Level 27

     Typically I'm not one to announce or mention my birthday, but this year I stopped caring to hide it. I'm 27 today, aaaaaaaaaaaaand fuck it. 

In leiu of this, the feels of 27 escape me. I still feel ... like I'm 23 or something. Possibly w/ a lot less fucks to give, as I am nearly out but would like to horde some for my 30's. Physically though, I feel it. My back's stupid, and sometimes my knees hurt. The good side of this though just means that I need a better computer chair, and it's not because I might have a joint problem due to age. That would be extremely over-dramatic, but .... doesn't make noticing my back aches any less of a reality =\.

To be frank, I'm looking forward to this portion of my life. I feel like 26 was a huge transition out of the shit that happened during my early 20s. It definitely molded me, and I think... to put it as stupid as possible, 26 felt like molting my exoskeleton. And now I'm all soft and shiny and got new stuff and new all of the things ever going on. Solidified and set in. 27 feels good. I feel stable. Secure. And headed in the direction I want to be. YAY WEEEEEE!!!! 

Would one say that I'm a late bloomer? Or am I right on schedule? I'm not sure. Either way I guess it doesn't matter. I'm good.

Wanna see what totally happened Wednesday night?

ONLY THIS.

 I totally went out that evening after work w/ Fett and went home to grab some things quick before heading back over there, but when I got home it was like midnight or something. I walk into the apartment to find balloons and a huge Happy Birthday sign put up. 

It's possible that I stepped on my fallen jaw while trying to retrieve it in dim lighting after taking this in. I called for Lauren a few times, but never got a response and figured she was asleep. So I walk towards our rooms to find this hanging off my door knob.

 It was probably one of the creepiest and cutest things I've ever seen look back at me from the end of a dark hallway.
Her door was shut and the lights were off, so I quietly grabbed the Kyubey and brought it out to the living room and turned on the lights.

 The contents of the gift bag made me start crying. I'm not even gonna try to hide that, idegaf

 She got me my only favorite brand of chocolates (I don't like chocolate except for when I'm on my period and then I'll only have german chocolate cake slices because they're not entirely chocolate, they have like... caramel and walnuts in them or something) and sour gummy worms because yay sour candy and Elder Scrolls Online!!!!

Sometimes, when I'm absolutely done w/ the world for the next half hour I'll flop on my bed, open up Candy Crush and use up all my lives while eating sour gummy worms until I'm out (whichever one comes first). 

 You can bet your sweet ass I installed the fucker A S A P. It only took 50 years to finish downloading everything ever, but alas I am amongst the others. I'm still feeling it out. My friend Eric is gonna play w/ me and kinda be my guide w/ everything. It's definitely gonna take some getting used to. I remember how I felt about during the beta-- which was not good. but ultimately, I'd genuinely like to give a chance, as the Elder Scrolls games hold a reputation that's not to be easily dismissed amongst RPG lovers, so. Yeah.

Azuarak. Ebonblade.

but it came w/ a special code that allows me to interact w/ everyone ;) SO IT AIN'T EVEN A THAAAANNG. hee!

So. Because she was asleep, I did the next best thing and quietly opened her door and crawled on her and started bawling into her boobs. Yep.
If there was a difference between myself that night and a sad, weeping animal that just got taken in after a storm.... there wasn't.
I cuddled her for a solid 45 minutes.
And then I realized that Fett's still waiting for me to show up, lol.
3 missed calls!
Suffice it to say that the delay was justified, lol. It was an incredible surprise, that truly surprised the shit out of me.

I'M GETTIN' SICK OF ALL THIS HAPPY CRYING, I CAN'T TAKE IT GUISE. It's a nice change though, compared to sad, shitty crying. So I guess if I had to choose...  okay I'm gonna shut up.

The next day, since I didn't work I slept in at Fett's and came home. Later on I was delighted to see that Lauren had brought over T after their lunch date!! Yay! He's so cuddly ^_^  He hung out here for a little while, and wouldn't ya know it.... Lauren also busted out one last little thing before she split this weekend for her booking.

"It's not chocolate!"

