SUMMAH TIEM

     Where do I begin I don't even know you guys.

  It was a pretty fun summer. Despite some stupid low points here and there. 

Wanna know something funny?

I went to the OC Night Market last night with T, and I found these two cute bracelets. One was woven in black, and it had a steel plate on it that read "Hope"

I got it because when my mom visited me earlier this year, when we went to Little Tokyo, she bought me a little stone that says "Hope" on it. She said to pick out a stone that reads what I feel I lack most, personally-- out of the others that read things like faith, strength, courage, pride, etc... I chose Hope. So, I saw this bracelet and thinking of my mom, I bought it. Immediately put it on. I was going to take a photo of it, but quickly got distracted by something else. Well. I wear it to bed, and when I wake up this morning, it's gone. It's gone. The other bracelet I got is still on my wrist. But my Hope bracelet is gone. 

Hope is literally gone. 

I literally lost Hope.

And that's how we're starting this entry off today. Because that's how I started my day so this is what you're getting.

Lets backtrack a little bit. We last left off witttthhhh..... 

ah yes. Skulli's cute shirt properties. And ramen. He is um. He's definitely uh... yeah he definitely was wearing a shirt. 

THAT'S NOT AWKWARD OK MOVING ALONG

One day like 3 weeks ago or something, Ponies was like, food?

And I was like, k.

and we went to this Greek place where I had probably the most delicious hummus ever in my LIFE

Ponies swore by it, and I trust him so.

He was like, THE CILANTRO ONE
And I was like, I LOVE CILANTRO FAM
and he was like, YA I GET EXTRA PITAS
and I was like, DANG THAT'S A GOOD IDEA
and this is the end result:

 It was like, cilantro jalapeno hummus with pico de gallo and I can't stress enough how gorgeous that tasted. He asked me where I wanted to go eat for my birthday, and I said our usual place, but now I'm kind of thinking I rather go back there just for the hummus. But... our usual place is like... our place. And Masa loves us. He's basically family now. So IDK.

THE POINT IS THIS PLACE IS AWESOME.

Subject Name:    Pita Jungle
Location:             Newport Beach
Origin:                 Unknown - Greece has 0 jungles on record
Photographed:    Cilantro Jalapeño Hummus, the chicken burrito thing with rice, Ponies

 Once we were done, it was still early in the day and we didn't have anything else to do so we had an impromptu visit to, *gasp* the BEACH

The sun felt like it was just leeching energy out of us.
But I caught a Psyduck

We left our feet equipment in the car, played hot potato with our feet across the parking lot, and made our way, fully clothed, to the shore to join the mostly naked masses. 

We didn't have beach clothes on at all. And rolling our pants up is weird. So....
fuck it.

 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

LIFE

 It was pretty cool I guess. I wish I had my parasol, because the sun blaring on me felt kinda lame but when the breeze came, it was nice. There was a guy there with a bikini and Ponies said he had a huge cock, which was awful to have in mind because we kept spotting him and all I could think about was his wang and Ponies is a fucking troll. He took a picture of me with that guy and his wang and his stupid red bikini in the background. I won't post it. 

Sand was everywhere. Fortunately, he had some towels in his trunk that we used to brush everything off. I always forget how annoying sand is. It gets everywhere, it's like glitter. Except scratchy. 

Either way, it was a good day.

The next day, I met up w/ someone I met on Instagram! lol

Known him on there for a while, but I guess he finally was like, yo lets hang. And I was like... aight.

 

Poke.
Pokeeeeeeeeeeee
Poke is life. Poke is good. Me like Poke. 

And then we got dessert. I learned that creme brulee anything is just going to be good no matter what.
And then he wanted to go somewhere else, so he brought us to Round 1. That arcade place.
At the time, I was like wtf is that. But when we got there I remembered that I'd been there once before.

My brain deduced that, sociologically speaking, Round 1 is one of those places that is carefully selected for pre-mature courtship.
Or maybe he just figured I like games and this place is appropriate. I'll never know. Either way, it was fun! 

