Orpheus

  HO HO ho! I'm tired lol.

I think boredom has finally started to take seed within my like, soul. Or maybe it's just cabin fever, idk. But uh, the holidays have been chill! I find myself struggling to peel away from playing games. As if that were a problem, but lately it's like... I wanna do more than that.

There's a lot I wanna do. But things have to be put on hold for right now. It's cool tho! Christmas was nice. We technically celebrated two days of gift opening. One of which is lost to me forever, no thanks to Jackie D. Aside from inebriated escapades, the chill remains chill, and we've just been enjoying food and each others' company.

Homdray's been experimenting with different flavors for chicken wings. We have a stash of various sauces from different fast food places. It's been a trip lol.
I also bought a mint plant for mojitos. I cheated. We have mint seeds, but... I just gave in and bought a plant.

I forgot how light and cute mojitos taste.

I also made tallarin verde. It'd been a while.

Present opening was especially fun.

I just like seeing peoples' reactions to stuff more than anything.

Weird brain meat thing:
I saw someone on twitter mention a christmas list they made when they were younger. And it dawned on me that I never made christmas lists. And remembered that my high school bf one year had one that he gave to whomever. I spent christmas there (my fam celebrates on christmas eve at midnight) and yeah... i just remember him and his cousins and stuff having christmas lists... and it confounded me.
Honestly, the idea of a list of things to expect to be given still comes across to me as kind of impolite. idk.
Maybe it's because I wasn't raised with that practice. For christmas, I would just get stuff that my parents or family thought to gift me. sometimes they'd ask, but it wasn't often.
and then I saw this list on twitter. It had so many lavish things on it. expensive things. and like, i shouldn't judge, but it kinda grossed me out.
i say this as i just recently readjusted my amazon wish list (that only my bff and fiance have access to)
- but it was at my bff's request. otherwise, i don't expect anyone to get me anything off of it. it's just stuff i make note to eventually get for myself.
idk. the point is... christmas lists are weird. i don't like the idea of basically demanding something be gifted or bought- demand is a poor choice of word, but that's pretty much what's happening.
I think it's more awesome if people gift you something because they thought of you or found something they enjoyed and wanted to share that enjoyment.

One year for my birthday, Suna got me a giant shopping bag of different brands of ramen noodles and a chipotle gift card. it was hilarious and amazing and thoughtful.

thoughtfulness is dope.
obviously if a wishlist online is the only access you have to putting a smile on someone's face at the moment, that's completely different than accepting a teenagers christmas list to fullfill

Anyway... that's my dumb tangent that in the grande scheme of things doesn't really matter!

I got Chicken a space lego cuz he a space boy :3

And one of the things Lifa got Homdray was a pineapple rofl

He was so annoyed lmaoooo

Our little fam

Homdray and I had gone to costco earlier in the week, and he saw this box of 6 jack daniels bottles and was like I NEED TO GET THAT FOR LIFA and I was like omg no
He did anyway lmao

I got fun stuff ^_^
Board games, nacho cheese and kit kats lmao
lots of books and a jacket

Chicken and Homdray immediately went to play with their toys

We played Life. It's been 84 years! We talked about this before and finally are able to play it :D
Homdray was so annoyed with the pineapple that he wanted to throw it in the bonfire outside. It burned the entire length of time the log allowed, and still said fuck you

If it had been more ripe, it would've been delicious lol. The smoked flavor was really good!

We finished season 2 of the mandalorian over hot cocoa and panettone.
Good shit.
The most important thing for me that entire episode was Jango's actor and the after credits scene. That's it. lol

Chicken bought himself a pressure washer so he can detail our cars.

And Lifa taught us how to play poker. I learned a little bit from playing Yakuza looololol, but this was a good refresher.

Chickeng!

Since we didn't have proper poker stuff, we used taco bell diablo sauce, kit kats, mints, coins, and chik fil a sauces to bet with

And uh, I turned into a drunk feral cat, scratched everyone and black out.
Merry Christmas.
It was my fault because I hadn't eaten much that day, and Lifa was excited to do jackie d shots. I get chihuahua syndrome sometimes where I forget that I'm much smaller than them and can keep up.
The reality is no. No, I can't.

The good news! We opened more presents, and I got another book! And a cool bat shaped keychain holder thing. I probably jingle too much lol. 

I have plenty to keep me busy. I'm already halfway done with ZOO- intermittenly reading between breaks between Hades and Genshin.

I finally beat Hades 3 times now! Cleared on the sword, gun, and shield. It's hard! But am getting the hang of it. Honestly I just wanna see the storylines progress.
There's a character and storyline that I think my bff would really like, but he doesn't wanna play video games. He likes mythology, and named his two tarantulas after Greek peeps. Iphigenia and... I forget the other. I think he'd appreciate Orpheus and Eurydice's storyline unfolding in the game. But alas... I'll never see his reaction to it all.. Damnit lol. It's so good.

Lament of Orpheus is so pretty. ugh.

I really like Dusa, too. I wanna make a stuffed animal version of her and her bonus thingie. Like, not urgently, but I think if it boils over, I'll reach the point I did with Gastly during Pokemon Go, where everyone was catching a Gastly, and I wasn't, and I got so upset that I made myself a huge Gastly plushie. He lives in my car. Coping mechanism...

ANYWAY

I wanna dooooo stuff. But I caaaan't. I mean I can but it'd be a hassle.
Yesterday someone purchased something from me out of nowhere- I got a thing from paypal with a payment for one of the clay baby bat things I used to make a long time ago. I don't think I ever listed them anywhere... but it was made out to my store name. Was really weird. I had to refund her and tell her it wasn't do able. I don't even know where she could've even made that purchase from, considering my etsy has been inactive for years. Idk, was weird. But it made me reconsider making stuff again.
At least my little baby bats.
And I saw someone making candles recently. It reminded me of the soy candles I used to get from small artisan vendors- they smelled so good and lasted longer than my beeswax candles. I wanna play and work with my hands again.
I think that's why gaming keeps me content- my hands are always doing something that corresponds with my focus and concentration. if I idle too long, I'll doze off and lose interest.

Welp, in a few days, it'll be the new year and.... will change nothing at all. Though, I did keep to my resolution from last year lol. Which was to actually use facebook. and I did. I did it. tadaa! And somehow, I don't feel any better. Rigged!

Jk idc about resolutions. I just wanna get to a point where I can nest lol. Getting there! But for now, Hades and steam sales are juicy :P

This is late. The days blur together lol. here's hoping to a chill new year and... not contracting COVID-19. So far, so good. I keep telling myself if I just stay home, I'll be fine. And that's really all I can depend on. Sigh.

2020 wasn't that awful for me. I was one of the few fortunate ones who find solace in isolation, and had safety nets when work from home was implemented. Guess we'll see how the next few months go. A lot is going to change- for us. But we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.

HOKIE DOKIE
be safe

don't go out to large NYE gatherings for fucks sake
wear a mask

happy new year i just want orpheus to be with eurydice again
Don't look back