C O S U P R A Y |   C O N S-

Man, it's already September. This month's gonna be fun! Son of Monsterpalooza and Long Beach Comic Con are coming up!

Well, my impatient self couldn't hold off any longer and showed my next cosplay. For those who haven't seen it yet, or wondered in horror why I was making a leech out of caulk...  well..

:D

 

She's so cute. I love her.

 

I was messing around w/ the make up, which is why it's different. I also used photoshop to make the colors brighter. Damn sunlight. But for the most part, that's ... yeah. I have to somehow find a way to alter my dress and not ruin it, lol. And still get some effects stuff to finish her. She's gonna be fun. Now if only I had a cute little Blade cosplayer with me! This was a fun test run. For the final look she's gonna look a lot nastier ^_^ hee!

And of course I'll also be there as the Bride. I have another cosplay I already want to work on, but fear that not enough people would appreciate or 'get it.' It's another Horror character, female, and a favorite from a Dario Argento flick. but it'd also be a challenge as far as FX goes, which is something I've not yet acquired patience for, lol. 

I'm thinking I should deviate away from Horror for a little while and try something more... *gulp* relevant ... but at the same time... why should I when there are so many others who are more than happy to already do that? And with passion! I'd feel like a fraud. Idk, we'll see. 

There is ONE anime character who I'd like to cosplay as. She has many names and forms. And she is quite fond of cheese. WE'LL SEE! ;)

What else?

Well!!

 I started two little Chibi Noobs! I think it's pretty clear who they're supposed to portray, don't you think so?

 His head and wire work was an absolute pain in my ass. Worth it.

 After they come out of the oven I immediately submerge them in ice water. This cools them down quicker, in addition to strengthening and hardening the clay more so than air cooling.

And they're ready to paint and detail! I've not yet finished them. Distractions keep coming up! 

Like...

Volume 4 of Monster Musume!! I've waited for this volume since like July or something. Ordered it, and finished it in less than an hour. I love this manga, it's soooo cute. And so many boobies!!! hahaha

Oh! And my classes started on Monday! I'm taking 2 this semester. The math class I wanted completely filled up before I realized it was the right one I needed. Totally my fault, but... after these two, I have to take the other pre-reqs anyway, so I'll just squeeze it in next semester I guess. And then take the actual math I need over the summer. D'oh! Oh well! at least I'm closer to my goal! I have so much catching up to do. 

 but so far I like my professors. I can already tell though that there's gonna be a lot of studying in my future, and writing assignments. Something I absolutely did not miss whatsoever. Suck it up, Cynthia! :P

Annnnd last but not least! 

Earlier today, Josh (old roommate) stopped by to say Happy Birthday and drop off some goodies!!

 THE DROID BOOK HAS BUTTONS THAT MAKE SOUNDS AND I'M GOING TO SAMPLE THEM TO MY PHONE AND AND AND

 I'm not sure if he knew Dave Brockie was one of my man crushes (while in Oderus gear) and a dream of mine was to sit on his lap and have him purr in my ear, which... can never happen now, but... he totally gave me this limited edition Dave Brockie tshirt. It's big on me, lol despite being a S.. I think mens S. I shall wear it for sleep cuddles. Altering it was also an idea, but the graphic printed on it leaves little room for adjustments, but it's totally fine. I love it. I'm wearing it now, aaaaaaaaand I can always pretend.

Tomorrow Fett and I are going to practice a vegetarian diet throughout September. This is going to be difficult for me because I love taco bell. But ... they brought back their cheesy bean and rice burrito so we can compromise. Why are we doing this? Just because we can. /shrug. 

He did it for a year just to see if he could, and he did, and now we're just gonna do that for the hell of it. I don't eat a shit ton of meat anyway, so I don't anticipate it being a huge sacrifice, w/ the exception of SOUR GUMMY WORMS and SHRIMP RAMEN. UGH. 

This should be fun, lol. I don't even care for chicken so, whatever! haha :D

ESO calls. Have a good night guise ^_^

B-day things

    Before we get started, my birthday has not yet come to pass. This is something I'm totally fine w/ because the older I get, the crappier I feel about it. :P
I remember when turning 25 was exciting. Anything beyond that point I find to be nothing short of depressing, anymore.

