Neglect

 Show me show me show meeee how you do that trick

The one that makes me REEEE she said

The one that makes me HNNNG she said, 

Threw her claws into my neck

Show me how you do it

and I promise you, I promise you

were so preoccupied with whether or not they could, that they didn't stop to think if they should.

Jurassic Park movies are literally people being greedy and not listening.

HAPPY FRIDAY

This... isn't incriminating, right?

My bff got me that weiner for xmas one year as a gag with another gift. This is its decent into acclimation on new soil.

I want more beef noodle soup T_T

One of the cool things about living here is that it's a house full of gamer fucks who indulge in food and drink. Like, I'll only drink at home, but Lifa brings his A-game every time. He used to bartend in Hawaii, but has this crazy appreciation for mastery of flavor, aesthetic and strength of RIP. We're spoiled rotten. When we had our Halloween party, I can't tell you how crazy his stuff was, on top of being delicious.

He looks like a boss that Shang Tsun can't even handle

Later that day, we had to go see Jeff Goldblum

Watching him drive a manual car is attractive for some reason. I still haven't figured out exactly why that is.... But have this theory where I think it's because it exudes a dominance in taking command of a car, as opposed to idly steering it? It wasn't something that stood out to me before, because the only person I knew to drive a manual car was my friend Haley from high school. We had the same car, hers was manual. She tried teaching me how to drive stick; semi-successful. If it was life or death, I'd recall everything she taught me and eventually make it. But idk how I'd fare in a relaxed, controlled environment where my nerves could easily get the better of me. That said, I wanna fully learn to drive manually.

It's hilarious how Chicken will look at nice cars and can tell if they're manual or automatic. It brings out the snob in him, which I find adorable considering he's generally an all around warm, sweet and empathic person. He took this test thing that matches your personality to a fictional character, by percentages. His top match was Carlisle Cullen lmao. To which I say... yes. Very much so. Warm, caring, empath, watchful, paternal.

Except when a nice car is an automatic LOL
Or when he spots a manual boot on an automatic shifter. LAWD I cri

But I mean... if I can get boob implants, wear fake nails, lashes, make up, weave... ALL OF THE ABOVE, I mean... this is kinda like the same thing. It's like car make up, in a way. Like a push up bra, but for the gear shift. It's an automatic, but it wants to look like a manual. Smol lashes wanna look more flashy. There you go lol. Right? Sort of? No? It's not. Not at all, but the ego is there lol.


On our way out, Lifa wasn't far behind.

looolls

DRIVE-IN!

Chicken took us to a drive-in viewing of Jurassic Park ^_^
It was perfect and cute because we were still in our bubble, but out. No one would talk to us or come  near us!


THEY HAD THE TRUCKS OUT

The ones that always hang out at conventions, but it felt really good to see them again after so long lol. And just awesome in general that the Spectrum went that little extra mile, for immersion. S'cyoo.

🖤

He's getting black, leather driving gloves, and I'm going to faint

We got there at sunset and it looked so beautiful omg

squish ^-^

And then I started crying because a REAL LIVE DINOSAUR SHOWED UP.

MY IMMERSION

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sick

It looks small, but we could see fine. Everything just looked amazing at night.
On top of that, we got a $20 voucher to use at the spectrum, but lol we weren't leaving the car. No m'am.

Ah, so cool. 

I need to get rid of this purple shit in my hair. I'm over it.

This month is my birthday. HOY BOY. 

DEATH DRAWS EVER CLOSER

MY COMPUTER STUFF ARRIVED. Nothing crazy, like I said. But just bumped up enough to be like, okay. Frankly anything else was better than I was had tho.

The most important were the cpu, motherboard, and ram. I could upgrade other stuff, but I don't need to.
One thing that I don't like about parts right now is that they're littered with logos. STAHP.

It's so cringe, I was ready to sharpie it out, but my gpu is covering it. Like, why? Why are you loud? No. Shut up.
I don't like logos in general. On anything. It was an important detail when searching for parts. Will they stick out a lot through my case? If they do, I don't want them. Fuck off. It's not about their obnoxious marketing, it's about my machine and how cute she is- that's it.

