one was a little too serious

Gotta take it down a notch.

Also, day 7 of tongue piercing healing process! I can eat solids almost pain free :D

Concluding this post, I return to my day off to indulge in more of The L Word (for Shane, basically) and resume where I last left off on my Rogue. I hope everyone has a good weekend!

THIS ZELDA GAME IS GONNA BE AWESOME ^___^

Honeymoon

W A R N I N G :  THIS POST CONTAINS STRONG AMOUNTS OF GROSS EXPRESSIONS OF AFFECTION BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE.  

THIS CONTENT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR PEOPLE WHO HATE PDA OR ARE BITTER ABOUT LOVING RELATIONSHIPS THAT AREN'T ABUSIVE YET.

You guise, I got my tongue re-pierced on Sunday-- it's the most awful thing ever not being able to eat whatever I want. And I had just gotten groceries the other day. We're on Day 5 today, and though I am able to eat solids with more ease, the soreness lingers. It's more dominant on the left side of the bottom of my tongue, but it's less shitty than what it was on Day 1. 

I am stubborn and have been eating solids anyway.

Fett, Lauren, and myself revisited none other than Studio City Tattoo. This was where I had my septum pierced, twice, and now my tongue! Hooray! Turns out that Fett has become quite familiar with the artists who work there, and actually gave the piercer, Steve White, a heads up that we were going in to see him specifically for this piercing. He was generous and gave me a discount. I made sure he was well tipped, because he didn't have to do that whatsoever. 

We waited briefly until he called me back to the chair. I asked if Fett and Lauren could come back and watch, which he said was totally fine. 

I look like an ape. (Thank you Lauren for capturing this)

There was a teensy little anatomical thingie that concerned me a little bit. You see, I have a short tongue.

That's as far as I could pretty much stick my tongue out. I was expecting him to turn me away saying that it was too much of a risk, especially considering the placements of the arteries that travel through the tongue. Without much muscle to grip onto, and my jaw in the way of his hand leaving little room for leverage to guide the needle, I thought I was SOL. 

NOPE. Steve White's been piecing for 12 years and went in like a trooper. He did have the clamps extra tight though, but the placement was perfect, and further back than I thought possible.

It pinched- best way to describe it. Accidentally biting your tongue actually hurts more, in my experience. The best thing about this now is that once this heals entirely I can put in my jewelry in the piercing towards the front of my tongue, and have two ^_^

I can't =\

It's sore, yes. It's swollen, yes. But is it worth it? Yes. I love it, and I'm glad I did it!
Also I'm officially a part of management at work. Woohoo! I got the promotion, and I couldn't be happier. I was telling my boss how much it I appreciated him believing in me and looking past my appearance. Corporate America does not like the modified folks, nope nope nope. I realize that it wasn't just him making the decision or ultimately factoring in what is passable and what isn't, but he pushed for it, and it feels cool to say that I work for a corporate company and run the floor eyebrowless, sporting dreadlocks and an undercut, and a bunch of apparent holes in my face from several facial piercings. It's nice. 

MOVING ON |

So while Lauren and I were having one of our talks, she had said something to me about my relationship with Fett that stood out. She had said to me that we are still in our honeymoon phase. This was open ended to me, but it lingered in my mind. I told Fett, and so WE'VE TOTALLY BEEN DOING A HONEYMOON THING :D

We've been going out to dinners, and spending even more time together, because why not? And it's been great. 

One evening we were wandering around during some off hour of the evening and he led us to one of his favorite Thai places, "Gindi Thai Restaurant". I'd never been, and was thrilled to share this with him. 

Their food was delicious. 

They also had paper as their table mantle, and there was a little cup of crayons in the center for people to draw with! He doodled a big heart made out of these intricately placed sketched out lines, and I drew....

Hey Arnold's head.

It was a lovely evening.

A few days ago we also went shopping for some stuff after I was off work. Considering how we recently got our tax returns... we had to go get things.

We went to the Burbank Town Center for my 3DS, which I bought refurbished. 

It's in absolutely perfect working condition with no flaws. Looks new. Probably stolen and sold for cash? (I used to work for EB Games/Gamestop and we'd get shit like this all the time)
And I also got a pre-owned copy of The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time to play on it :D

I'M SO FUCKING STOKED YOU GUISE. It's one of my all time favorite games EVER. UGH.