This entry will cover the activities during my non-birthday day! Er, days, rather. Evenings.
Yeah.

It began last Sunday evening, when I totally didn't even remember that we were doing non-birthday birthday things the following morning. I'm horrible.
Fett had reminded me that evening to come over by midnight because he had some things to give me.

This is the part where I fail at being a normal person. I'm one of those people who have mixed feelings about receiving gifts. It could be that I'm just jaded, insecure, an asshole, spoiled, or a bunch of other negative things... or that I just genuinely don't know how to feel. This isn't to say that I'm not genuinely touched-- trust me; a trillion things immediately race through my head as soon as someone hands something to me.
It's foggy to me still as to why these are the things I ponder when someone gives me gifts. The closest thing to make sense was a kind of insecurity in believing that I am not deserving of much--  I don't make enough to dismiss being frugal without putting aside my own priorities/hobbies/eating--- which are non-negotiable. I also have severely low expectations.
Anywho, I am always astounded when someone goes out of their way, because in spite of all of these things, I realize that when somebody goes out of their way to, getting down to the bare bones, invest in your joy-- that's really fucking nice. Like, that's SO nice. They don't HAVE to do that, but they did... and that's just fucking cool.

I'm rambling.

So. That evening, I go over there and he immediately leads to his room, where he shows me a large cardboard box. He loves cardboard boxes. I wouldn't be surprised if his coffin turned out to be a large cardboard box.
I opened it to find a whole bunch of things!

This is a shitty picture =\
but. You can see most of it
And the sweetest thing was that a lot of these were based on memories we made.
The drinks were from that time we went to that shop that has all those different flavored sodas. He got me more pirate piss, Ramune, monster mucus (lol) and bawls! lol
The giant gummy bear was from the night that we talked about going vegetarian for a month, and having to give up gummy bears because they're made of gelatin, so I'd have to invest in a huge thing of gummy candy before then, lol.
The Marquis book was from when we went to the Illiad and how I squeed over how many of his books they had. This one in particular was the one I wanted, but had already splurged a bit and wanted to put it off for another time.
The pocket knife was because he thought my other one wasn't as functional (it's curved... like a falcon's claw), so he got me one that'll slice easier ^_^
He gave me b-day money, because he recognizes my preference to practicality sometimes. (Which I'm going to invest back into fun for the both of us.)
Loot Crate because duh.
A reservation at The Little Door
and tickets to go see the Getty Villa

he went a little nuts. but the thing I appreciated most about this is that they were highlights of moments we shared, and also towards making even more moments for us to share together.

Is that stupid? lol :P
shaddap.

And yeah, I cried and stuff. shaddap.

The following morning we got up early to head to Malibu!
I don't think I've ever been to Malibu. Actually I'm pretty sure I haven't. There were a shit ton of people rollerblading and skating and jogging and biking and ... doing activities all along the boardwalk. And lots of palm trees.  And the ocean was right there. It was exactly like in movies. Except really hot and bright and w/ shitty drivers everywhere.
We were headed to Malibu because that's where the Getty Villa is located.
Fett also had never been there, so this was completely new to the both of us. He showed me some things online on what to expect. It's even more gorgeous in person. It's like you're walking through this ancient greece.... out house, lol. There were statues everywhere, and the garden, and all the artifacts and bust sculptures and the greek mythology things and and and just ugh. It was so cool you guise.

PICTURE DUMP TIME

 he looks like he was just smacking his lips after tasting bad wine.

 "this grape is on point, ya'll"

 "this ball... could never fit in my pocket"

"uuuuuu nuuuu! mah haaaands"

 thought to be Cupid.

he's got the "just do it, man" look on his face.

 "hey guys, look at my knee"

 "ok, this egg won't fit in my horn guys"

 "am I a mattress?"

 "OKAY, ALTOS FROM THE TOP HERE WE GO"

 "trunk I will punch you"

 "why is it still raining on me"

 this was from a huge pillar of sediment that still had artifacts in it.