I overthink a lot.

My bads.
Um, Chicken jumped in and did all the cable management, because if it were up to me, I .... wouldn't have cared that much. And he probably would've had an asthma attack.

He doesn't have asthma, tho

Result;
Pretty!

Matches my controller, and keyboard, and room lights, and and and

Nioh plays better now lol

Ah, yes. The candle.

HEY. Do you ever feel like weird energies are around you? Or maybe you, like myself, had 3 separate awful as fuck nightmares in one night where 3 separate spirits attached themselves to you in the dreams? Well, have I got the solution for you!
My mom says that when you feel like something is lingering, you can help their navigation by lighting a white candle and placing it in a dish of water. You then, in-fucking-directly, say that whatever is hanging out may pass through as they need. DO NOT ADDRESS IT DIRECTLY. Just be like, "i light this so that those who cannot pass, may." And that's it. Leave that shit alone. Light it the next morning, all day, and put it out at night. Light it as much as you feel appropriate. Everytime you light it, say why.
This doesn't force anything, or cleanse, or banish or whatever. This is meant as a guiding, positive energy for any negative or idle energies that can't diffuse. You put your intention into it, your own positive energy, as if to aid. But the thing my mom says also is that addressing directly is a no no. Attachment isn't cool. Even if it's not a bad energy. Just help that shit through and leave it. No snuggles. No banishment. Just ... yeah.


SO YEAH. :D


MOVING ALONG :)
Halloween is almost tomorrow in like 2 months, kind of. So I had to go to Michael's.

These are really, really, really cute. I wanted them all. But also overpriced. Eventually. For now, I shall keep them for my records. To reference. For reasons. Maybe.

While there, I spotted the Halloween Town section. There wasn't much out yet, but there were some miniatures I hadn't gotten before. And... while my Halloween Town stuff is in storage, that only meant that I had to get more. For reasons.

Very important.

MY BABIES. Now they're even cuter.

SO. What happened with Baby Sarlacc? Lols... we'll get to that

Chicken made us yummy dinner, so I rewarded him by polishing his toenails.

It's not great, but y'know. It's there now.

So here's the little house area that Chicken set up for the babies. The only one that was growing out of the herbs was the basil. I thought I had killed everything else. But then one morning, Chicken was like... did you look at the cilantro? And I was like, nani?

CILANTRO FETUS

That was earlier this week. Now, it hauled ass out of the dirt. And another basil baby came out, too!!

The mint and chili peppers have yet to sprout... but... I mean this took 4 years, so maybe?

My succulents are... not totally dead.
Miss Glow (echeveria afterglow), left, is ... confusing. She's growing for sure, but some of her leaves got all kinds of messed up. Not just dry, but like... they had stuff under them. So those had to be removed. But I'm learning, slowly. Less watering. Waiting for the soil to dry out completely before watering again. And the little area with the shade has been awesome for all of them. Especially my Purple Heart (tradescantia pallida) baby, LOOK AT HER. She's getting biiiiiig. She's definitely the healthiest, happiest one. I figured that one out much faster, but I think it was because she'd been dried out for like... over a year lol. So all the watering has actually been helpful for her, instead of like... fatal. Which brings us to Baby Sarlacc (haworthia venosa) who is currently in his very own ICU.

My baby boy is still alive!! I took a vow to not give up and let these babies die lol. So. Yah. 

Um... he's recovering from root rot. In the last post, I showed his roots... they were all destroyed basically, and I had to remove everything that looked unhealthy. Which... was... everything. Sadly. The good news was that it hadn't spread into the stem and leaves. 

