Hard drive QQ

   Steam is holding a nasty, nasty little sale right now. It's pretty bad. Like... there are 10 games I wanna get right now but two things were restricting me;

1. my hard drive space. 

My C: drive is no longer red because got rid of all my Star Wars Galaxies files, Neverwinter files, old Diablo I and II files, LoTRO files, Luna Online files, hmmm... what else...  well.. a lot. And it's still almost full. Thankfully, I found my external hard drive today that my dolls were sitting on. This is my night right now. No where near done, btw.

2. my bank account. Only two paychecks this month: no bueno. And considering how I already spent some monies for my Fetish Spell outfit, I'm playing it safe until after bills are paid. It's going to be nice when the new manager at my work gets used to stabilizing peoples' work hours. I'd like to live comfortably again -_-.

In the mean time, I can't do much. I have to restart my computer because for some reason flash isn't working. I may have suspended it by mistake, but I can't restart it because of this copying shit.

I've spent a lot of today browsing Steam and being super choosy with what to spend on. I can't splurge too much, but I want an immersive game. I thought about Black Asylum, but apparently it's more campy than it comes off. Cynth and campy funny horror stuff don't mix. Like, gore isn't funny. How is gore funny? I don't get it. It's stimulating, yes, but funny? Idk. Some of the reviews said it was a lot like a B movie which instantly turned me away from the title. So instead, I went with Don't Starve Together. Hopefully... I'll have someone to play with >_<
It looks like a fun title. I like little sandboxy titles that allow you to do whatever the fukk you want. Though, I do miss the feeling of a good theme park title. Having just finished Outlast, I've wanted to find another immersive survival horror but haven't really seen any that stand out to me.
There were some, but they're not like... horror. I need horror. I want to shit my pants.
Was thinking about Dreadout, but idk. It's like Fatal Frame, but with Indonesian folklore.. whatever that means. It looks scary enough... maybe.

Anywho.
My room is a mess and I promised myself I'd clean it up. What a let down I am. Spent all day watching Orange is the New Black instead and struggling internally on what game to buy.

These are super silly, and remind me of high school, but... they were really fun. SO.

HERE WE GO:

 1. Who was the last person you held hands with?  I don't know, honestly. Wasn't Fett. We don't hold hands for some reason.
2. Are you outgoing or shy? Depends. It always depends. Contributing factors include but are not limited to; how well I am reading you, how loud you are, if I can stand your voice after 30 seconds, are you drunk, is there food, are we friends, do i know you, am i in my room, where am i, is this a dream, did i die, are you a manifestation of my own personal hell, WHY IS THIS HAPPENING, WHO A MI