Then we went to Fry's to pick up Fett's electronic, I guess you could say, replacement? His other one broke. They didn't have them there. So we were off to Best Buy. Nope.
Okay, let's try Target. 

He spots his friend there, and turns out they have them in! They're selling them for like $15 more than they were at Best Buy (they offered to order one for him and ship it out to him for free) but he gets it anyway. 

While there I learned that they work with Verizon for phone upgrades, and like... I can get the phone I want next week for $150 less than what's listed on the Verizon website, LOL?!?! Yeah.... I talked to the guy there and he was like LOL, PSHYEAH. THEY'RE WAY MORE EXPENSIVE ON THE WEBSITE, JUST GET EM HERE. AND I'M LIKE LOLALRIGHT.

 

So that's awesome. 

 

Oh, and then we went to get Sushi, I think the evening before yesterday?

 

 

This was... an obstacle for me. Ice water had never been so soothing to me, but it was worth it.

Fett suggested we have mochi ice cream. I thought he meant for us to leave and purchase some somewhere to take home and indulge on.

nope. :)

They offered it there! I had no clue they had that =\

It was delicious! And felt awesome, lol.

We also, some days ago, strolled around downtown Burbank in search for a gift for his mother.

This was incredibly fun for me because we ended up at Barnes & Nobles. She likes to cook, so perhaps a nice cook book? She also likes wine. So maybe a book about wine? 

We came across many fun books, and the ones about Ramen flirted with me in the most cruel ways ever. UGH.

 

 

This is a thing. The descriptions are gross and hilarious at the same time. It was awful.

I'd buy it.

And finally, two nights ago when we got here after dinner, just as he was about to split for home that night, he takes out a piece of paper, folded hard shell taco style, and set it on my bed saying "this is something for you. you can read it whenever, at your leeeeiiisuure" 

He stressed "at your leisure" by saying it again to make sure I knew it wasn't a thing. I took him seriously and for a moment thought it was a document I had forgotten at his place at some point or something of the sort.

I open it (here it comes, I warned you) to find that this is far from some stupid piece of paper I left at his place. This is random as random gets, and possibly the most honeymoon thing ever, and it reads;

    My dear Cynthia,

      I was going to send you another message, but I felt the need to give you something tangible, something that you can hold as a confession of my feelings for you. Isn't it strange how something as insignificant as a piece of paper can mean so much? The same goes for ink. It is even stranger to think what can come of them when they are combined. You wrote to me on Christmas. And that feeling that rushed over me reading that is something that could only be felt, not described. I adore you. 
We first hung out at Denny's. You subtly began sparking my interest in you there. The way you thought, spoke, laughed, smiled, moved, looked at me was all so exciting to me. Then at the views, I wanted to see how you were outside of a confined setting, such as a restaurant. While driving around and seeing your reaction to each individual place that I took you to, I realized that I just had to show you everything I possibly could. Then I took you to the pier. I wanted to see how you were in a populated setting. The surprises continued. Though we weren't officially dating at the time, I felt a sense of pride being seen with you. I felt so proud that you were there, with me. The small thing of pretending to lift you on the side of the pier was a small test to see just how you would react. If you reacted negatively, then I knew there were no feelings, but you didn't. You reacted kindly and openly to it. And I'm so glad you did. Seeing your reaction to that place was so rewarding. Your genuine happiness, wonder, and excitement further developed my wanting to show you more spectacles. I wanted to share all of my experiences with you. So I did. And you continued to be amazed and excited, and so happy. I really can't explain how rewarding that is. 
As cliché as it is, your smile makes me feel happy. It makes me feel that I have done so much right for you. And it just furthers my desire to do so (already crying, btw). When I surprised you with the Cirque du Soleil show, and you started crying; it was the first time ever that I felt the emotion I did at that moment. I was so happy, so beyond any other time that I can ever recall. I would have never wanted to share a moment like that with anyone but you. 

[REMOVED]

Then, the night that I was telling you all the things I liked about you, and you told me to hold back my words; I realized that things don't need to be said when they are already displayed. That is something that was new to me. I always thought that the two should go hand in hand, but when a feeling is being displayed so strongly, then words are unneeded, especially one as commonly used as Love. I really wish there was a better, less contaminated word to use for what I feel for you (dying). From the times you don't feel beautiful in your own skin, from the times you feel like a burden to me, from the times you try to push me away; I want to be there for you. With your past, your faults, your perfect imperfections, I want all of it. I want you to be able to see yourself as I see you. Because honestly, I think you’d be stricken with such amazement, just as I am every day. I adore you, Cynthia; far more than any words on a page can begin to describe.

