Vomit

     There's this amazing credit I give myself for not expecting to feel nauseated by the words of

people I'm acquainted with. Why I'm surprised anymore is beyond me.

Common sense? Nope.
Social courtesies? NAH.

Apparently I have expectations after all! That means I'm still human. I'm so relieved.



- Or I'm just really arrogant. I'm starting to believe that arrogance is the case. This seems to occur often. The funny thing is I have nothing to be arrogant about. Maybe arrogance isn't the correct word. I'm debating with myself, that's fun. Jaded. Let's just go with jaded for now.

Damn, is she ever positive about ANYTHING?
Of course. But that requires energy and faith in things beyond my control and that's just hilarious. I mean that's like asking me to trust all the other drivers on the road to not want to hit my car and get settlement money. In LA? Yeah. Sure why not.

I made a joke. That's positive. ;)

OMG SO THERE'S THIS GUILD WARS 2 HALLOWEEN EVENT GOING ON RIGHT NOW.
It's so fun!

Unfortunately I've been too tired after work to log on and just waste my day away playing it, so instead I come home and fall asleep all day instead. Both have the same amount of time wasting, but one requires zero brain activity. The latter feels better when you've been up since 3 a.m. However in the evenings I've been logging on and messing around. I've also been watching the XXX Holic anime. I got further in this time than all the others. I'm totally lost. But from the stuff I did pay attention to it's been fun to watch.

Halloween is coming up and it's making me wanna bust out a bunch of charms all Halloween themed ^_^. I have lots of ideas, but I keep putting it off. It gets flustering sometimes because I have to constantly clean my hands. Working with clay blows because you can't have any dust anywhere, and any little hairs or dust on your hands gets in the clay and you can see it. Working with white clay is the worst. I need to get wipes or something... but it's not a priority.

Boring entry is boring. Doctor appointment on Friday is making me nervous. I have going to get checked up. Anything medical... yuck. but I haven't gone in like 2 years sooooo... it's probably a good idea. Just hope I don't pass out. Oh god. >,<

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This weekend I'm gonna be driving up to San Diego to see my guildie. We're gonna stay with her friend and he's gonna be our sugar daddy.
Normally I'm against being sugar daddy'd because I was smothered growing up and developed a mentality to want to do things strictly for myself, by myself... BUT I'm so broke after the expenses for October that I'm just gonna smile and enjoy it.

I secretly wish to be out at a group dinner with friends, one being a hxc feminist (not ever) so that upon a male friend offering to pay I can politely decline and hope that she butt in and say "yeah! independent woman!" at which point I can retort with "Not at all. Just shut up." and excuse myself to go to the bathroom. 

Is that weird?

 Omg I love my character. 

She's so cute.

The main city, "Divinity's Reach" is massive. Really pretty too. This screenshot reminds me of Topsy Turvy day in The Hunchback of Notre Dame. No? :)

My guildie has awesome gear...

*swoon*

So cool looking ^-^

It's stupid how gorgeous this game is.

Man... having dreadlocks is a pain in the ass. I have to re-tighten them at some point tomorrow. And I'm out of hair dye. That may require some improvisation. And then do laundry. Pack my stuff for  this weekend. 

Even though I don't like driving, the drive up to San Diego I'm actually looking forward to this time. It's about two hours. I've gone out of my way to put all my music on my phone. That's a thing because other than driving, I don't really have music playing ever. I just watch Netflix. And before putting all my music on my phone, I just drove in silence. It was enjoyable for me. Yeah, I know. There's something wrong with me or whatever.

Anyway, last time I drove there was to see.. ironically.. another guildie back from when I played Aion.. it was like 10 at night or something and it was so relaxing. Probably because there was no one else around and it felt like I had the highway all to myself. I'm considering making the trip later in the evening on Friday. We'll see.

I kinda miss her sometimes. Jai. 

She stopped talking to me because I made a joke about a youtuber using the word "feminazi" and she got super offended and I was like zomg it's not that serious, and she was like omg if you ever get raped don't come to me then and I was like LOL AIGHT. And yeah. She stopped talking to me XD

It was probably for the best though. We were completely opposite in our ideals and such. I'm nowhere near as emotional as she is and to be frank it was a challenge for me to take some of her concerns seriously. I tried, but it's difficult when you're dealing with someone else's consistent radical imaginations. =\ So I just kinda was like I GIVE UP. 

I do miss her though. 

There was my vulnerability. And with that I bid you my dear readers a fond good night. 

Dream of cool shit and stuff.