Things!

   There are two things  in life that make Cynth bear an annoying squeak inducing grin.
*Computer things and *Azn shit, including food. And new games. That's 3 but technically that can be classified within the umbrella of computer things.

ALL OF THESE in the last few days, almost consistently, are like the foreplay to my birthday- which I'm anticipating on doing absolutely nothing for! :D
It's almost as if I haven't had a day off (to my standards) in several weeks. This is because to me a 'day off' is literally not leaving my house, and possibly my room, for the entire day. Or communicating with anyone. Just me and my misery, and my computer. And Netflix.
I'm not complaining though. Simply looking forward to sleeping in and doing nothing, at least for one of those days that I requested off. Ha ^-^


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Thursday -  Omghad, k so in order to get a better graphics card, it's just best to get a better power supply and some more RAM. Just to be safe. I wanted to see my options. I'm kinda on a budget, but kinda not at the same time. So since I sold my old comp to DnD guy, we agreed to take a trip to Fry's Electronics and pick up a bunch of stuff for his comp, and for mine as well. After work I went home and brought the computer over. He had already bought a desk and had yet to put it together, plus setting everything up once we got all his shit. WEE! (I love doing that stuff. It's so fun!)
So off we went. We roamed around aimlessly for a while and eventually decided on some stuff. He got a wireless router (mistake) and a 14ft cable, a power strip, some douchebag looking speakers that he got specifically just because I said they look like douchebag speakers, and some other shit I don't remember. I got 4Gs of RAM (mistake) and canned air for computer bath time. I checked out some of the graphics cards they had and found the one I wanted. Waaaahh. Rot suggested I get the Rosewell power supply off Newegg. I wanted to see what Fry's had and it all looked yucky. So I'm probably gonna just go with that one and wait to get the card later. Aww, I love Fry's. It's like walking around in a Toys R Us.
After wandering around forever from not knowing if we were done yet, we went to Chipotle and stuffed our faces. One does not just go to Chipotle and not stuff one's face. I've tried. A challenge I will never accept.

14 ft cable lololol

We returned to his place. He started putting the desk together and I set up the computer. Problem!
The computer wasn't detecting a connection at all. There wasn't even an icon at the bottom that would pop up.
We way later discovered the reason for this, but it took us basically all afternoon/evening to figure it out. It was dramatic. He was calling his friends, I was calling my roommate. Websites were browsed, I googled the fuck out of this, restarting shit constantly- nothing. No detection. No where. Didn't even feel the damn cable in it's ass.
Basically, drivers weren't installed. Before that we pretty much assumed everything else that could possibly happen and just kept failing at making it work. Hours and hours of failing. Also, once we figured it out, we decided it was a better idea to just have a long, ugly, network cable connecting from the living room router to his room instead of just relying on the wireless one he bought earlier. Fry's was closing in an hour so we just hauled ass back there and exchanged stuff for a 50ft. I had to drop him off. We didn't even have time to assemble his desk, I felt bad. But all in all it was a fun day. This is the type of shit I dive into head first with a huge smile on my face. It was like an episode on some TV show that doesn't exist. There was action (my defensive driving), drama (the missing drivers) the excitement (opening the BIOS to see if the LAN option was enabled), romance (what game to buy), and just everything ever. but like... with computer stuff. 


Friday - Team Cool does Little T! As per usual ;) This trip we thought that we would have some other people joining us, but as it were things didn't turn out that way. No biggie! I went to pick up Devon and we headed off to the metro station. We talked about WoW for a long time as I circled the lot trying to find parking. It was almost like reminiscing. It was nice talking about WoW again to someone other than Rotny in person. No luck with parking, so we went to the other metro station and circled there for about half an hour. Still nothing. It was eventually decided that we should just drive down there instead. Inside I was screaming, but I couldn't let Devon down. We're Team Cool. We do Little T on Fridays. I'LL GET THROUGH THIS BECAUSE WE TALKED ABOUT WOW AND IT WAS MEANINGFUL DAMNIT.

So I drove us there. Heart racing and more scared than a wet cat but I did it. I held in my nervous gasping squeaks just for her. I'm proud of myself. 

Eventually, we found a little public parking lot smack dab in the middle of everything. 6 dorrar!  

We nommed on Ramen ^-^ They have new menus! It seemingly made the whole place look brighter and more uplifting... but it was probably just our excitement over the fancy new menu layout.  