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? Fett, my friends.
4. Are you easy to get alone with? are you literate?
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? he would. he'd hate it, but he would. they all would. like, this one time i puked on someone's couch- it was pink, and Jess took my boots off and Ponies watched over me while I puking myself to sleep. ...It was strong pink lemonade.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to? people who are really hard to offend.
7. Do you think you'll be in a relationship two months from now? i'm assuming
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Ponies.
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? newp!
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? I guess Stephen? I thought he was a prostitute. I stand corrected.
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? "I knoooowww" after a co-worker told me I was awesome.
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? "Sanctuary" - Utada Hikaru, "Crumble" - Voodoo Church, "Burn" - Sister of Mercy, "Mine Eyes" - Switchblade Symphony (probably always will be), "My Secret Friend" - IAMX | Imogen Heap
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Wouldn't know. Been almost a decade =\
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Not really
15. What good thing happened this summer? So far, Bats Day was really fun, got to see my friend Brian and revisit Disney with him, made new friends, Anime Expo is coming up... Summer has been dope so far.
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? I guess
17. Do you think there is life on other planets? yessir
18. Do you still talk to your first crush? No way. ew.
19. Do you like bubble baths? LAAAAAHV them. OMG I need more bubble bath shit because I ran out  =\
20. Do you like your neighbors? Nope. She's a cunt.
21. What are you bad habits? Too facetious.
22. Where would you like to travel? ... Barcelona, Tokyo, Caribbean, New Zealand, Alaska
23. Do you have trust issues? FUCK YEAH! :D
24. Favorite part of your daily routine? hitting snooze and rolling over to pass out again
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? I have a small head. It's weird.
26. What do you do when you wake up? whine, stretch, roll over and pass out
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? I like how light my skin is now.
28. Who are you most comfortable around? Most people I know, I think. they're people too.
29. Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up? nope. probably never will because... I can be severely callous and cold-unapproachable.
30. Do you ever want to get married? I guess... the tax breaks would be nice
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? sort of...
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? YAY!! ummm.... I've thought about this.. hang on... okay. robert pattinson and ed westwick because they look similar except one is white and the other is... something else. it's the noses. I like small, flat-ish noses idk. stfu.
33. Spell your name with your chin. cynbthias   NAILED IT! that's actually pretty good. I thought it'd be way off.
34. Do you play sports? What sports? ................. ew.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music? I already live without TV.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? I don't think so.
37. What do you say during awkward silences? nothing. you backpedal slowly until you're about 50 feet away, turn around and haul ass.
38. Describe your dream girl/guy? Chatterer.
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Ebay. they have the cutest stuff
40. What do you want to do after high school? uhh..... yes.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? nope.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? angry, pensive, second guessing, judging, uncomfortable, anxious
43. Do you smile at strangers? nooooooo. if I do, it's usually at women or really chatty dudes who may or may not be gay. otherwise, i get weird looks back from dudes and it's confusing and i get anxiety and want to run away and take it back but i can't ew ew ew
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? OCEAN!
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? not wanting to be homeless.
46. What are you paranoid about? flunking out of school and never amounting to anything
47. Have you ever been high? yeah. once. was fucking awful. never again.
48. Have you ever been drunk? oh yeah. always and only around trusted company.
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? newp
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? black. surprise!
51. Ever wished you were someone else? newp
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? maybe my hirsutism because i have fair skin. it's so stupid. genetics.... wtf, why.
53. Favourite makeup brand? avon and nyx
54. Favourite store? Ebay, damnit
55. Favourite blog? MINE :D
56. Favourite colour? purpllleeee
57. Favourite food? frozen yogurt :B
58. Last thing you ate? a shitty bologna sammich
59. First thing you ate this morning? 3 shots of espresso over ice with caramel drizzle and milk... at 3PM.
60. Ever won a competition? For what? I don't think so. I got medals in gymnastics when I was little, but can't remember for what?
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Yeah. I got into a fight in high school, and skipped detention one time.
62. Been arrested? For what? Nope! :D
63. Ever been in love? Many times.
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? I was 7. We were playing with a bunch of his cousins around the apartment complex. We ran to my apartment to look for an extra toy and instead we kissed. my grandma walked in on us and we ran outside giggling.
65. Are you hungry right now? not anymore
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? tumblr gives me diarrhea
67. Facebook or Twitter? twitter
68. Twitter or Tumblr? twitter, son
69. Are you watching tv right now? newp
70. Names of your bestfriends? Ponies
71. Craving something? What? a trust fund?
72. What colour are your towels? purple and black lol XD
72. How many pillows do you sleep with? threeeeee. they're sort of comfy
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yussss!
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? ohhh... i have several. they're all over my room
75. Favourite animal? BATS :D THEY'RE SO CUUUUUUTE
76. What colour is your underwear? it's black and grey pinstriped, lol
77. Chocolate or Vanilla? MANGO!
78. Favourite ice cream flavour? YES!
79. What colour shirt are you wearing? olive. it has a dragon on it
80. What colour pants? they're my jack skellington pajama pants
81. Favourite tv show? Bob's Burgers (thank you, Netflix)
82. Favourite movie? I can't pick one. Mama, The Orphanage, Leon the Professional, Kindergarten Cop, The Crying Game, Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, Breakin', Dirty Dancing..
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Never saw the second one. Probably never will
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Mean Girls
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Karen. and her psychic boobs.
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory ^^
87. First person you talked to today? my coworkers
88. Last person you talked to today? Fett
89. Name a person you hate? uhhhhhh... Anita Sarkeesian is pretting horrible.
90. Name a person you love? my mommy and daddy
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Anita Sarkeesian
92. In a fight with someone? probably Anita Sarkeesian
93. How many sweatpants do you have? none =\
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? one I think?
95. Last movie you watched? Probably Breakin'
96. Favourite actress? That chick in the L Word that played Shane. idk
97. Favourite actor? Ed Westwick... mmpf.
98. Do you tan a lot? eeewwwwww
99. Have any pets? my housemate has two huskies
100. How are you feeling? full, and sort of sleepy but still pretty awake O_o
101. Do you type fast? i like to think so
102. Do you regret anything from your past? newp
103. Can you spell well? the wellest.
104. Do you miss anyone from your past? newp
105. Ever been to a bonfire party? we have them here at least once a month
106. Ever broken someone's heart? yup!
107. Have you ever been on a horse? yes! when I was little. it hurt my crotch.
108. What should you be doing? sleeping
109. Is something irritating you right now? the fact that I can't buy more games >_<
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yessssss. ugh, high school. He had a girlfriend at the time though, and when they broke up he ended up dating another girl. i was the saddest =\
111. Do you have trust issues? HO YEAH :D
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? I don't remember. probably Fett
113. What was your childhood nickname? "cinti"
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yussss
115. Do you play the Wii? I don't have one :(
116. Are you listening to music right now? newp
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? YESSS
118. Do you like Chinese food? mmmpf
119. Favourite book? i dunnooooo. the sleeping beauty trilogy XD
120. Are you afraid of the dark? sometimes
121. Are you mean? I can be. It's not something to be proud of, but I can be very, very mean if I don't want you near me or associating with me anymore.
122. Is cheating ever okay? newp. automatic break-up.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean? newp
124. Do you believe in love at first sight? infatuation, maybe. love? not so much. at least not anymore. i've got a better handle on my hormones now than I did when I was a teenager.
125. Do you believe in true love? i believe in levels of loving people.
126. Are you currently bored? yes, lol.
127. What makes you happy? my computer, and my room. my independence. my friends. cons.
128. Would you change your name? newp
129. What your zodiac sign? Virgo
130. Do you like subway? FUCK YES I LOVE SUBWAY
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? either ex-communicate them for a while or tell them to chillax.
132. Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with? Stephen. didn't I already answer this question? WE'VE ESTABLISHED THAT HE'S NOT A PROSTITUTE
133. Favourite lyrics right now? "I feel that you should know I have an empty soul"