- The Map [Edited]




YEP, I WARNED YOU.

I feel so undeserving of this, because no one (of my exes) has gone out of their way to express their affections to me to this degree. It overwhelmed and humbled me to the core.
This seriously feels like some straight up Disney shit, ya'll.
Which reminds me... I can probably get a pass soon.

yeah.
OKAY.
GOOD NIGHT EVERYBODY, AND HAVE A HAPPY CHRISTMAS

Vk

    I finally got a sparkly, new external hard drive today. Frackin stoked for it to arrive. It's one less thing on my list to upgrade on my little girl. I'm also getting to the point where I think I need a new keyboard and mouse. They work fine but the keys on my keyboard, albeit fucking blue and sexy, are getting worn. The most complaints I have are from Fett and Lauren having the privilege to use my computer and then having difficulty finding the right keys. (I don't think they learned home-row!)

DID ANYONE PLAY "MARIO TEACHES TYPING 2" WHEN THEY WERE YOUNGER?
That shit gave me the leet home row skills. I'm just saying.


The other night Fett and I played Cards Against Humanity, just us two.
As dorky as it sounds, it was pretty fun, and it worked! I am proud to say that as much of a dick Fett can be, I sincerely made him flinch uncomfortably several times with my combinations, and it felt awesome.
The last card that was played he used his "children with ass cancer" card. I appreciated it and laughed with abandon.

When we both drew cards that we couldn't decide on, we'd put them in the tie pile. And I took pictures of them.

 His card is on the right.

There were much worse ones, but his cards weren't up to par so they were my automatic wins >:D
Tonight we're playing here with Lauren and Fett's friend. I'm gonna get my offensive game on!


K so now that my last commission is comfortably in his home, I can show the final pictures!

I think I may have mentioned how much of a pain in the ass his legs were before, but allow me to reiterate how much of a pain in the ass his legs were.

This was right before baking. A naked little piggie.
For a little bit there I couldn't figure out how to sit him up because .... he doesn't sit up lol.
And when I'd lay him on his side, because the polymer was still soft, the wings would get fucked and bend inwards and it made me sad. 

Figured it out. I was so relieved that I took a picture, lol.

ISN'T IT SO CUTE!?!?!? UGH

The artist that did the painting is Michael Summers. I looked him up on Facebook and found several other paintings he did of flying pigs, which I used as a reference.

It's very surreal. If you wanna take a looksie, here's his FB!

Also, a very very special girlie who I've known (via social networking) for the last 5 years has generously set up a Vk.com account for Noob Charms! Her name is Kora Rex. She lives in Ukraine and has a ton of tricks up her sleeve, not to mention how beautiful she is. And.... is a Virgo. 

(It's a thing we do.)
For all my Russian readers, that's the place for you to seek out more info, as she kindly translated a lot of what is on my F.A.Q page here to there. I will shortly be announcing a new way of ordering commissions through my Etsy page- which is terribad and ugly right now so don't look at it. And will be offering international shipping because I need to get over it and just do it and talk to people at the post office. I'M SORRY.

I HAVE A MILD SOCIAL ANXIETY, HOKAY? GHAD.

:D ahkay.

Fett and I are hungry. We're off to seek the foods.

St Valentine

   Now that my knee was healed after much rest, I did the smart thing and bought a support compressor thing so that when I do go running, my dominant right knee won't strain so much.

So snazzy and stylish! And it helps, a lot!

Except I went running after work yesterday and fucked up both my knees somehow.
I'm not sure where this is all coming from, since the only different thing I do now than when I did before is I go at a faster pace and don't need to stop to catch my breath anymore and sound like a wheezing cat coughing up a colossal hairball.

I'm thinking that the consistent impact from the running now, compared to before when I would take short walking breaks because I felt like I was dying, is too much for my shitty knees. So I'm just going to have to take breaks in between runs until my muscles develop enough to where I can run consistently again.


Valentine's day was a thing!
I spent the night at Fett's the evening before. At midnight he goes and grabs a black little mesh bag and hands it to me. Inside is a heart locket with a bead and ribbon chain. SNEAKY. SNEAKY, I TELL YOU.
I had completely forgotten it was Valentine's Day the day after. He took me by complete surprise-- as he generally does.