We then went to the grocery and got a bunch of nommy snackies. Ramunè is a must on every trip. I tried orange and plum this time. Orange was my favorite! They're so cheap, they're like a dollar and some change. Less than a cup of black coffee at Starbucks. :3

Yaoi things at the bookstore. ^_^ hee

 We had boba drinks this time! I've been wanting to try what they have at this shop next to our Ramen place and we finally did! YUMMYYY :DD

 

 She got the Thai iced tea and I got the mango slushie thing. I could drink that stuff forever. The bobaaaa I wub iiittt so fun and nommy!

We also went to this bakery that she really likes. We were so full from the Ramen and boba that we settled on one thing this time. Chocolate mousse. Now, I'm not the biggest fan of chocolate anything (defect, I think) but this shit was unreal. It's not even fair how good it was. Like wtf. HOW

I don't even know. It was... really good, basically.

 Next time, we're trying the green tea mousse :3

Blueberry chichi dango is mooshy and yum :3

We returned to the Sanrio shop that sold the Tokidoki unicorn mystery boxes but they didn't have them anymore! So we were on a mission to find them elsewhere, but had no luck :( So we got other mystery box things instead. She got this samuri kitty thing and I got this pink haired anime dude on a macaroon! Haha. We had to settle, but I guess... who doesn't? /shrug 

It's cute enough!

Squee

Sunday -  I worked and came home to eat, shower and sleep. But I get a text from DnD that there still something wrong with the computer and he thought it was either the RAM or the video card. He mentioned it the night before but said he'd try and fuck with it and see what it was. Oops I guess? So I went over there and he said it was making loud beeping noises earlier. Scared the shit out of me. Turns out the RAM wasn't in all the way. -_- He had taken them out and tried to do stuff with no luck because one of the sticks aren't being read for whatever reason. We couldn't figure that out either. I snapped them back in (little hands make for easier application!) but not before trying out the two other sticks I brought over just to see, but they didn't fit. Put the other original two back it and started it up. Yay! But one of the modules weren't being detected :( I'm not sure what to do at this point. It could be the computer (doubtful because it detected it before I wiped it) or it could be the module itself. I don't knooooww. He was excited to set up a bunch of stuff though. He even set up a twitter account! Haha.. he suggested I get LoTRO... eeeeeeeehhhhhh. Maybe. Rot's been wanting me to try it for months but eeeehhh... I dunno. I really want him to try LoL. I guess I'll try it if he tries LoL.

Also, I had extra copies of some games, so those were his. At some point I wanna test his skills at WC3. Test my skills, too! Oi. I will never understand why Rotny doesn't like WC3. It's nonsense to me. I cant

After payday, I think we're gonna make another trip to Fry's and maybe see if they have the same module builds that would go with his board. That and I wanna get an external harddrive. Other than that, we watched Battle Royale sort of because he's never seen it before. And then I split. Ate, made a new toon in GW2 and went to bed because I worked at 4am the next day. Phew!

Today I was sent home early from work. This gives me some quality me time ^-^ 

 

Boo.

Power

   Turns out I may also want a new power supply if I want a stronger graphics card. BABY GIRL IS GETTIN SPOILED.
Wish I got spoiled. jk. I totally spoil myself by spoiling my little girl.
Oh my ghad, so I read today that Rift is gonna have this totally weird player housing system, but it sounds awesome. I was so very worried that they were gonna go the EQ2 rout and do the whole instanced crap. From what I understand, it's somewhat like SWG in that you can pick wherever you want to have your house, in addition to Guilds having their own 'guild halls' in a way also. I'm really, really looking forward to it.
In other news... Guild Wars 2 looks fun. I'm glad that there's no monthly sub for this one.
Actually, considering how there wasn't one for the original GW, their fan base would probably burn down ArenaNet hq if there was. However, I'm pretty over the whole month-to-month thing. I almost cannot believe that ActiBlizzard hasn't reduced their fees yet. After all the crock of shit they've been pumping out, or haven't been I might add, it's ridiculous that they even have the balls to ask people to vote for their titles at DragonCon this year.

Phew, getting a little heated.

It was a bad break-up. 7 years. Ugh!

Moving on!!
 Tomorrow is the big day! SHOPPING DAY that is! Normally, I hate shopping with every fiber of my being. Even going to Michael's; despite how totally opposite of what I fear the experience to be actually is, I still disdain it. Shopping exhausts me. I just wanna go in, grab my shit, and haul ass out the door wailing in emotional agony with sweet abandon.
Ya.