134. Can you count to one million? without doubt. but... that sounds awful.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told? "that's cool"
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? ew, closed.
137. How tall are you? 5'2
138. Curly or Straight hair? my hair is naturally really thick and wavy, when it's not in it's final long rabbit turd form.
139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette!
140. Summer or Winter? Fall
141. Night or Day? Night
142. Favourite month? October!
143. Are you a vegetarian? fuck no. I am a hedonist without discrimination.
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? no chocolate plox
145. Tea or Coffee? both!
146. Was today a good day? it was... hectic at work.. but relaxing at home. wee?
147. Mars or Snickers? no chocolate!
148. What's your favourite quote? "i can create a quantum singularity by crawling into my own ass"
149. Do you believe in ghosts? sort of.
150. Get the closet book next to you, open it to page 42, what's the first line on that page? "August 1: Lucas completes his third draft, now titled The Star Wars: From the Adventures of Luke Starkiller."


HOORAY! And... it's 3AM. okay.
k goodnight omg.

Skelter

    IF anyone's gonna get a parking ticket while going out to Hollywood, it's me.

I'm not even sure what it is that I'm cursed with but for some reason I just have the worst fucking luck when it comes to parking there. 

This time was a record for me though. Two in one sitting! 

One for parking in a residential street... that apparently required a permit to park in.

The second for having expired tags! It hadn't even occurred to me because I had paid the registration fee, but just never got the tags in the mail and forgot about them.

So... when we got back to my car, you can imagine my excitement.

but, I digress from the evening.

It was a Tuesday night, and considering my lack of going-outy-ness, I decided to go out to Warlock. The only club night I could think of that wouldn't piss me off. Yes, Toxic Tuesdays... that includes you. The point was to go out and be social WITHOUT running into anyone I know. 

Baby steps, guys... baby steps.

 The irony of taking a photo of an image portraying itself taking a photo of itself was too good to pass up.

 It was myself with Stephen.

It was a pleasant surprise to find out that like... 4 people I know live in my neighborhood- him being one of them. I mean, besides my housemates. 4 people all in the same circle. Frickin awesome.

So we went. In my hopes of convincing Jess to join us, we went to see her at Toi. 

and we were like... super hungry.

 WUB HERRRRRRR

 It was cool because like. we all just saw each other 2 days ago at Bats Day so it was like yays :DDD

 wtfffff

 HAAAH.

 We ran to the bathroom for a selfie because yes.

 She was too tired to go out with us =\

So we stayed there for a bit to keep her company and stuffs. And stuffed our fucking faces.

 EVERYTHING WAS SO GOOD U_U I've only ever been there like twice before and forgot how awesome everything was. Even teh coconut ice creaaaaaaaammm 

aaaahhhh so good.

also my hair was cooperating that night and I felt like my face was poofy. dis made me happy.

 so I captured it.

idk why my face looked poofier. Does it always look this poofy and i just don't realize it?

idk. 

So afterwards we went to the Monte Christo and.... it kinda sucked lol.

It was basically house music but like... darker? if you even wanna call it that.

it was all kinds of blegh... but.. Stephen went up to Xian and asked her to play some Ministry. When she finally did, we went out to dance, and she followed that with Laibach and Skinny Puppy, so it wasn't entirely awful. As we were leaving she played some more Ministry. I appreciated it.

It was fun. My favorite part was when I had to drive back home from Hollywood because of my paranoia of gettign pulled over for expired tags, and then having Stephen drive us BACK down there just to get to Monte Christo and listen to "witch house" lol.