After ripping his legs off, I had to let the stem callous over. He looked sad and stressed, so I sprayed a little bit of water into his soil. That was a huge mistake, as the next day, the stem that was callousing over had begun to get root rot again. Fucking... fuck. So, I had to snip that off, and literally neglect him. This was days ago, like Tuesday, Wednesday I think. So... basically, after more research, I have to leave him alone forever, until his roots grow in. Which I thought was weird because I thought I killed him, but this morning.... His little nubs on the stem are growing back in!!!! The stem calloused over, and there are a bunch of little white nubs growing out of the stem and and and... He's recovering. 

Big lesson learned here.... for haworthia venosas at least...

Do not use rocks at the bottom of your pot, it can clog the holes

Water ONCE a week in a well draining soil

No direct sunlight, but put in bright indirect light

Fucking leave it alone, it loves neglect

If you notice the leaves browning, check the roots. They don't like a lot of water, so it's unlikely that it's thirsty. Repot it in dry soil if the roots are sad. If root rot, but it hasn't reached the stem or leaves yet, remove all the rotten bits, and leave the plant out to dry for a few days. Leave it alone. Fucking just... don't even look at it. It'll be sad, but leave it alone. Wait for it to sprout roots.

\Neglect, neglect, neglect. That's the word of the week. IF YOU LOVE THEM, NEGLECT YOUR HAWORTHIAS.

Alright. Point across.

 

Green onions boutta get soiled

My lil babies.
I'm worried about my venus fly trap. It's not growing. But it's not dying either. Idk. I get anxious-ish when results aren't showing. But I guess, if it's not dying, that's a result too?

I'm totally understanding the addiction to plants and gardening now. I just want them to be happy and to grow up big and strong lol. I want MORE. Been researching more to get. And.. I will get them. And they'll all be in their cyoo little house that Chicken made them. And and and be all cyoo and stuff  ^_^

And eventually I wanna get an aquarium, with lots of plants and decor to match my plants. I'm gonna get more stuff to decorate my plants with. Mostly the stuff out of storage. My little halloween stuff. PUT IT EVERYWHERE. And when we get kitties and a puppy, I'll make them cyoo gravestone and coffin beds uwu. Last night, we were deliberating on materials for another shelf. Because 1 coffin shelf isn't enough. And this time, we can make one :D

HAPPY IT'S ALMOST HALLOWEEN TOMORROW IN 2 MONTHS KIND OF!

Positive reinforcement training is more effective than punishment training on dogs

Don't litter

Wear a mask 

^_^

Plant surgery :(

HAPPY FRIYAY! Moving game install files is just... the funnest. Funnester than fun. Fist full of fun right up merriment's whole jolly whipped ass.

It's my own fault for being a brat with craptacular storage management T_T

ANYWHO. Week has been exciting.

• Space cowboys came back from their mission in the Dragon Endeavor. 

Um, listening to the announcer from Space X was mind numbing though lol. Like, getting more comfortable with mandarin made me overthink how much filler there is in the English language. Space X announcer spoke like a teenager, reiterating with grueling redundancy. Chicken suggested that perhaps her useless contribution to the NASA announcer could benefit those who have blindness or a degree of blindness. Who are kids.
The other announcer not only was well spoken, but concise. They're both doing the same job but one is LEAGUES more polished than the other.

Why am I like this

The name of the camera on the main recovery ship was Chicken's favorite part.

"Best camera. 2B and 9S probably got lost somewhere" 

• Mmmmmm new computer parts!

It's been a looooooooooooooooong time since I've upgraded. It's bad. Like, I'm minimalist, so if it works, I'm happy. If it runs and I can play it, I'm good. Chicken on the other hand has unforgiving tastes in luxury and performance. He's been nudging me about upgrading for a while. So here we are. This is the first of it. Cute, not crazy but cute. I'm happy.

Went to pick this up in person since there a deal when you buy a cpu/mobo combo.

 

You know that feeling when you go to pick up your reserved order at Microcenter, and the sales dude walks towards you to help you, but turns and addresses your boyfriend and doesn't acknowledge you? 

 WELL, YOU'RE IN LUCK. BECAUSE I DO.

He walks towards  us, looks at Chicken and asks him what he was picking up. I hate using my stern big girl voice. I hate it so much. 