He got us a card with a bunch of tokens and we absolutely put them to good use. 

 Cuuuuuute

 WINNIIINNNGG

twice!

 This was a fraction of everything we acquired.

 He did not want his face revealed, which I respected. But here's a portion of him.

That's a shirt. Those are buttons. He also has a neck, a torso, and arms.

But does he have a midsection and legs??

YOU'LL HAVE TO READ ON TO FIND OUT

WOOOOooOOOooOOOoooo

 I want one damnit. 

Those things are rigged :(

 With the tickets we got, he had the idea that we should pick out gifts for each other. 

I am a practical person. I feel that gifts should not only be cute, but also useful! 

I'm weird with gifts. I have rules, lol: 

Practicality!

Unless you don't know the person that well, then you can kind of just get them something useless--- BUT IT HAS TO BE THOUGHTFUL AND PERSONAL TO THEM. 

Or if you aren't really sure what to get, get them something that you personally like, and give it to them-- I see it as giving the person a little piece of yourself for them to keep. IDK. When someone gives me something that's "them," it makes me happy because it's like... aww. I have something of yours :) Instead of... you gave me something you thought I wanted. Does that make sense?

AM I STUPID? I'm overthinking it. GIFTS MEAN SOMETHING, OK? Ok. lol ANYWAY

So, we went to the gift shop, and there weren't that many choices, but I wanted to pick something out that he'd use. So...

Lol. Squishy kitty coin purse! It's something that I'd want for myself, and is cute, and is practical. He really liked it, and said he'd totally use it ^_^ I hope he meant it!

He picked out a cute kitty plushie that looks like Hamtaro. It's soft, and squishy, and cute, and it's on my bed hanging out with Poonya and all my other babies.

Poonya says 안녕 훈니야

And afterwards, he drove us back to where we were parked, which turned out to be near this food festival thing we weren't aware of.
Turns out it was a vegan faire, in downtown Anaheim. 

I didn't even know there was a downtown Anaheim.
It was adorable
Nothing there looked appetizing though. And there were a lot of hippie booths with incense and candles and oils and shit. Like, I can't eat that. How the crap am I supposed to ingest that with 100% digestion success rate? I can't. I don't have the enzymes to break that shit down. Not to mention, it probably tastes like crap. Humans can't eat incense, or candle wax, or oils! The nerve.

We didn't stay long. 
 Dude was cool. But my spidey senses tell me he was looking for something else, and I'm not. even. looking. for anything. at least not purpose. There's no real way of breaking that to someone, so we just kind of left it at a friendly, awkward goodbye. I felt kinda bad. I wasn't sure what he expected, but I went into it as just... heeeyyy, lets get food and hang outtttt yaaaayyy cooooooll okaaaayyyy ttyllll
idk.

There's probably one person I'd consider as a potential mate, but that's never, ever, ever, ever, ever, EVER going to happen. Sooooooooo...

let me just put this out there...

I'm just trying to be a Pokemon master. And unless you're a Pokemon, I ain't trying to catch any bro hoes. get me? And you have to be a cute Pokemon. Like, a rare one. Not trying to chill with a common ass starter type

A GIRLS' GOTTA HAVE SOME STANDARDS

but like I said. I'm not even.
and ... Pokemon.
yeah.


MOVING ALONG.
That weekend was Mid-Summer Scream Fest. It's this dinky horror con that was being held at the Long Beach Convention Center. The following day, Ponies and I went to check it out.

This convention center is so goofy

I was excited to get a badge or something-- some kind of keepsake.

They stamped our hands.

It was pretty much just like every other horror con-- SFX booths, Haunt sponsored booths, photo sets, and artisans (which are my favorite part!)

One of the booths I was most looking forward to seeing was
Hellflower Soap Company!
They have these scrubs that are sooooooo amazing
I bought their pumpkin one last year and went through it super quick. Sweet autumnal scents are my favorite!

She hand makes all her soap bars, and they're absolutely beautiful! In addition to smelling delightful :D

I almost bought the Netflix and Chill scrub lol

 Cute, right!?

