Vicarious

DAY OFF AW YEAH

I was almost gonna not write anything, but then I was like... WOO so I am.

A lot of people keep talking about Halloween. Or rather the weekend before it. I've been invited to do a few things, two of which sound incredibly fun but still hold rather large inconveniences.
The first one is my friend Kristof's Dawn of Ashes show. I believe it's on the 26th. And Marshall is gonna be there to sing with Kristof on I think one of their songs. I think it's out in the middle of nowhere also, but it's doable. The thing that makes it incredibly inconvenient is the fact that the DJ is going to be playing Dubstep. I can't even

Then there's my guild wars 2 friends' visit to San Diego that weekend. Which is looking more and more probable. I haven't responded to them yet, but it's looking like that's gonna be more fun. I'm not sure what she's planning, but she's a little ball of energy so I'm sure... whatever happens.. it'll be fun.

I was thinking of taking my co-workers out to a club that weekend also but the likelihood, not to mention realistic chances, are slim. A goth club. Jake seemed to enjoy it, so maybe...? but I have zero faith or trust in one of them, haha. They're fun to be around, but aside from that I don't care.

 Bahemoth is having some big Halloween thing at his place.  =\
Halloween costumes to me are like burning money. Maybe that's because I don't find value in the social aspects that Halloween has people participating in for one night of the year.
And then next year it's like ugh, I went as that LAST YEAR. Time to blow money on another costume! - it's... retarded. The herd mentality thing, not his event. XD And then what happens to your last costume? You throw it out? THAT'S JUST A BRILLIANT FUCKING IDEA fuck that. My poor mom.
Maybe if I made more money?
Nah.
I'd still get a stupid costume no one would recognize off the bat and would get stuck in conversations with strangers about their costume, because they'd ask me about mine, so I'd have to ask back because it's polite, but I just wouldn't care. Unless we start talking about like video games and shit. Or the Underdark. But that's unlikely.
That reminds of me that night I went out with Sergio to meet Elena and her contact, Eric at the pool hall that traumatized me. That was RARE. Eric played WC3 ladders back in Texas, so we talked about that for a while that night. But like... no one cares about WC3 anymore :(

That looks incriminating.

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Work has been different. It's all I do anymore. That and sleep, and squeeze in a few hours of Guild Wars 2 before Rot walks in to go to bed. Then go to sleep again.
We have a bunch of new people. New management too. I like the new Assistant mngr. I told him yesterday after I left work that he seemed level headed, and I was glad he was there because we needed it so bad. He seems to like me too. I was really quiet around him, but he was like OH HULLO WHERE YA FROMS I LIKE MOVIES, which was weird, because he seemed quiet too. But he's silly. I like working with him lots. And then there's the other quiet guy, M. He's reaaallly quiet, but he caught on very quickly. That tells me he's perceptive. Or at least not an idiot. I get him to laugh quite a bit. I'm not sure if it's because he feels uncomfortable sometimes, or if it's because he genuinely thinks I'm funny. But he seems to enjoy himself around me. This makes work less sucky :)
yup.
but.
I think about leaving all the time. To another store. L, the new ASM is giving me hope and wanting to stick it out longer. Also, I know the mngr wants to move up into another sector of the company, so there's also that.  And finally, my commute is literally 5 minutes. If I transfer to the other store it'd be like.. 15. That's less time to fuck around in my bathroom on my phone before getting ready. I'm not prepared to give that up.
Oh, that and getting tendonitis in my shoulder from working there, and the pain that still occurs because of it.

I don't know. I'm weighing the pros and cons before making any rash decisions.

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I hope Devon and I can go to Little Tokyo Friday. I don't see why we can't. But I don't wanna assume. It was mentioned to Dnd but its up to him if he wants to come with. Little Tokyo has become therapeutic for me. An evening to get away from my shitty loud neighbors and Rotny's random loud, abrupt door opening to come in to use the bathroom. I swear it feels like he sneaks up to the door so I don't hear him coming, and then opens the door as abruptly as possible. He never takes me seriously when I tell him this.


Speaking of which... Rot met someone at work whooooooo... long story short.. there's a possibility of maybe dancing for or being part of a fetish club's stuff. A few years ago one of Rot's DJ contacts approached him about me at a club we were at. He said he liked how I looked and asked if I would wanna participate in fetish modeling with his gf. I said yes, and it quickly elevated into attending an underground bdsm event where I met her manager, and eventually did a fetish performance with her at the launch of her domme's website. Rot wasn't very happy with that. We both thought it was going to be specifically modeling, buuuuut long story short, I owed them something. It was a long, crappy night.

I would've gone on with the modeling afterwards, but couldn't. However, now that he's brought it up to me about possibly doing something for this club, I may pursue it if things go well. He may end up DJing there also, we'll see. How cute!

Guild Wars 2... I'm soooo slow to level. It seems everyone else around me levels 4x faster than me. I JUST got to level 31. It's bad. I'll blame Gossip Girl. It's made me dumber. :P

I'd take more screenshots, but there's no first person view. My toon is in every shot that take and it feels less...  cool looking. She's being invasive!!! I'll try to take more though. :D