But tomorrow is a day for computer things! Speaking of which, I have to remember to check what's compatible with what. For both computers. Lots of research. That's okay! Yay computer things!
I just can't wait to see what goodies I can choose from for my little girl! Maybe I'll even get some crappy fan with pretty LED lights on it. I have liquid cooling so it can be crappier than crap. However, the lights would look so cute! ^-^ Squee!!!

Also, I have an extra copy of one of my favorite games. I'd like to get him all comfy and settled, so I'm giving that to him in hopes that he plays it, gets good at it, and then I'll have someone else to squee over lore with! It's RTS. I hope he actually plays it. -_-

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Craftsies!

Remember how I said we're kinda like hyenas in that we scavenge crap off the street? Well... I found this ugly ass coffee table the other day. It's was all brown and had yellow fabric detail. Ew. It had potential though. Just needed a broken woman's touch.
So of course, I got to work!

I asked my roommate to help carry it in. We went to Michael's to get a different fabric to replace that god awful derision of mankind's creation manifested in fabric. I threw it out. It was pee colored. For whatever reason... it was pee colored.

SO MANY HALLOWEEN thingies! But nothing cute enough to buy. There were these really cute candle holders, but the candles that would fit in there weren't scented.
I can't have not productive candles. I mean candles are lame but at least the ones I get DO something. Multitask even. They make my room look cool and smell nice ^-^

Anywho, this was a two day project. We took the doors off/apart and took the table outside where I cleaned it off and painted it completely over the course of two days. I had Gossip Girl streaming on my phone while I did it. :B

GOD. EW.

The dust.

Look at that tiny little brush.

LOOK AT IT.

Two days.

Rot made me dinner and a drink last night. It was pink, so I drank it.

XOXO

 I could just clone myself and kiss me forever right now.

It matches our dining set. 

AND IT'S GOTH AS SHIT.

Annnd..

I feel like soon... I will actually have the squee again to do vloggies. I keep saying that but I don't care enough to explain it. I've been feeling crappy, therefore... I just don't feel like doing it. It's basically pretty much math. 
I'm not sure if Little Tokyo's gonna happen Friday. I think it might. I dunno. It's not gonna be just TC or Breakfast Club this time. It's gonna be more people, maybe. I dunno.

Okay

Man I have so much to write about. The thing is that I won't this time because I've been feeling lethargic as fuck all backwards forever. I don't even really know what it is. I have absolutely nothing to be bleugh over in my life. --Lying. I could totally have a better graphics card. Aside from that, I'm good. Am I depressed? I'm not sad. Just unmotivated. I don't really wanna talk to anyone.
It's been getting worse, I feel.
It seems work brings it out the most.

Dunno, aside from a few people that don't hover, I just want to be left alone for the most part.

It comes and goes, this lethargy. Maybe it has something to do with how sore I am all the time. I swear, the only other thing that makes me feel crappier than work is my mattress. I wake up with my neck, back, and shoulder hurting every morning.

It might also help if I had a friend that was into the same things I am, and that wouldn't have an abrasive personality. The horrible part about that is that I don't really want them unless they left me alone, and we only hung out in virtual worlds. And if we did hang out, we'd just like... watch stuff on Netflix and didn't talk. Just ate and drank. Chinese food and probably booze. And then I'd install games off Steam, like Penumbra, on their computer and watch them play it and be like LOL YOURE SO SCURRED BITCH and they'd be like OMFG YOU ASSHOLE STFU and then I'd get all quiet and wait for a part where it gets creepy and then startle the crap out of them AND IT'D BE SO FUN AND GREAT. And we'd record all the reactions on facecam. And then we'd go to Denny's.And then we'd each go home and not see each other for 6 months and just play online all the time and that's it. Unless there was a convention we had to go to together or a bookstore, or the Ren Fair, or a game release night, or Little Tokyo. This isn't to say that my current friends are less than great. They're great, but in different ways. I just feel like I can't really click because I don't have much in common with most of them. This is fine. Diversity can be really fun and interesting. However, with someone like me who tends to succumb to bouts of random bleghness, it can make leaving my room, where I'm content with my beloved belongings around me, difficult. Difficult because of the truths that suck to tell people, but that isn't relevant to these truths actually feeling and being very real.

That was unexpected. I feel better from it. Not any less hungry, though.