I love your stuff, girl!

idk what this was. I guess just a place to pose for pictures? 

goofy.

Saw this and thought of someone.

Don't worry. That person is not cannibalistic. But he definitely has Eeyore-istic traits.

 Mimikkyu hype is real

SICK SOAPS is my girl
I try to buy from her too. I'm on my second bar of soap I bought from her earlier this year-- they last forever! I have another one to go through before I start on my Uncle Frank one I bought that day lol. They look so cool and smell awesome! She hand sculpts and pours everything, it's incredible. I love her stuff!

It took a lot for me to not buy like 80 of these

OH HEY. COOL. IT'S ILLIDAN'S RETARDED TWIN BROTHER

I saw this and got kinda pissed because it's a blatant rip off. You can even see a shitty reskin of Illidan's tattoo marks on his chest that they didn't even bother trying to make into something original.

I'm not even kidding:

 Like, how shitty do you have to be to just blatantly rip off a Blizzard Entertainment character and try to pass it off as your own creation?

They probably thought no one would recognize it because it's a horror con, but 

WRONG. 

THOUGH I AM OF THE NERDY PERSUASION, I AM ALSO A CHILD OF DARKNESS WHO ENJOYS THE OCCASIONAL GOOFY HORROR CON. 

AND I SEE YOU, FIGMENT FOUNDRY. 

ILLIDAN IS MY BOY, AND YOU A FAKE ASS LITTLE COPYING CAT ASS BITCH 

If you want character designs ripped off and made into shitty half-assed retarded twin versions for your attractions, go here!

 This little Bride of Frankenstein was really really cute and I almost threw $$ to get her.

But I didn't. I'm proud of myself for that, lol

Ponies tried to like, pose with her, but he was also like.. umm.. do I smile, are you going to bite me idk what DO

So, we were walking past the entrance to the haunted houses area, and this scareactor starts walking towards us. I'm thinking, oh great here we go okay HI ANXIETY DID YOU SLEEP OKAY? COOL OKAY, SO YEAH HE'S COMING TOWARDS US OK PLEASE CALM DOWN GO BACK TO BED and he clearly starts coming towards ME and I just keep walking and look down thinking oh god he's gonna do the breathy thing at my face -- when he finally reaches me, stops me dead in my tracks and blocks my path. I look up at him almost certain I'd regret it, and he goes.. "hi Cynthia!"

I'm like

O________________O

he goes, "It's Dalton! From Anime Expo!"

LOL. He was one of our Bookers in our Bioshock cosplay group! Turns out he's also a scareactor. Not surprising lol. Hi Dalton! And thanks for the mild anxiety :)


Speaking of which, Haunt season is coming up and I live right by Knott's Berry Farm.
While Halloween Horror Nights was awesome the last couple years, I'm not going back there. To be honest, the only reason I went was to see my friends, who worked out in the open streets. This year, a few of them won't be there anymore, so... meh.
However, Knotts is completely new to me! I've never been to their Haunt event. So this year I'll have that, plus the Queen Mary to explore :)

All spook-fans are welcome to join me. I LOVE it! A majority of people that I ask about haunt events tell me they don't like it because they hate the feeling of getting startled. Someone even told me he was close to punching a scareactor because of how upsetting it was to him, lol. I'm more than happy to go alone, I've done it before. But if you're down for haunts, let me know! ^_^\

ALRIGHT. Lets continue

Ponies likes man skirts. 

I like Chatterer ^_^

I've seen a Pinhead cosplay. If I ever encounter a Chatterer cosplay... 

Lord have mercy on them because I will hug them and not let go for maybe until I really have to pee. maybe.

 We went to check out the haunts. The lines were really long, so we only went on one. For what it was, it was pretty cool.
Then we left to our spot because we were hungry.

He sometimes gets extra noodles. I don't know how he does it.