I answered him in my stern big girl voice. His face was instantly like oh my bad, but it still put me in that stern big girl voice head space until we left with my stuff.

Like yeah, dude concentration is higher than chick concentration within that hobby, but like, at least make an attempt to be like, "hey there, are we picking up a reservation?" Instead of going straight to the guy and only speaking to him, pretending I'm not there. Not only is that condescending to me as a chick, but also impolite as a general rule.

He was young, whatever. It was just one of those eye roll moments. I know he meant nothing by it, it was totally a status quo thing that people don't think about- which... lol the point. But yeah. And it's my choice to get butthurt about that, but what isn't within my control is how not enough chicks are into rigs, therefore... like, yeah the stereotype is there, but be mindful. Which sucks because he probably sees a trillion girlfriends or wives trotting behind their dudes like puppies in there every single day, and it just so happened that in this case it was a little reversed. It happens. It's fine. I'm just.

I'm rambling.

Social interactions hurt my brain.

The rest of my stuff is coming in the mail later.

CHICKEN CLEANED AND WAXED MY CAR. SHE'S SOOOO SLICK AND SHINYYYY

Those gloves. mmpf.
Annnnd and and and she matches my vinyl pants ^__^

"This is what I signed up for" he says, defeated by her enthusiasm.

 He got a whole bunch of car stuff recently. Gonna do take in all the learns. So I can scream the tokyo drift song as we tandem dorifto together down a mountain.
            
                               Welcome to the broken low
                                                     Welcome to the famous disco night


For now, my goofy self is playing with modding little things.
A little while back, I got this kit in the mail courtesy of my bff. I think it was on my amazon wishlist lol. He thought it was a controller. Best oops.

Anime tiddies (I washed this desk mat already. I know, she was all kinds of yuck. She's cute now.)

Um, this took me like 4 hours.
 But taking shit apart is so satisfying

Will I break it? WHO KNOWS.

UGH. After losing a piece, that was never lost to begin with, and all the meticulous bullshit, the end result was so worth it.

It pulses, strobes, changes colors, all of the above. It looks sick.
Only downside; no usb charge. Battery only. Still, neat little mod if you wanna rock this obnoxious level of vanity for your set up.

Now I can play Nioh even more obnoxiously.
Which, I'm really enjoying this time around, btw.

I started playing Nioh like 2 years ago on Chicken's PS4, but hated the controls. So a while back I got it on PC. Sigh. The port has the dumbest, most irritating gpu bug, but once adjusted, it runs fine.
Chicken's been playing Ghost of Tsushima. I thought it would appeal to me more. But uh. It doesn't anymore. Idk what it is, but just... totally lost interest the more I watched.
I fought one of the bosses he was stuck at; the input lag was, for lack of a better word, gross. Or maybe I'm spoiled. But man... there were a bunch of things I felt in the combat that weren't as polished as... I'm used to. Pass.

next gen controllers..
 I have small hands with long fingers. The xbox controller is more comfortable for me. Besides that, I couldn't care less about next gen anything. PC ports often suck, but we got do what we gotta do.

The other title I'm looking at is Ghostwire: Tokyo. It looks like a William Gibson version of BioShock, from the gameplay I've seen. Which ... is sexy. So.

And Nioh 2 comes out on PC soon. I wannit.

gjlhgdjfl;adjfljfoeijakl;dfjlskjds...

His sister brought us Taiwanese tamales :3
 There's a woman that makes them at home and sells them. My mom does the same thing with Peruvian tamales T___T so cyoo.

THEY'RE SO YUMMY

I miss my mom's tamales. Waaah.

Blueberry pancakes yield fun special effects!

Ah, my babies. My poor, dried up succulent babies. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING.

The echeveria afterglow (Ms. Glow, left) seems to be doing okay. I removed some of the dried and dying leaves at the bottom of her stem. That has helped a little.

But the haworthia venosa (Baby Sarlacc) has dried up quite a bit and his leaves have deflated, turning a sad brown color.