 SOOOOOOOOOOOO beautiful!

The only thing we didn't get to observe was the fountain in use. I don't think people actually realize the severity of the drought we're going through. They turned off all of the fountains. There was only one that was working, but it looked like it recycled it's own supply. 

 "please don't bite me, wall"

 Those were the best fries I've had in my entire life.

They were garlic-y, and onion-y, and salted to perfection. UGH.

"but my peepee =\"

 "did I just hear my feet come off?"

"HANG IT LIKE THIS. LIKE GRAPES"

 "i can smell that"

"but this doesn't feel like a grape"

 "you smell like macaroni and cheese"

"you gaahs, mah staff is so little, I can't eat off my plate with it"

waaaaaaaaaaaant

They also have little shows and plays here.

 It was absolutely awesome. There was a ton to see.
Highly recommended as a place to visit if you're into history and ancient Greece and stuff.Very beautiful.

Once we were finished there, having made sure we saw absolutely everything-- which we did, we headed home to change into something more formal.
This was because Fett also got us reservations to a lovely restaurant in Santa Monica called The Little Door.
To my utter surprise the name completely threw me off. It is not as humble as the name suggests. And I couldn't even.



I got this image from Google. Apparently this place is a thing. If you care enough, go look it up. I rather not mention more and seem pompous >_<

Needless to say, this restaurant is GORGEOUS. 

It's a French fusion restaurant, w/ 4 different seating rooms. Going at night was a must, and and and and... it was just amazing. He took my breath away, yet again.

I wish these photos could capture more of it, but it was too dark. Just trust me when I saw it was a very lovely evening, and meal. We connected more than I thought possible, and I probably drank the most water that night than I have in several weeks. I had to pee 4 times, you'd think I was drunk. I was incredibly nervous, and downed water like a fish. The waiter just automatically made the rounds to refill my cup, which was almost every time he walked by.
I felt overwhelmed w/ emotion, not all entirely good and trying to rationalize it all made turned me into a water balloon. YAY :D

Either way, it was an awesome fun filled day. We saw two absolutely gorgeous places and were able to take it all in for the first time together.

OH. and this time we didn't do valet parking ^____^ WE PARKED ON THE STREET!!! That was really exciting! lmao, I felt normal and like not a slave driver :D hahah


And while my birthday still has not come to pass, I'm pretty much done w/ it, lol.
My parents generously put forth some assistance for my school/classes, which was pretty much all I even genuinely felt I really needed. I want to finish school, for realsies, so that was massive for me.
I got magic cards from my high school ex, which is awesome.
And I've been treating myself to small little pleasures.

I also got the 4th volume to Monster Musume like 3 days ago. Which. Was read in an hour.
It's so cute, it has my favorite character in it. Now I have to wait until like March or something equally soul-wrenching for the 5th English volume. >_<

OH!

And.. the Loot Crate box arrived a few days later!

 I was really excited :) So was Fett!

And then I wasn't, lol.

It had some cute things, but since Fett and I both live under a rock and don't care about current hypes, this box was a total miss. =\ 

I know that Guardians is a big deal right now, and a new TMNT movie came out recently. The Deadpool magnet was cute, and the button was cute. lol, yep. 

bah, I suck.

Looking at all their past boxes,  I'm SOOOOOO glad I didn't get them, LOL.

The only one that somewhat appealed to me was the Villains one, last month. 

I felt so bad that I offered to pay Fett the money he spent on the box LOL. He refused, of course, but I still feel bad that I'm just.... not.... like... I don't... care..... about... trends. at all. 

It disappointed me a little to discover that Loot Crate follows a trend pattern, because of course majority rules, and they'll market to majority. but here's hoping the next one will be more.... spontaneous and irrelevant to 2014!  :D

I wouldn't be surprised if it was paper money and an ice pack. LOL. That's how relevant I feel Loot Crate currently is to my nerd-dom. We'll see!

Anyway. I have some stuff other stuff going on that I'll go into in the next entry. This one's long enough I think :P

Oh, and Fett and I are gonna go vegetarian for September. I'll miss gummy bears the most.