I've been going to Disneyland / California Adventure a lot.
Like, A LOT.
It's a little crazy. I have the 2nd tier pass, and I live like, 7 minutes away. I park on a residential street and just walk there, and it's so easy and just ugh. lol

But this particular day my focus was on California Adventure. It was a Tuesday morning if I remember correctly.
Usually I'll go at night around 8-9.
I promptly regret it because that's when the parade starts and I hate everyone and everything ever as soon as I walk into the park. But I always end up going there around that time. Idk why. 

 Ponies took us to this one hipster place that has bomb potato salad. And they had this Peruvian steak sandwich thing that was REALLY good. The name of the place escapes me, but I hope we go back again. It was really good.

Oh, look. Disneyland again.

These two girls approached me that morning to compliment me. They made my day!
I often get random compliments, which is so so lovely. but they were especially sweet. I had to take a picture with them

I didn't stay long that day. I remember that day I worked and was off early. So I went to Disneyland real quick, then left again to go to the company picnic.

This was an important day because...

It was held at Garden Grove Park. and turns out that that park was, at the time, a Gastly nest.
and I'M A LITTLE BIT POSITIVE THAT MOST OF MY FRANS KNOW GASTLY IS MY FAVORITEST POKEBABY IN DA WHOLE WORLD
and I hadn't caught one yet. And that day, I caught 2 :D
3 spawned, but the 3rd one ran away.

It was a good day.
Wasn't over.
T was there, but she had to go back to work.
We met up after she got off and went to hit up Downtown Fullerton
because...
that's just what we do.

She suggested with Korean food.
I didn't say no.

If there's some sort of burrito thing, I will most likely order it.
SeoulMate did not disappoint. Bulgogi burrito with spicy kimchi and rice and other things and mmmmmmm... so dope

And of course we got boba slushies from Cha2o ^_^

YOU KNOW. THE YOOSH.

Annnnnd it'd been a while since I made anything, so I was inspired to make Pokebabies.
I'm gonna make another two soon. This time around I made one of my favorite ships. And I was excited about the announcement that Pokemon Go made about the gen 2 types. My favorite Eeveelution is Espeon! Cute widdle psychic Eevee pokebaby so cuuuute ^_^

So yeah. I started making one lol

It started out like this, but then I changed it a little.
And then decided to make Espeon's ship, Umbreon.

 Thanks, Google!

After some baking, I went in and made em pretty.

  

 Don't be jelly, Gastly. 

You my favorite Ghostie type. 

Espi is Psychic dun worry bb I heart joo

Little bit of glaze and voila.

CUTE WIDDLE ESPEON BABY

I'm stoked to see it in Pokemon Go. Been saving up my Eevee candies in the hopes of evolving one for an Espeon. But I'm not entirely sure if the evolutions will work the way they originally did with Eevee's original gen 1 evolutions. We'll see! 

Couldn't make one without the other.

Aww, they're so cute.

But, that Umbreon is now at home with someone else. 

I am confident he will be well taken care of.  

Disneyland again! 

This time, I met up with Doge and his friend K. Aaaaand, while there he ran into other friendsies!

We were all playing Pokemon Go, lol

 Little did I know that it was a magical friendship being born :P


So that following Saturday, there was a little thing at Skulli's house.
Tiny little get together.

There were a ton of people, and I only knew a handful. I toned my wardrobe down a bit because... idk. I panicked, lol? And wanted to blend in as much as I could because meeting new people felt scary at the time and I didn't go with anyone
THE JOYS OF SOCIAL ANXIETY :D

There was some food. Wasn't that much.
Only a shit ton.

As some familiar faces started showing up, and more people approached me, I relaxed more and opened up. It's always a process and I hate it, lol. Wah =\
Shyness is a bitch!

But Everyone was cool ^_^

As the evening progressed, I indulged in some shots with Georgi and Gina. Gina I found was very very sweet. She and I got close that night. I really like her a lot

 Another familiar face...

River!
He's so cute. And he only understands Korean. Fobbiest dog ever

Later that evening, Smiley busted out Skulli's birthday cake. The whole thing was for Skulli's birthday (which was like 2 weeks prior). 

