Objection

  There's this song that I can't stop listening to. I went looking on youtube for an hour version of it, and found (1 Hour Version) streets by doja cat but it's playing in another room + it's raining.

Hilarious and amazing.

Man. Weird stuff going on. Not just capitol stuff but recently, my past came back to say hi. Kind of. It's cool. And somewhat relevant? It's fine, I'll make it relevant. Watch.

I'm thinking maybe the idea of another year ending/passing gave some courage to reach out, idk. But I caught up with someone I hadn't spoken to since like 2013ish. Not for any reason in particular, there was never any animosity. I feel like it was mostly my fault. I blame life getting in the way, but if I'm really honest with myself, I was just trying to go go go and get out of my head.
So much has changed, and it's cool to see how things worked out. Hey Cam, thanks for reaching out! (and for Hades, it's so good holy shit)

That was the first person. The second person jokingly jabbed that we only talk once about every 3 years. I last saw him like 4 years ago I think, when I visited family in Pennsylvania.
High school lesson with that one. He's one of my favorite tales to tell, despite the fall out we had. He wasn't an ex or anything like that, but one of those people who leaves an impression because of how they presented.
This guy used to be a self-proclaimed skinhead when he was a teenager. I first saw him at the mall- he was this decked out traditional punk dude in a group of others like him, I was like holy shit. I didn't know what skinheads were then. I just knew punk when I saw it.
Later ran into him at punk shows.
The hilarious thing was that he still hung out and associated with me. It went against what he supposedly believed in, but it just fed my ego. I learned about American History X because of him. It was one of his favorite films, but I never understood why because the film condemns his supposed lifestyle (at the time).
He recently confessed that he didn't pursue me back then because my family and culture intimidated him. I just laughed, telling him in return that the juxtaposition of our bizarre friendship only inflated my ego. He said he was a jerk, and I can tell he feels bad about how high school stuff went down. I wasn't looking for any sort of concession from him, but when he said that- I surprisingly didn't care. He was, but he helped build my confidence. Weird, I don't know.

This is important to me in particular because... I think it's how my reasoning with prejudiced/racist people started to mold. If a person like that can be charmed so easily, then prejudice is weak (or at least pathetically malleable). I found it more laughable than insulting. Which ultimately made me look at racist or prejudiced people like clowns. I cannot, for the life of me, take them with any ounce of gravity. Like, I just can't. It's like I don't even look at them as legitimate specimens of evolution. They're a penumbra of invalidation on modern societal advancement. Racists, of all kinds, are a negative notch of evolution whose ire I find to be the most subordinate brand of conviction. lol they're clowns.

Is he lesser? No. He grew out of it long ago, and it's a sore topic for reminiscing. But my ego ruthlessly smiles at the memory. I don't hold it over him- at this point I don't think it's about him at all. Simply an egotistical tick that I'll forever hold with me. Like armor.

When Chicken told me what was happening at the capitol, I rolled my eyes. Ultimately, they achieved nothing. Trashing buildings, looting, and posing for pictures are hardly markers of victory. Nothing short of a droll temper tantrum that was poorly mitigated- doesn't help that many probably had concealed carry permits. I think everyone knows it was a looming threat and possibility if things went South.

*ba dum bum tszz*

:D

Sorry.

I find more issue with security than anything else. Then again, if we look at who's ultimately in charge, it's also not that surprising that reinforcements weren't sent out before hand in preparation. The only ambiguity, I felt, were the objections. Every time someone got up to object, it just felt like Treebeard and his council all over again

I object to objecting the objection.

ugh. lol

Well, here we are. WITH PHOTOS

On another corner of the internet, Sense ACPGS has launched on the Switch!

The forums are littered with drivel. Much of it positive and in support of the game and devs, but drivel nonetheless. The forums are now a showboating exhibition as opposed to a place where players can go for resources on the game lol.
It's great to support but unless they're buying the game, overwhelming the forums with the "fuck them i support you" messages is useless. Buying the game, playing it and leaving a review is leagues more practical. I appreciate the posts questioning the art style more than the "i support you" posts. At least they stimulate discourse.

woo she got lots of opinions tuhday!