So I went to a co-worker's birthday thing Thursday night and had my very first hangover the next morning. It was fun. We all met up at some sports bar. I begged one of them to walk in with me because I'd have an anxiety attack otherwise. I still felt really uncomfortable, but her being there was a great distraction. She talked to me and got me to engage. Also, Ralph's is open until 2am. WHO KNEW THIS? Not I! I thought they closed at 11pm. There were two times that we went around that time and saw them closing up. That was the verdict. 11pm. NOPE. Not so much. I am... ecstatic. That means we can go grocery shopping even later! ^-^

After the bar we all went to another co-worker's place. That was the place I stayed at last time. It seems to be the place everyone goes to all the time. Like Jamison's. After Das Bunker or Bar Sinister we'd all usually end up at Jamison's. I miss that. =\
Some other people from work showed up, too. That was fun. One of them started working at Rot's job recently. It's fun to talk to him about their encounters :P
Anywho... I drank lots. Apparently.
Actually, I took several shots. I kept wanting to go play Fallout New Vegas, but I kept getting distracted by various different things that night. Also, I couldn't stay concentrated because I started feeling more and more drunk. It was weird. I tried to focus really hard, but everything felt woozy and my head was moving from side to side even though it wasn't. There was no sleeping for me that night. I stayed up all night talking to one of the Heathers. I don't remember most of what we talked about, but I feel like it was sad. When it started getting light out, we went outside, climbed up some ladder that led to the roof and took pictures of the sunrise. Super pretty.

We went back inside and someone had woken up. I went to sleep for a few hours and felt fine on the drive home. It's like 3 blocks away. When I got home and started picking out my clothes for the day, I started feeling sick. Flopped on my bed and uuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggh what an awful feeling. How do college students do it?

I was supposed to go to Little Tokyo with Devon but I couldn't. I felt like throwing up every time I hauled myself up and walked 3 feet. It sucked. I passed out until 5. Oh yeah, sorry for the wall of text. Here are some pictures.

 Heather!

Drahnk Birthday Girl.

Heather. :3

Ugh. My makeup was all messed up. I think I was crying, lol.

He's adorable!

Birthday girl decided she was ballsy enough to do some karaoke. 

I have videos! But I've not edited them together yet. :P Maybe I'll post them on the facebooks.

This coming Thursday I'm going to Fry's with dnd guy to pick up some extra necessities for the computer that is now his! While there, I might look at some graphics cards. I'm excited. If I find something nice... omfg.

-

I am the son

And the heir

Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar

I am the son and heir

Of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way?

I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does.

I am the son
And the heir
Of a Shyness that is criminally  vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way?

I am human and I need to be loved 
Just like everybody else does

There's a club if you'd like to go
You could meet somebody who really loves you

So you go and you stand on your own
And you leave on your own
And you go home 

And you cry
And you want to die

When you say it's gonna happen "now"
Well when exactly do you mean?
See I've already waited too long

And all my hope is gone

You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way?
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does

Sycophant

Our roommate bought a new massive LED and a PS3. I must say, the new rendered version of Shadow of the Colossus looks pretty sweet. It's like we have an actual living room now instead of just another room with a glowy rig.

Speaking of computers, my old one is still here. Everything's just gonna get wrapped up. He has until the end of the week and if he keeps putting me off, I'm just gonna sell it to someone else.

Devon and I went to Little Tokyo yesterday. It was great, as usual! We talked about a lot of things. It feels good to talk sometimes. About things that affected me. See, I bottle. I don't mind it much because I rather just listen and observe. But it just was nice, for a change. She had a lot of feedback, which I took in and could really appreciate. Something that I take pride in is my ability to keep myself grounded as much as possible. However... she displayed that I am still very much susceptible to receiving that from the right people. I kow tow to her for grounding me. She took my ass and ROOTED it like a boss. Just kidding, she just reaffirmed what I was already thinking, but it sounded better coming from her.

They had these all over the place right outside the Museum. It was amazing. I wonder what they're gonna be showing soon. 

So good.

:3

Of course we had Ramen! Finally got a damn parasol. We both did! It was HORRIBLE out. It felt like in the upper 90s, and the sun was frying us. We had no choice. Not to mention that there were little Asian ladies walking around everywhere with cute little parasols so I mean WHY NOT. Best idea ever tyvm. And they were cheaper than what I found on Ebay. pshyeah.
They're so cute. Now I can go to ALL OF THE PLACES out in ALL OF THE SUNS and nothing can stop me! Actually, my anxiety can stop me. It can stop me pretty fucking quick. And losing my parking spot. That's also a Cynth Adventures killer. And the heat. And also the people walking around. Also all the horrifyingly bad drivers. And being away from my computer.