We got into the large, heated, light-up water rectangle bowl. T'was bubbley and warm. I look like shit, don't mind me.

Gina has gorgeous ink covering her entire back

Hey. It's Smiley.

Azn John

White John

Big ass dude, lol

Lisa's shirt does not lie

I don't think they're a thing, but this photo demonstrates what I love about being short and taller dudes. 

Gina is such a sweetheart.

She was around me most of the night.

So, that night will mark the last moments of my decision to drink.

I quit drinking at clubs or just out in public anywhere, and resolved to only drink while around trusted company, in someone's home. 

Well, I'm no longer doing that either. 

 I'm just not going to drink anymore, period. Thank you Gina for being with me til the very end when I left. And also to the others who looked out for me afterwards, you know who you are. Thank you, for realsies. 

The following day, Smiley treated me to lunch.

It's amazing how fast news gets around, lol. I didn't realize it at the time, and maybe it's a normal thing for them, but the way shit got handled was quick. If it wasn't clear, some shit went down at the party, and like, they intervened and handled it.
Normally, in that other circle I hang out in, stuff just turns into a lot of gossip, and people talk about whatever happened forever, and then take sides, and talk shit, and no one ever does anything, and then a few months later everyone forgets about it, and it's like nothing ever happened-- until someone brings it up again, and then shit gets salty again. It's a generally vicious cycle with zero resolution.
But they like, discussed stuff, and confronted someone. It just took me by surprise. I'd hate to fuck with them personally, or anyone super close to them.

I envy those friendships. The kind where they jump in and are ready to bite anyone who fucked with their friend, and not just gossip about it. That's really really cool.
But, I guess you could say I had that. I didn't realize it was happening at the time, but I did. I don't know if it's just in their nature to confront that and silence it, or because it was me, or both, but...

gah. I'm rambling.

Anywho, I spent the following day with Smiley
he cheered me up in the best way he knew how... WITH FOOD :D

Vietnamese food to be exact.

And he also took us to have shaved snow. It was my first time trying it, and it was awesome ^_^
You a real homie, homie. I'm lucky to know you. You and "Eeyore" both.

And for some reason, even though I only asked for the one day off, I ended up having a streak of 4 days off work in a row. Which meant I went to Disneyland and met up with the Neinies!
Lets call them Gem and Heku

 Doge basically is a matchmaker. I've been meeting up with them at Disney like every other day lol. Okay maybe not that often, but we've been going there a lot, and it's so fun! They're awesome!



And following that, I went to pick up my friend from his hotel. I hadn't seen him in months, and he was in town for work. Lol... I should call him G-Unit lolololollllolllllleleleoeleoelolelolll

We went to get K-BBQ

Full was an understatement

It was good seeing him again. We had beef.

heh. heh.

get it

No, really though. I stopped talking to him for a while, but we worked things out. I hate it when I get all like, empath-y and stuff. Forgiveness is goofy. And yet, here we are!

 You goofy asshole.

We went to Downtown Fullerton for dessert and walked around aimlessly forever. I wish I could record his reactions when a "tweaker" would get near us. He freaks out. By freak out, I mean he tenses up like a wet cat and watches them like a hawk. He's like... he has his gaze LOCKED on them and watches them until we are out of range or they're out of his line of sight lol. 

There are things which trigger that in him to react that way, but damn. I kept having to like, pat him on the shoulder and like almost baby talk him to calm him down, lol. 

There were a lot that night. I'm not exactly sure why. And even when they weren't that obvious to me, like they'd be several feet away, in the dark, at night, in a park or something, or walking around on the sidewalk, he'd just GLARE at them. Like, spot them IMMEDIATELY like something went off in his head, and I'd look at him and be like wtf that's not a tweaker chill.

And then we'd get closer, and the person he was glaring at would like turn around and look all kinds of fucked up, or start shouting random shit and talking to themselves, lol. 

In spite of his guard dog tendencies, it was a good day. I was happy to see him again.