Before that I had some errands that I knocked out of the way. My broke ass went to Amoeba Music in Hollywood (which is where I got the motivation to even go anywhere that night) to trade in a bunch of movies and stuff that were just sitting on my bookshelf forever taking up space. I got back $30 for all of it which helped w/ dinner and the entrance fee. No complaints. Shoulda kept it for the parking ticket >_< lol

Fun night either way! 

WE WATCHED SAN ANDREAS AND IT WAS THE MOST STRESSFUL MOVIE 

My friend Brian is visiting from out of town, and we decided to meet up and go watch San Andreas because he's a dick. He brought his friend Matt, I brought the closest thing in proximity; Stephen. It had nothing to do w/ the fact that he completely freaked out when I told him I was going to see San Andreas with friends and he's been wanting to see it or anything.

 Brian is the fuzzy one.

We have a tradition of spinny hugs.
I haven't seen him in a few years, so it was REALLY awesome getting to hang out again.

Last time I saw him was like 4 years ago or something. We went to Disneyland w/ two other friends (one of which we um... excommunicated) and he wrestled Tigger.

I actually wrote about that trip on my Livejournal ;)

Aaaand if you'd like to read about that trip, you can do so by clicking H E R E.

 Amazingly, Brian treated all of us. He's a boss. 

A fuzzy bear boss.

Okay, like I'm not even gonna try to tell you how stressful it was watching San Andreas, so... I'll just tell you that it had some comedic relief and someone needs to get Dwayne Johnson an award for Most Awkward Sentimental Actor During Stressful Movie.

 Selfies were imminent.

 I told him to do something pretty.

 MOOOOOSHTAAAACHE

 EPIC NACHO CONSUMPTION IN FRONT OF HARD ROCK CAFEEEE

AW YEAH

 he kept his nachos.

a re-enactment of that scene in Conan the Barbarian where he punches the camel..... 

 -____-;;  .......

sigh

 So because it was so late, the tram and the parking garages were closed. We had to walk up the hill and back down to get back the car. Thankfully, Brian had nachos.

 Matt kindly drove us back home in his sweet ass rental car :D

AND TOMORROW WE'RE GOING TO DISNEYLAAAAAAND ^_^

Huge thanks to Jackie for helping us acquire tickets!!! I OWE YOU SO MUCH LADY. 

We're gonna bring her donuts. I'm hoping that we can tape the box shut and take it to customer services or something? Hopefully they'll get them to her? I don't know. I should call her tomorrow.

H E L T E R  |  S K E L T E R

Whoa Cynthia, you're all kinds of goin' out, aren't cha?

Well.. my schedule has been more free lately than usual and I've been able to sleep in a little more.
Also, when your boyfriend is busy working 60 hour weeks, it's a little hard to stay at home and keep yourself per-occupied by your lonesome. He took an internship for the summer and is working there, plus his other job and is trying to get his internship hours knocked out before the end of the month.

SO. Operation distract myself w/ Le Dancing is a-go!
No driving for me (at least not until I get my new tags in the mail which... they said should be any day now.. damnit) so enter Stephen. He was nice enough to come get me and drive us there.
 I knew Jess and Vince were gonna be there and was stoked to see them, too. They're so fun!! I follow them around like a little lost puppy. Please don't hate me, lol. 

 Precious.

Billy looks all kinds of thrilled, lol.

Billy and I have been talking about carpooling to San Diego Comic Con.

Ghosting only. No passes for me. I'll only be there for one day, but he's going all out as a Colonial Marine. I *might* go as Poe. We'll see.

 D'awwww I wub dem

 loool qqqqqq

 Doomie showed up!! Made me want creme brulee :( 

WAAAAAAHHH

 *snort* HAHAHA

 LOL.

Her back was facing the camera in this intially

I went to take picture and there was a small flash before it took, and she IMMEDIATELY turned around and made that face, LOLOL

We all danced our booties off. Was super fun. 

Carpool party time, but we were hungry so we went to Denny's first.

 Billeh makeh da goofy faaacesss

 XD he looks like a little kid! hahaha

 everything in the background is so colorful LOL

 this was probably the part where he got a message from someone else who needed a ride home XD

Poor Stephen, lol. He had to be up for work at like 9. By this point it was after 3. He still had to drop all of us off. Thankfully Billy lives close to us too, but still. Poo.

 Dunno why but I like taking photos of people walking away... like I'm the explosion. :D

FUN NIGHT. I fell asleep on the ride home. As soon as he dropped me off, I passed the fuck out. Thankfully I didn't work until 3pm. Lort.

YAY ADVENTURES.

But, after tomorrow, Cynthia is gonna retire a little bit for her outings. She's had a little more than she can handle, methinks. And taking it easy at home also feels really good. Home is where the Chili Lime Shrimp ramen is with carne asada waiting for you in the fridge. mmmmmm....

Disneyland awaits.
It's fucking 5:16 AM right now and I have to be ready by 11:30 fml. GOOD NIGHT!