Baby sarlaccs are prone to root rot, so overwatering is a real concern.
BUT, I'm learning. Maybe I shouldn't have left them out in the sun right after repotting them lmao?
It's cool though. Chicken got this shade tarp thing specifically for plants, and yesterday was my succulents watering day, and I gave them pleeeeenty of water. Today they're much plumper.
So I was basically underwatering them. Which I guess in the grand scheme of things is the better fuck up between over or underwatering.

On the flip side, my once neglected tradescantia pallida (Purple Heart) is flourishing. I sing to her after I'm done talking to my succulents. She knows she's gonna be cute when she gets older.

Mask on b/c we were on our way out

 Succulent babies are now under filtered sunlight, which seems to have made them much happier.

I get it. I hate bright sunshine on me, I'd die too. It's okay babies. Sorry I almost killed you :(
Succulent food should be getting here soon so they have yummy water instead of just water. I WON'T LET THEM DIE. I REFUSE.

 She likes the sun. Her purple is coming in so beautifully. It's a good thing she's in a bigger pot now, so that she may grow big and strong.

 As for my herbs...
the only one that sprouted so far was the basil. One tiny little baby plant. The others... not so much. Or rather not at all. I probably killed them. Idk. The coriander seeds have split finally. We'll see if anything grows from them.

ARE YOU SO JEALOUS

OF THIS FRUMP CHIC AESTHETIC 

 

SO, UPDATE:

 earlier, I went outside to check up on the babies. Chicken was out there making them a little house T_T

It's so cute, I wanna see it in full sunlight and see how the plants take the sun under the shade it provides.

 so....
upon my investigation, I noticed that baby Sarlacc's soil was still really, really damp. And I watered it yesterday. And even though some of the leaves had plumped, it didn't look happy. I quickly looked up what to do if I suspected rootrot...
There were a lot of people saying to uproot it, discard the old soil, get rid of all the squishy dark roots (rotted), and let it dry out for a few days before repotting it. If the rootrot reached the stem, it'd probably be too late. But the leaves that were healthy could still be propagated.

Um. There was a lot of rootrot- some that went into the bottom leaves. The rocks I had placed at the bottom of the pot were blocking the drainage holes, instead of arching over the holes like I had intended them to do. What a stupid mistake. This poor plant. The roots were soft and mushy, a lot of them dead that just fell right off. The 3 offsets that were growing just broke right off, their outer bottom leaves almost all black.
 So.. all I am left with are the last healthy bits of leaves and some stem. From what I understand, succulents can regrow stems like nothing, and reset.
But... I'm really really sad. I'm trying everything to salvage what's left and regrow it after making sure to get all the black gunk off. They're sitting on new, fresh, dry succulent soil to air out, and hopefully the pups can callous and root. If not, I'll cry. I don't know if the mother plant will survive. I really really really really fucking hope it does. I don't think the rootrot go into the stem.... but I guess we'll find out. The roots were fucked though.

I ordered a mister that I wasn't sure I was gonna use anytime soon but... HERE WE ARE.

PLANTS ARE HARD. I feel awful. My poor baby.


YEAH. That's the start of my plant journey loools. Chicken's little baby house will help a lot I think.
Now it's just a waiting game.
Wait for the rest of my computer parts to arrive,
plant stuff
other stuff Chicken got for us ^_^
Aaaand we have a date this weekend! We're gonna go out somewhere... but.. it's different. :3


How did my hair get so long already? Didn't I just cut it?
 Yes! I did.
Also. I always keep the length I cut off, in case I wanna give myself my length again lol. I guess it's like.. hair extensions. Except it's literally just reattaching my own hair back into my hair? lol?
Kinda regretting it because its weight immediately reminded me of why I cut them to begin with, but... I feel like myself again. RIP my whole skull I guess.

HOKAY FAREWELL
WISH ME LUCK ON NOT KILLING MY PLANT BABIES.

Update your drivers
Wear a mask
 :D