Oh.

 I evolved into an Espeon or whatever

We're twinsies. See? 

And when I die, I'm gonna be a Gastly.

This place is ridiculous.

So is Smiley's appetite. That dude can eat forever. I don't know how he does it, or where it all goes.
Just like, give him your leftovers. It's fine. He'll eat them. 

And recently, I had my first taste of Shabu-Shabu.

YOU'D THINK I would've tried is sooner but nah.

After a brief Disneyland visit, the Neiners invited me to join them for Shabu-Shabu. 

IT WAS SO GOOD?!?!?! 

And she told me there were a buttload of places near this one that I'd love. 

The funny thing is that I'd been to that little shopping area before. Funnily enough, because of Smiley lol. He invited a group of us to meet up to get food, and we went there for ice cream. 

Anyway, it was SO good that I went back the next evening with T. lol
The Neiners and I were supposed to get boba afterwards, but it was really really late. Like almost 1 am late. I had work at 4 am and still had a 20 minute drive home, so we rain checked. BUT WE SHALL FEAST ON BOBA, AND IT SHALL BE GLORIOUS.
But... I couldn't stay away.
I had to show T. 

Last time, I had gotten the pork bone broth. This time I went with the japanese curry broth. 

So damn good. 

The waiter saw me and was like OH HAY AGAIN

Making friends all over the place!

And then we went for dessert!

 She's so beautiful. She doesn't see it, but I try to show her in pictures because she doesn't believe my words :)

 NOMS

 And we couldn't end our evening without boba. We both worked the next morning, but she worked earlier so we didn't stay late.

She dropped me off, and Doge had been hitting me up that evening. I met him in Downtown Fullerton and we walked around for a while.

I feel like Downtown Fullerton is just like... the go-to place now lol.

We played some Pokemans and tried to be graceful gretches on the ... jungle.. gym? in the playground. idk what the shit any of that stuff was, or how any of it worked. we just climbed it lol

 Aaaaaaand my stupid ass forgot how gravity works.
I climbed up on the thing and hung upside down by my knees. My phone and stun gun fell from my belt, towards the ground and so did my shirt. I panicked and grabbed the edge of it pulling it over my exposed tummy, and in doing that..... the opposite end of my torso was exposed and um... popped out of my shirt! LOL

MORTIFIED does not even COVER IT hahahahaha omg
And yes. He caught a glimpse. I was hanging upside down and in that split second I clumbsily struggled to yank up my shirt again and was laughing horrendously the whole time, all the while trying to keep my knees bent so I wouldn't fall off the bars. LET ME TELL YOU, HOW AWKWARD THAT WAS. Doge couldn't stop laughing, which made me laugh, while I turned bright red. All the blood rushing to my head probably wasn't helping.
He was in a more awkward position because he didn't know whether to come over and help me down or just stand there and laugh hysterically while I struggle to not fall off, from laughing and being mortified at the same time!

 I got down, and we couldn't stop laughing. He hugged me and tried to console me in the best way he could lol. To end the night, I had to take a picture. I hadn't realized how red my face still was lol. The walk to the car was just so weird. Doge is such a good friend! If you can't laugh about your shit popping out with your friend, then they're not your friend, lol. He lol'd at how red my face looked in the picture too. Ah, jeez lol fun walk back to the car haahahah


AND YEAH!
It's been a fun summer so far. With some bumps here and there. I thought my car was stolen at one point lol. But it was just towed. That was lucky. I learned my lesson. And I got some hopeful news back from my mom. I won't elaborate, but there seems to be a small light at the end of this very long tunnel. It's still a ways away, but it seems to be there. That's enough for us.

Classes started last week. I'm only taking the one class I need this semester. It's so stupid. I'm really kicking myself in the ass for not squeezing it in with my other classes all the other semesters. I only need math and I'm as good as in. It's frustrating. I want to get started already. I want a career. I want to succeed. Almost there!

And with that, I think this post is long enough. GOOD NIGHT!
I already have a buttload of stuff for the next one :P