My favorite part about this is that it's not chocolate or candy :D
It's so very lovely, and touching. There's a little mirror inside also. I described it to him as a trinket that I'd equip in a video game or something, because that's what it looks like to me. And it would have some kind of cool down on it that was awesome. When the beads and ribbon are all intertwined between my fingers and danging off my hand as I grip it, it looks pretty sick you guys. It's totally magic.

The next day he had work, but was off early enough for us to still do something.
I worked on my piece throughout most of the day in between editing.
There was something I had also been working on for him, in addition to the commission I did.
Unfortunately, I can't show his gift. But that was also something I had been working on for a little while to have done in time for V-day.

He told me to be dressed in semi-formal wear. You guise, I got anxiety.

That same evening after he finished with work, Fett comes over to pick me up for us to go out somewhere.
"Can I at least get a hint of where we're g-"
"Don't worry about it" :)

It was a lengthy 2 hourish drive mostly due to the traffic that night. Our destination was in Long Beach. We passed several signs for the Queen Mary, the Pier, the Aquarium, the Convention Center, and he wouldn't tell me a thing.
 We finally arrive at the entrance to a long driveway, and it suddenly smells like the beach. There are fancy people standing outside this gorgeous building in formal attire.

The valet parking thing happens again and I almost panic. JEEZ, valet parking is still like... the most under rated luxury that exists. Seriously.
Anyway, we were at The Reef.
This gorgeous restaurant that Fett said was also a part of the group that runs The Castaway in Burbank. Makes sense. It felt very... by the sea.

The little walkway to the door was like walking through a lovely lit garden, before you reach the podium inside to be seated. He had a reservation for us that night. The funny thing is while we were on our way here I asked him if we could get food afterwards XD. He asked me during our dinner if I still wanted to go eat later. Goofball :P

We were seated outside by the heat lamp thingies with a gorgeous view of the harbor.
They were serving a Valentine's Day special 4 course meal, and there was a wedding going on in another part of the restaurant that we had a view of as well. It was all super crazy romantic.
I looked for a cheap beer on the drink menu to take it down a notch lol, but all they had were wines.

The evening before, while we were out driving around, I played The Bee Gees and The Carpenters in the car for us to listen to, amongst Little River Band and some Barbara Streisand and Barry Gibb duets, and little Kansas here and there. He lol'd at me. I like oldies, what can I say? Did I lose goth points?
They played The Beegees and The Carpenters at the restaurant and I started happily singing along to them, I was so excited! It probably looked a little silly to the other patrons as I already looked severely out of place, and also happened to know all the lyrics to "How deep is your Love" by the Bee Gees. but that made it even better!! :D I hope he wasn't too embarrassed! hahaha ^_^

Looking at this view over dinner combined with The Bee Gees was pretty great though. 

I gave him his gift, which he made clear how much he loved. How I wish I could share it with you guys, but it'll have to wait.

I kept it together throughout almost the whole night

until they brought the check and he grabbed it

I got teary-eyed.

I TRIED. 

Our 4 course meal consisted of calamari, which I loooooove

seafood bisque, our entrees, and this cute little dessert. 

Cray cray.

I talked to him about how awful I feel for most men in relationships on Valentine's Day because it's an automatic loss of money no matter what, if they have a shallow partner. If she doesn't receive anything on Valentine's Day, he's looked upon as a bad lover-- and I see that as really unfair. I told him we could've had dinner at IHOP or Denny's and I would've been thrilled to just have spent the evening with him, period. But again, he went balls out and blew me away. 

I felt like Carrie Bradshaw in that one episode in the 6th season of Sex and the City where she gets lightheaded because Alexandr was being romantic. They're going to the opera and he stops her outside, there's music playing, he's taking in the scenery and admiring her in her dress, says everything is perfect, and he's like "take my hand. dance with me." She's narrating how it's the most romantic moment ever, and she goes to take his hand

 and passes out.

When she comes to, he's looking at her like wtf are you okay? lol and she's like "I'm an American, you need to take it down a notch"

YUP. 

They went to go get a hot dog and fries, hahahaha.

Except I didn't pass out, I just cuddled his arm on the drive home and slept. He stayed the night, even though I had work at 5AM. 

lol

He should've worn his helmet to the restaurant. ha XD

Last night I stayed the night at his place, and as we fell asleep, we both agreed that the phrase "I love you" holds more negative weight than positive. 

"You look really cool, Hiroki" is way better.