Impact

  My friend Jason wins the random award. 

Didn't even know there was a random award, but there is. He texts me last week:

I can't say no to him and I feel he knows this and is abusing it.
Evil, evil man.

So, I couldn't say no, and got dressed to head out there. It was far, lol.
I don't really have anything princessy whatsoever. but he said to go w/ one of my dresses and to just be myself. So I wore this long flow-y dress and used a shaw to make a hood. Lots of princesses wear hoods, right? Sure. Hello, Jasmine?

When I got there, it turned out to be this huge mansion the production was renting out. I thought it was gonna be this dumpy little thing or a music video but... yeah. it wasn't, lol. waivers, etc. Was cool though, they had cake. :D
Eventually though, wardrobe and make up departments opted for me to wear something entirely different. I changed into this blue ball gown, let my locks down but tied back so they weren't as noticeable, and had my make-up redone entirely. Once I was done w/ my dress, they sent me over to make up where I was pleasantly surprised to see Jason's lady makin everyone pretty!
Jason's got dat azn fever too.

 She wouldn't stay still. lol

My eyebrows and lips and face was done entirely.

She used all kinds of layers that I never bother with, and it made my face look glazed over and flawless... it was weird. lol but it looked cool. I have to wonder how many girls use that many layers of make up on their face.

 She apparently also does freelance, which I never knew

 When she was done we went back downstairs to the waiting area to find all the other extras and Jason sitting in a corner. I call him to get his attention and he gives me a derpy grin lol

 Geoff was also there, thank goodness. Now I had someone to make ugly faces

 Jason's lady came down later to work on a beard weft. Apparently she does all that shit too! Makes wigs and wefts and hair thingies and whatnots.

 Suddenly the beard ended up becoming chest hair, and pit hair, and butt hair, and all the hairs. and this was Geoff:

 crotch beard.

I was there for like 5 hours. It was fun. Lots of waiting around, and eating cake. I'm thankful that Jason invited me :) 

Once they wrapped our part the extras went back upstairs to change, but we were stuck up there until they wrapped the next scene they were shooting. 

I guess my rogue princess attire didn't make the cut, but I got some compliments on my outfit anyway! Yay!

When I got home I had a glamor shoot in my bedroom.

But Cynthia, what's this being filmed for?
Well, readers. LET ME TELL YOU.

no, here just watch this:

   

Hercules and Drusilla are gonna be in it.

Jason wrote all the songs!

Soooo, yeah. It was cool. Fun times :D cake was good.

I wish I could express my feels with some of the things going on in my life, but I won't, at least not for now. What I can tell is that my coworker brought me a bouquet of flowers one night because I was having a bad day. She saw me come in for my shift earlier, and everything was a wreck, and I just died inside because of how much was on my shoulders, coupled with other things. I almost cried when she handed these to me. After work I brought them over to Fett's place and left them there as there was no room at my place. They survived 3 days! haha, but they were very lovely. Thank you, Judy. You made my day so much better :)

 Also, it had been like years since I had hamburger helper, and I got the enchilada one, and prepared it. but on the box it said I could add a twist and add some black beans to it, and I was like omg that sounds so awesome. but... I didn't have any black beans in my cupboard.
FORTUNATELY, I did have some pinto beans, and added those instead.

it was the greatest thing in the world.
now I'm gonna make it a thing to try all of the hamburger helper thingies. I had forgotten how delicious they were.
yeah, it was that big of a deal.

And... 

Fett took us on a surprise date the other night.

I've been feeling really stressed, and sad. One evening that we were talking on the phone I had zero desire to talk about anything (i know that's normal for me, but it was extra meh).

Was just really bleh and depressed. 

I decided to go to bed early, but couldn't get to sleep. Then later Fett messaged me with something important, and then added as we were saying goodbye that we had reservations at a restaurant the next day at 8pm and to be at his place no later than 7.

I got cute for him and headed over. 

He took us back to the Little Door in Beverly Hills.

 We drink water at upscale restaurants.

Ugh, what did I do to deserve this man.
I would've been happy with waking up next to him, but he went above and beyond... again.

This place is absolutely beautiful. They had lovely exotic music playing and the atmosphere is just... really nice. It's dark, feels like you're outside somewhere far away...

While we were ordering, he ordered the cheese plate without my realizing it. When they brought it out I looked at him like YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH, DON'T YOU?!
It was hxc cheese guys.
There were two different kinds of blue cheese, gouda, brie with apples dressed in vinegar, and there was one more kind of cheese that I couldn't figure out. they were all super hxc real, raw cheese. it was intense, lol. I've never tasted such intense cheese in my life! hahaha
The blue cheese wasn't fucking around. Thankfully the plate came with walnut bread to reset your palate. Kinda the way ginger works with sushi. Everything paired really well, amazingly.
And he also ordered the octopus appetizer for us.

ugh he's so amazing. wish I could hug him right now, but he's gotta work on homework tonight and be up for work in the morning.

Thank you for all that you do, darleeng! 

On Tuesday, Pamela and I went out for lunch to catch up and stuff. I told her that I would take her to Little Tokyo one of these days for her to try Mr. Ramen. She loves ramen now, and I'm excited to show her everything down there!

 Every time I go to Jinya I always get the same thing, lol. Mr. Ramen is the only place where I feel I can experiment and never go wrong.

 Following lunch we went upstairs to Michael's and picked up some thingies. She's gonna learn to knit chainmail, and I have been meaning to pick up some dye for my Leech woman dress. I also got another candle because... you know. I'm only down to two left with this new one I bought =\

 AND I found this guy on ebay for super cheap because one of his hooks were broken. It was a fucking steal. He's rare, and discontinued, and not to mention the object of my desire. So.
^_^ now he and Spike hang out together on my dresser.
Love ya, boo.

AND FINALLY

this.

Like I can't describe how floored I was when this came into my life

I was at work, and one of our regulars messaged me saying that he had something he wanted me to have that's been collecting dust on his shelf. He was aware that my last day at work is Saturday, so he wanted to stop in and drop it off for me.

I was in the backroom doing an inventory count when someone cames back to get me telling me that Ryan was there. I go out to greet him and he holds this up

I squeak SO LOUD and lose my shit in a burst of giggles that I go back into the back room to compose myself and come back out again in disbelief, lol

He's standing there laughing and hands it to me. It's a laser disc set, and also the script with illustrations of the characters. I don't have a player, but it's definitely getting framed. I couldn't believe it. He said he noticed my posts lately about Hellraiser and wanted to give this collector's set a new home, so... tadaa! lol. 

You know in spite of the negative stuff I've been dealing with, a lot of good has also come of it because of other peoples' kindness and generosity, and compassion. So for that I am extremely grateful, and thankful. It makes me feel like my presence there meant something, that I had a bit of an impact on somebody. And I need to remember that more often.

I know that I am a pretty cynical person in general, but I also genuinely enjoy having a positive impact on people, and when they go out of their way for me displaying this, it brings me joy. So...

Thank you, guys. Truly. 

And... on a last note

Judy and another co-worker are treating me to Hooters on Sunday as a goodbye thing. 

Those tater tots are gonna taste awesome with a side of shit talking.