Knee deep

 Do you ever wanna do such a good job at... your job? that you inadvertently injure yourself? Well, hello there, and if you answered yes, please accept my highest, short-person high-five in solidarity. For I, like you, did exactly that; thus this really stupid opening lol.

I am currently on day 2 of recovery from work, because.... long distance skip-sprinting back and forth, up and down a slop, avoiding headstones, while carrying a standing spray flower arrangement, isn't good for your knees??

I like to think that I've gotten really good at setting up, but the slopes... that downhill slope put me in check real good. My left knee is MAD. I told my boss, she was like, doctor? And I was like... idk, rather not, because they're just gonna shove a cortisone shot into my joint and I'll cry and be out of work for like 2 weeks, soooooo.... options? I mean, if I ultimately have to go, I'll go. They're gonna take care of me no problem, I just.. I know what the doctor is gonna say because I've had tendonitis in my right rotator cuff from starbucks, and... it was a cortisone shot into my soul with 3 weeks of physical therapy and electro therapy. It sucked so much ass. And workman's comp was like a baby fraction of what i made.

My boss's hubby, who is also my boss, has a master's degree in exercise physiology lmao. She said I'll have him hit you up. He did, and gave me the low down. He's funny.
So here I am, low-ed way down. It sucks. I wanna get up and walk around without limping or having to think about.. not putting weight on my knee. I miss work.

SO YEAH, DON'T SPRINT DOWN A SLOP IF YOU'RE CARRYING HEAVY STUFF, WHILE SKIPPING OVER HEADSTONES, GUYS.
Why was I sprinting? Well, sometimes.... without going into too much detail, the info booth isn't helpful, and you have to hurry :)
And I had to skip because I can't step on the headstones!! becAUSE THEY'LL PULL YOUR TOES AT NIGHT. THAT'S WHAT THEY TOLD ME. Also, it's rude. But the toes part... I don't want anyone pulling my toes at night.

I do my best to have everything ready, but sometimes it's unrealistic and even impossible. My perfectionist outlook has me pushing myself to achieve GOOD and DEFERENTIAL... my knee said no. So... moving forward I gotta just... work realistically without overexerting, and just get it done.
My bosses said when I come back to just stay in the office and take care of things in there. I'll be out of commission on everything else, sadly. But they're adjusting, and that's something I'm extremely grateful for.
SIGH.

i hate this lol.

It's all good though. I had a scallion pancake ^_^. Getting in a lot of game time. And this week I can register for fall classes.

I don't have any personal photos to upload. So I'm gonna sprinkle random game screenshots in here.

Imagine me, sprinting around that back corner while heading this way, holding like 18 of her dolls.
And face planting right in that darker ground area.
no reason, just for fun.

Little Nightmares II was so good. I wanna go back and replay it, but at the same time don't want to, because I've already experienced it? Is that weird? Gotta forget it before I replay it. It's dumb. To assume that I'm not a completionist... is correct. 

What else?
The other night, after a long, in-depth convo about stuff, Chicken says I have this way of... being someone who.. people, who are usually closed off, can open up to very easily. That was such a busted sentence, LOL. I said "like a can opener?" "yeah"

I'm forgetting what brought it on, I think just him opening up about [REDACTED]. I was asking him how he felt after speaking with [REDACTED] about [REDACTED] and encouraging him. Telling him how glad I was he shared stuff with me. And I think that's when he said so.

It's funny, lotta peeps have expressed that to me. And still, I'm unsure of how to respond? Do I say thanks? Idk lol. Like, I'm glad folks see that? in me? That's good! For them! That's a good feeling, to unload stuff and have someone listen. I like to ask questions, too. To get them to prod at themselves a little bit? Yknow? It's cathartic when I rip my own brain open and dig in there. Introspection can't do more damage, I figure. Also, solutions are sexy. I love solutions.
As Shakespeare once wrote, Had I it written, I would eat the word. (He didn't, he said "tear", but I'd eat it.) Derailed a bit.
Anyway, yeah. If I can be a vessel of siphoning yucky stuff out of your brain, or if I have been at one point or another, it was my pleasure. One is glad to be of service ^_^


My friend Jursurrrrnnn texts me the most random shit lol. I told him I resubbed to FF XIV to hear him sing. I'm a bad friend. For the longest time, I had no clue he was doing anything with Square again. Chicken and Lifa were the ones who told me and I was like... oh shit my bad looolol. HE SOUNDS GOOD THO. I'm so used to him doing his country rock stuff, when someone mentions him in something else it trips me out. Which brings me to say... I'm playing FF XIV again lol. For now.
We'll see how long that lasts.
I just... I miss playing MMOs and falling in love with those worlds. I long for the unfamiliar, and new experiences. As much as it sucks to say, I don't get that with WoW anymore. It's been... years, frankly. I think the first time I started to disassociate was in Cataclysm. Everything was handed to me on a silver platter and ... it was like falling out of love? That was when I quit, and ever since, every time I come back, it's just... I can't.
Getting to relearn everything in XIV so far has been refreshing, but also annoying because the dialog is endless. I'll get over it.

But there are other games in my steam cart. Am I gonna complain? I might.
Not to mention Homdrey keeps nagging me about Fallout 2. I told him I'm too stupid to finish it, he just shouts back saying to play it anyway. IT'S A TACTICS GAME. I'M STUPID, THEY DON'T GO TOGETHER. Actually, that's a lie. I am stupid with some stuff, but I think I'm more impatient to learn the gameplay than anything else. I started it and like, did some stuff, and was over it because I couldn't move my guy where I wanted to LOL.

Also I have Fallout Tactics. I should just play it. Lemme boot it up right now and see how mad I get, one sec...

Chicken saw on Steam that I started up tactics and laughed wow

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Alright. That actually took longer than I anticipated. Mostly because I enjoyed playing Fallout 2 lol. But just as expected, tactics had me tinkering longer than I wanted.

I do, however, like that tactics has flexible resolutions, whereas Fallout 2 is perma baby.

I could manually adjust it, but... dont want to? Once I got it, I did start having fun and wanted to keep going lol. BUT IT WAS FOR SCIENCE, so for now.... it'll wait.

We got up to get dinner earlier, and I was like yeah! Maybe I can walk norm- ow fuck just kidding. My boss called a little earlier to check in. She's so chill with me, I really appreciate how direct she is. But like, chill. I like making her laugh, it's like... a tiny victory every time hahaha aahhhhh I'm dumb.

I love laughter. Wish I could make my knee laugh. Maybe it'd stop being a lil bitc-WELL LOOKS LIKE IT'S TIME TO BROWSE STEAM SOME MORE. This has been... a shit dump of.. the doings of an injured knee thing. Enjoy.

I want ice cream and more pickled daikon. Why can't I stop typing. What was this post?!? holy moly.

Here, my two husbands from Fallout 4 I'm sorry

yeah.

lol bye