Lizard

  It doesn't feel like a new year. That's probably because it's just another day, and the only significance is the revered meaning to this day that humans as a race put on it because the Calendar was invented.

I'm probably the only one that sees it that way. But I guess it's a nice excuse to celebrate stuff. I just wish that people wouldn't pretend their trespasses have been wiped off their slate just because the moon came out another night. I suppose it's a nice thing that everyone is in high spirits :)

Speaking of high spirits, I decided that I wanted to try an experience with the effects of THC on my nervous system. Google it.
It only took a quarter of a century but hey... I'm fine with it.

I used to suck dick for coke- I SEEN HIM!
..You ever suck some dick for marijuana?- HUH?!

 
A lot of things make way more sense now. However it's not an experience I care to try again in the near future.

I had a bad experience with brain stimulation and ultra sensory modifiers when I was little- at the Dentist. I had to get my wisdom teeth pulled and I screamed bloody murder at the sight of the syringe. No.
Not ever.
I will scream until I die if it'll keep the syringe away from my gums.

It worked. They didn't use the syringe. Instead they used "laughing gas."
It made me feel extremely aware of things at first, then I felt giggly, and suddenly my head felt extremely heavy, like I couldn't move it. When I did move my head, the world spun around me, and all I could focus on was my brain trying to process everything at the same time. The heavy feeling went into my arms and then the rest of my body, I couldn't move. I felt like there was 200lbs of pressure pushing down on me until suddenly I was out cold.

As I got older more and more people around me talked about getting high and drunk. How it made them feel dizzy and relaxed and all these different things. You see... after the laughing gas experience.. I never cared to go through that again. Or anything like that. The funny thing about that memory for me was that the dentist was smiling as he told me they were going to use the laughing gas on me. I don't remember what he said exactly but he said it like... it would make me feel good. Like.. oooh it's the laaaughing gaaaas you're gonna love this!

Not at all. I hated it. It scared the crap out of me. So... while normal people's curiosity generally gets the best of them and they try everything under the sun, I just didn't care. I'm good.
Then when I was 23, I finally started drinking socially. Not a lot, but I wouldn't say no to drinks anymore. Now at 25, last night as Rot and Josh did their thing in the living room amidst idle conversation, I thought okay... I trust them. I used to smoke cigarettes so I can probably hit it just fine. Whatever.

So I told them, and they were very paternal. Josh more so than Rot; reassuring me that I didn't have to do anything I didn't want to, no pressure, etc etc. It became this whole thing of how it should be induced because Josh has... an apparatus with filters, and then there's the 'traditional' way. I think.
I opted for the filtered apparatus so I wouldn't taste the yucky yuck. Back in high school, I forget where.. some chick's house I think.. we smoked flavored tobacco (mango) from a hookah and I remember it tasting really... smooth. Best way I can describe it. If you've smoked cigarettes you know what I'm talking about. So that memory helped in this decision.

They set everything up and the whole time I kept thinking... this is like going into the doctor's office for a shot. They're back there prepping and soon they're gonna call me in. Because I've never done it before! So I was a little nervous. You could say I am extremely naive, but that laughing gas... I'll never forget it. I was mostly concerned that it would be a similar experience. I had a feeling it might be, but I'll never know until I try.

Rot asked me if I wanted him to light it or have me do it. I told him I'd feel more comfortable if he did it for me. He did, and I took a hit. They told me to hold it in, which was weird. I did.. for a while until I couldn't and my lungs started to burn. I coughed an exhale and just coughed and coughed nonstop for over a minute! What a shitty feeling! haha
Josh teased Rot for letting me inhale as much as I did for my first time. I inhaled everything. I thought I was supposed to? I dunno. Idk wtf I was doing.
My lungs burned for what seemed like forever and I coughed a LOT until the feeling subsided. They said I may not even feel it because a lot of people don't on their first try. Initially I didn't.
It hit after about 5 minutes.
Subtle at first... like the tipsy feeling where you're drunk. You swoosh your head and you're buzzed kinda. Then
My vision and awareness became extremely sensitive. When I would dart my eyes around the room it appeared as though I was looking as mere frames of what was in my room, and not a smooth view of everything.  It was like... walking around in an MMO when it's really laggy. Like you only see 10FPS instead of 60FPS, but at a faster rate because your eyes move quickly when you look around.
Now because my awareness had increased, any movement would double the amount of brain activity going on so I sat still, focused on my field of vision. But moving my head felt like a chore.
There were stages.

Suddenly I had the urge to laugh, lol. I felt giggly. And because of my keen awareness I thought about how amazing it must be to be an animal that's super sensitive to things, like a lizard or something. All of this going on in my head, coupled with my skewed vision, and busted equilibrium and giggle fit... I stated "I feel like a lizard"
I realized what I had just said and couldn't think of any sort of context that could ever be taken in and just lost it. I couldn't stop laughing at how stupid that was, and it suddenly dawned on me... that's stoner humor.

Then everything started feeling a little more intense. Josh was talking to me but it was difficult to concentrate on a single thing. I tried to listen to him, but my brain was distracted by simple things like blinking, and lifting my neck, and the lights in the room. And I was focused on the sensations going on in my body being a little too familiar for my comfort. Suddenly I felt in the lower back part of my brain a prickly, tingly sensation that started to feel like numbness, but at the same time felt heavy. I couldn't lift my head. I was reclined back against the sofa but when I attempted to lift myself, my neck gave and my head limply fell back again. Fucking laughing gas.

The sensation in my brain started to feel like pressure, and it traveled down my spine where the tingling pressure was concentrated, then leaked into my limbs making them feel useless and out of my control. Suddenly I felt heavy, and couldn't move. Suffice to say my suspicious were realized, and it basically feels like laughing gas. Except with laughing gas I didn't feel the burning/tingling pressure. THC activates something completely different and all these little things in your body start pulsating and tingling and for me... it was rather overwhelming.
I admit that the champagne and the drink Rot gave me earlier that night maybe have contributed to the experience. Josh said I held the smoke in longer than he expected so that may have made the effects stronger.

Once the tingly pulsating pressure craziness became tolerable I forced myself up and concentrated really fucking hard to walk to my room and drop on my bed. I was out cold immediately. If Josh hadn't been there guiding me, explaining the sensations I should expect to feel I would've started panicking and crying lol. It was intense. I was no prepared for that at all. But it's different for everybody. I'm definitely not doing that again anytime in the near future. I don't think I missed out on much considering I waited as long as I did to try it, but I'm glad I did try it.


^ That was my NYE.
I was showering when Midnight struck. We all hung out in the living room and talked while watching Ninja Scroll. Wouldn't have had it any other way.
Today Rot and I went grocery shopping, got my tips from work and a lb of coffee. He Skyrim'd while I played the crap out of Binding of Isaac pretty much all day today. I got the DLC off steam for 0.74 cents!! It's awesome. Tomorrow I'm off work and gonna play more BoI. :D

I hope everyone else had a good time last night and didn't get in too much trouble. Like feeling like a lizard.
Eeeek it's almost 2:30 :B