Methusela

   Getting older feels gross. I can't believe that I'm already past the first quarter of my life. I certainly don't feel it. Thank goodness I don't look it (much)! Here's hoping my genetics handle this aging thing gracefully as my skin cells slowly deteriorate over time.

I've never been one to want to go all out for my birthday. But I have been very fortunate to have friends who were so excited for it that they were always determined to do something for me. Maybe they feel bad for me? Hahaha. Either way, I never expect anything really, other than a nice greeting and some food. 

This year I thought I was going to spend my birthday alone and not do anything. Josh I think I mentioned gave me an early surprise gift that was so cute and thoughtful. It took me completely off guard. (Kyubey plush doll). You're probably wondering what Rot--- well. He's not one that has his mind in celebrations ever, really. Or holidays. You could say he is a practical person with his mind always on his music career. I think there was only ever one occasion that he agreed to include himself for my birthday stuff, which was when Ponies set up a day for a group of us to go to see the dinosaur and gem exhibit for both Kyrie and mines' birthdays. So it's something I don't even acknowledge around him. He told me what he wanted to do for me this time, and it was really sweet, but I understand that his music stuff needs to be taken care of first.

Lauren I think was more excited about my birthday than I was! She surprised me and showed up the evening before, from her parents' house in the desert. She held a big birthday cake balloon and a bowl full of sour candy! lol

Let me tell you guys how much sour candy I have right now.

I have two 2 lb bags of sour gummy worms. That green bag of sour gummy worms, and those two sour patch kids. The blue box was pretzel M&M's- gone. It's funny because I don't eat candy very much. It wasn't until recently that I discovered this 2.5 lb bag of sour gummy worms at the grocery near my work and started buying them. But this stuff will last me until at least November lol. 

She spent the night that evening where we watched Gentlemen Prefer Blondes and talked about a lot of random stuff. And then she gave me another gift.

I started crying because it was the sweetest, most thoughtful thing coming from her. And when she gave me that I was so happy that I started weeping from joy, knowing that she understood. It may not seem like a lot, but the way that she thought about me on a personal level moved me to tears. And I absolutely loved it. Simple, and perfect.

Which btw.... I hate myself for saying this but the pet battle thing is kind of fun? Is it because I'm a girl? Probably? Could it be that I'm emotionally attached to some of my pets from Burning Crusade? Perhaps. Does finally seeing them get stronger and do cute little attacks make me happy? MAYBE?

UGH.

The actual day of my birthday I woke up to her preparing breakfast for me. It hit home for me a little because I had another friend back in Pennsylvania, Sara, who absolutely adored doing that. Every time she'd sleep over at my place she'd wake up and make chocolate chip pancakes for us, and serve hot black tea with milk. It was like... what she did. Every time. 

DOES SOMETHING ABOUT ME SAY FEED ME THINGS??

I don't even LOOK bulemic. 

I have all my teeth, I swear.

Lauren was telling me how much she admired me because I'm basically a walking kristenstewart. That's a noun. Well... at least with stuff that would normally get people to react a little more. I told her that it's a flaw that really sucked to achieve, because it wasn't intentionally. I told her after a while you just kind of stop having expectations and just shrug everything off because it takes too much effort and emotional investment to put any faith into anything anymore, for me. So I'll just tolerate what happens, figure it'll go shitty anyway because why not? When things go shitty, I'm not surprised. However when they go really well... I'm pleasantly surprised. And it feels good, and it's an emotion I welcome more over disappointment that inevitably comes with hoping things go the way you want them to all the time. 

I tried to explain this to her. She told me that she thinks I am strong. I wish I felt strong. But all I can really 'hope' for is that my callousness somehow helps her more, as she claims it does, with future moments that she feels she can't get through.That was a nice gift. I don't think it was meant to be, but I am glad that I can somehow help her with my idiosyncrasies.

We also went to Michael's. 

Before Michael's we went to this Halloween store that took forever to get to even though it was like 5 minutes away. It was meh. They did have these cute bows that I got though. And Lauren got some stuff too. But I wont' mention what. :)

At Michael's we fell in love with the artificial flowers they had at the front, and took our sweet time mixing and matching different ones to take home.

She went with Autumn colors. I decided on something a little more.... bold. I also bought more candles because out of like the 20 I have in my apartment right now... only two have anything left to burn, lol. So I got this like... 9 pack of teas for like 5 bucks.

They're pumpkin scented ^_^

See the two empty ones next to this? Hahaha, they're all over the place.

Candles make me happy. :3

I also got these. My parents gave me some birthday money, and I decided to get some stuff with it.

I didn't spend it all. I can't. I'd feel bad if I did. 

I also got purple lights for our bedroom. It looks absolutely delicious in here at night. With candles lit and these lights it's like mmpf. 

Lauren likes our bed. Can you see her? XD

The bisquick she bought for the pancakes is multipurpose apparently (I never knew this) and can also be used to make biscuits! So we did that. SO GOOD. I need to get more butter. It was gone by the time we finished this plate. Gross I know. but so delicious.

It was a really nice day all together. And she played more WoW on my computer. It's cute to watch.

 I am so completely thankful for everything ever. 

I got a commission a few days ago from a customer of mine that's ordered from me a few times before. This time she drew something out and asked me to replicate them as charms! So I did.

They're like... weird cartoony psychedelic cats lol. I hope she likes them as much as I enjoyed making them! I added stuff after I took this but... yeah! haha

I also took up a diet of fruits, cheeses, lunch meat, and water. I love it! There are some things about myself that I'm not happy with and until the sun fucks off so I can go running without feeling like I'm going to be mugged at sun down, I'm gonna stick to this.

The other day I finally put on my stupid saggy hat thing and for once I liked how it looked with what I was wearing. I hate that fucking hat. 

I also don't normally wear red. Or red lipstick. or lipstick period. Okay, just kidding sometimes I do. but it'd always be like... either really dark purple, kinda dark purple, or purple. Or like... I'll slightly tint my lips to look like tiny little doll lips. Never BOOM. red. I liked it. Ew... it's because I'm getting older..... 

Oh, and the purple I have in my bangs... it's not an actual pigment on it's own. I mix stuff to get that color. 

Mystic Heather + Aquamarine = Cynth's favorite purple hair color

CUTE RIGHT??

They smell soooo good!

I got them all at a massive discounted rate because I had a lot of points saved up with hhcandy. So WHAM. Mine! 

If Bath and Body Works comes out with new scents for their little hand sanitizers for Halloween, I might them. I have all of them from last year still :3

If it's not clear... I like to smell good. haha

I also finished BioShock 2. The ending was a little expected, but still really cool. I haven't started New Vegas yet because of damn pet battling in WoW, but it's on the to-do list.

Also, I've been asked to do a collab on YouTube discussing some pretty exciting topics within the gaming community. Really excited about that. I can't wait.

me·thu·se·lah

noun

An extremely old man.