I told myself that I'm gonna start getting into the habit of writing a post every friday. Because. I need structure lol. Some kind of it. Right now I have none and it's ... I'm bored.
The topic of streaming and youtube has come up in the past, but I don't think it's something I'd enjoy. Maybe when I was younger, the interaction would have held an excitement enough for me to engage more with things that could spark in-the-moment dialogs or common interests, but now... i don't give a shit lol.
A few peeps suggested streaming. Maybe?
The idea of being accessible or a presence to total strangers is offputting and uncomfortable. Lockdown has been the best thing ever for me because no one can see my face, and I cover my hair with a scarf or a hat, and it's like I blend right in and don't exist. I like that a lot.
There's some deep seeded shit behind all of that. Just know that.
But yeah, I don't want to be influenced by any of it. Even if it's good- I don't want it. Not from strangers. Not in real time at least.
Lol, the only time I can appreciate turn-based battles is on a forum; I can quietly deliver my input and walk away- or come back if it's important to me.
I'm shy. So I like writing and keeping to myself. WHICH IS WHY STEAM SALE IS GREAT :D
I'm playing Yakuza Kiwami 2, but got annoyed because the controls are totally different now. The controller I was using is at Chicken's place, so I finished the first one on a keyboard. It was awkward at first, but got used to it. Now everything is different, and even with key bindings, there's only so much I can customize. It feels like shit, the combat is hard to navigate. I'm mad lol I wanna play it but ugh.
Also earlier this week Mortal Shell dropped their beta. I got to the boss, but the game kept freezing :(
So much dodging T_T
Looks cool though. Pretty much Souls-like. Except the weapon stuff is different. But I like that it's from an indie developer. They're the games I deviate more towards. Support all the devs!
But I'm not even gonna lie, I'm batshit crazy excited for Shadowlands. Aside from being hyped for everyone that's worked on it and being really proud of them, fucking.... just... the changes that are coming and the content... I'm gonna dive so hard into it and hit a reef and be fine. Happy, even.
Finally finished SOMA. That's been a looooonnggg affair. I would stop because I felt not just sufficiently creeped out, but stupid lol. That's a charm that only Frictional Games seems to hold over me. But yeah, finished it last night. I liked the ending, even though it made me sad.
I told Chicken about it, and he said it was reminiscent of Westworld. My housemate told me the premise without spoiling too much. Seems like something I'd enjoying crying over, but idk if I'm ready to invest into a show just yet.
I just looked up the trailer. "Have you ever questioned the nature.. of your reality?"
That sounds deep, but it's not lol.
Android NPCs in a wild wild west VR become sentient, and rebel. Is what I'm getting from it. Big hollywood names and production.
On paper it sounds exotic and unique. But I've read, seen and played through that narrative so many times in books, movies and video games that the appeal falls short to me. I'm not against it, but I'm not going out of my way to invest either. Kinda like the Berserk movies/anime that I mentioned before. I already read it. I can live without watching it
A show that did fascinate me recently-ish though, was Siren. It took the idea of the mermaid fables and married that with real-world application. Which I bitched about years ago... about how if they were to be real, they would look nothing like how we probably romanticized them into being. Which is what the show did. And for what it was, a small production that slowly gained momentum, I think developed into something unique in an over-saturated market of what it means to be fantastical in hollywood. ggs.
(i hate it when trends in entertainment aren't subtle. example A: Norse history and mythology in frozen wastelands- I've been utterly over that for years- but I'll finish Hellblade because it was on sale.)
It's always the smaller project teams that dare to experiment with niches. Why is that?
I wanna see more ghosts. Not traditionally campy or goofy. But gastly, beautiful, and grotesque who had real lives and emotion. All becoming unraveled as the show progressed. That'd be dope. You know MAMA? I wanna know more about her ghost. Edith Brennan. Fuckin... Kayako Saeki? who died with a nasty grudge that cursed the house? I wanna know more about her than I already do. They go into it in the 3rd movie but c'mon. That wasn't it.
I binged the Netflix Ju-on series a few nights ago. It went into the
history of the grudge curse. The focus was on the horrors that people
commit in their madness and grief, not so much the onryo that possessed
the house. Which was fine. I didn't hate it. I just... I WANT MORE
GHOSTS, MAN. Why is that hard? Why is that an untapped market?
Like!?!??! Ghosts can be fascinating if you just.... eject yourself out
of that fucking box that keeps you scared of them, and try to understand
them. Why are they pissed? Why are they haunting that one particular
thing or place? Why are they making those noises? How did they die? Are
they trying to hurt people or are they reliving their grief
trying to send a message and be heard? It's not that deep. That's got
everything a tv show premise can base a really good story out of. Sh'mon
now
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| Because of her deformities and mental capacity to care for her baby, she was locked away in an asylum and her baby taken from her. She desperately took it back, broke out, and was hunted, so she jumped off a cliff, but her baby's remains were lost. She just wants her baby. |
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| Her husband was an abusive drunk, she fell in love with someone else. He found out and tried to kill her, but her neck broke and she survived. Gasping for air and trying to call out, she groans in agony as she crawls down the stairs trying to escape him. He kills her. The husband drowns the son and their pet cat in the bathtub, then commits suicide. |
If you humanize them, the layers of fear (hah) thin out, and their distortions and wails make sense. When the americanized version of Ju-on came out, I thought it was awesome that they made Sarah Michelle Gellar's character empathize with the ghost. Same thing with The Ring. The protagonists try to listen to what the ghost wants and bring it to rest.
I wanna do that, let me do that.
I wanna do that, let me do that.
So ... I'm taking an "abnormal psychology" class in the fall lol. Hopefully I'll feel more complete as a person because of it. It basically is asking all of those questions from before, and studying them, but on problematic and deviant behavior in humans who royally fuck up within set societal standards. Exciting as hell. I anticipate studying serial killers, and if that's the case, I have my Armin Meiwes cards ready to draw. He's my favorite deviant. In every essence of that word.
The Cell starring Jennifer Lopez? I'm her. Like, I'd do that in a heartbeat. lEt mE sTuDy YoUr uNinHibITeD vIcEs uWu
But I wannA DO THAT WITH GHOSTS
This post is stupid and I've rambled on long enough.
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