OH. I saw someone say "if you think xyz, your opinion is wrong" and like, I got sad. Because theoretically, that is incorrect. I know she was mad and thought she was defending a cause or something- whatever, but like... fallacies aren't good! haha They do one zero favors in dialog. It's actually worse. They make you look stupid lol

I started watching Nurse Ratched on Netflix yesterday. I wanna argue with her lol. I think I could take her. I read One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest in high school, and later watched the film. It's a great film because Nurse Ratched is a villain that's rarely well executed. Her build is 100% psyche and mental. And I could take her lmao.
The show kind makes her character sloppy in ways, I don't think she would've blackmailed people as overtly as the show depicted. ANYWAY.

Here are photos of Chicken being dogpiled the last weekend of winter break

We had just finished watching Soul (we except for Chicken. He wanted to go to sleep - unbeknownst to me) and they missed him terribly. So I said lets go jump on him!

We kept him up until like 4, I felt so bad. It was a Saturday and I hadn't realized that he wanted to get his sleeping schedule back to normal :(

Lifa noticed the taxidermy bats hanging from the ceiling and

Homdray started shouting about something

This is what it looks like when he goes on one of his reddit tangents that no one agrees with ever

Except for when it comes to [REDACTED]

"yo... can I hold your lightsaber?"

His wonderment was endearing. Everything in the room was like a toy he had to touch

New year, new... I don't know. I tried to be kpop because I have this korean lip tint that isn't THE RED IT ADVERTISED IT AS. It's like red but orange. It's fineseyo.

Was listening to Xymox and thought I was hilarious

The day I did my Orpheus make up, when I walked out of the bathroom, Chicken just looked at me and smiled, "you look cute." I still think about that. I thought he'd be put off, but he never is. It means more coming from my partner who isn't goth.

ok LOOK AT THIS

Tonight, we will experience and embrace pain with our gluttony. 40 wings. 10 wings each (well, except for Homdray, he wants shrimp). But we're gonna do it. My masochism only heightens excitement.

Annnnnd, since I've been getting kinda antsy, I started making these for a thing I'm gonna try.

Bat, Opossum, and Hyena!
There's more, but I have to get materials.
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do with them. I tried to see how fast I could get these done, but I need to improve on pace, no doubt.

It's nice to have other stuff to do besides gaming. There's only so much System Shock 2 I can take in before my brain melts from so much backtracking. I don't know if that's how the game was designed, but I went into it with a big ass disability in that I am directionally challeneged lol. Tunnels and several floors and shit like that.... add an extra 50 hours to my playtime easy just trying to navigate stuff- with a map haha. It's really good tho. I love it. It's easy to see how this game pioneered a lot for the First-person RPG genre.

Even Fallout seems to have taken inspiration.

This area I felt familiar even though this was my first playthrough. That's because...

Both in Fallout 3 and Fallout 4, the vaults had the exact same layout! That's insanely cool. Whether or not that was deliberate is unknown to me, but if it was I'm sad that I missed out on realizing this back then. Better late than never!

I'm not using any mods to play System Shock 2. So it looks aged, but it's so good that the graphics don't really make any difference. If it's good, it's good. Speaks for itself, you know?

The only thing that's weird is the comparison people put on Bioshock to System Shock 2. I don't see the parallels at all. I played all the Bioshock games. Maybe the radio storytelling and quest derivatives...the psychic abilities I guess? but beyond that the similarities are lost to me. But! If I had to choose which one was more enjoyable and engaging, I'd vote System Shock 2 without hesitation.

But if you like System Shock 2, I will throw this title out. It's basically System Shock 2 without the sci-fi factor.

Penumbra: Black Plague by Frictional Games - the people who did the Amnesia games (which were just okay- Penumbra series predates Amnesia series and is much better imo)
Underground research facility trope, experiments, unknown pathogen plaguing and mutating staff, survivors left tapes and clues to find them, mysteries, riddles and puzzles to piece together, backtracking, weird life forms etc. It's good.

This youtube video has been restarted 3 times now.

PENUMBRA PENUMBRA PENUMBRA. I tried to be smooth about it, but don't think that came across lol.


SIGH The first week of 2021 feels like a 2020 DLC

"NWBZPWNR"

I'll miss you buddy. You left us with your memory and message that cosplay is monumentally more than simply dressing up. Having met you the way we did will forever be a hilarious, fond memory we shared that I'll never tire of retelling. You will be so sorely missed. Thank you for making us laugh.
  Rest well, in peace.

RIP Jarod Lee Nandin