Okay so maybe just kidding. Regardless, in the event that I am forced to go out into the sun via guilt or obligation, I am equipped appropriately.

MOVING ON--

I have this character sheet I need to work on. Rot wants to start a campaign with Josh and me. Not sure how much fun it'll be with just 2 people, but I'm optimistic. As long as there are a lot of snack items, I'm optimistic.

There's something at work that may or may not be good... or icky. I mean it's good to a normal person. I don't know. I don't even know.
Oh. Funny story;
Remember how I wrote about a co-worker that completely lost her shit at me to where I thought she was coming at me to punch me in the face? Well... yesterday she threw something so hard out of anger over a note the manager left her that she broke one of our tables.

I mean... I'M WEIRD. But that's... that's something else. I don't... I don't know. I don't even know.
I'd be lying if I said that didn't make me feel some kind of relief though... considering how much nonsense she made up about what happened. If this isn't sobering, I don't know what is!

My face looks less puffy. I look older. Or maybe it's the shadow. I took this last night before bedtime. I like when my eyes look red and puffy. That shirt is so comfy. I look serious. SO SRS.



Team Cool is scheduled to return to Little Tokyo on Friday. I was scheduled to work, but thankfully got my shift covered.

Thursday evening some of my coworkers wanna get together to go to some Dim Sum place in Glendale.
Thankfully... we'll get paid Friday, so I'm not that stressed over it like I normally would be.

Also, I've been able to become a little more social lately. It's nice. Kind of. Social but at like 4 in the morning. Hidden in the night times. Insomnia with friends makes insomnia more tolerable. Especially after making them watch Three Extremes on Netflix.


In spite of the image, Cynth is all smiles lately. :3

Level 40 reached last night!
10 more levels until I can explore the island they added in the 1.4 patch. I could've gone on my other level 50 that I have on the Guardians side, but felt it would be more special if it was explored on this toon. I can't wait!

I hope Rot makes us dinner when he gets home. Mmm'ungry! ^-^

Re-install

Oh man!
She writes again!

Lace is my favorite. 

Laced with tentacles.

Squee ^-^

What can I say, I've been distracted. I finally got in my new monitor, which means that I was able to get my old computer all set up to sell. Immediately I thought of someone who could really benefit from it. It was supposed to be out the door today, but to my eency, teency, tiny surprise, that didn't happen. :) 

There is a current problem that I am faced with, however. I am down to only two candles that can still burn. WHAT AM I GONNA DO? It's awful. I have to get more. That means... venturing out into the feral populace that North Hollywood breeds. And then pass it to go to the mall. Drag someone out with me is my only hope for survival. Candles. They are important to me. 

My work has a new manager. I don't know how I feel about her just yet. She's made a couple mistakes, which I've put behind me. Others don't seem to vibe too well with her new ways. It's completely understandable. Time will tell how everything plays out. This brought me to say that despite her changes to our work place, she is a total goth music lover. She was playing Depeche Mode, The Cure, and The Smiths on her phone all morning today. My jaw hasn't dropped that hard since I found out that Netflix started streaming seasons of Spongebob Squarepants. So there's a little bit of bias from my part, now that I know she digs fucking Depeche Mode. I bet she does a mean Molly Ringwald on the dance floor.

Anyway, today was gkdlafjskj. The boss has been giving me more hours of work, which have taxed my shoulder. The muscles in my back and my rotator cuff are making their disapproval known again. I had to take it easy today. Once I got home, I took a cold shower and played some Rift. Relaxy times ^-^

You know what feels really good?

When you come back to turn in like 5000 quests, just waiting for you with experience points and loot. mmmph!

Look at her crotch. It's sticking out of her 'armor'... Way to go, devs. Way to go.

Aww... she's so cuuuute!

This Friday I think that Devon is gonna try to make Little Tokyo happen. She's unsure still because she's waiting to hear back from someone. I hope it works out. I'd really like to go again. FCKING LOVE LITTLE TOKYO.
And and and and and and and also another co-worker of mine (whom I went to Disneyland with) has coupons for a visit to Medieval Times!!! We have to schedule something soon because they expire at the end of this month. I've wanted to go there for as long as I can remember, but Rot is just a big doodoo head and never made time for it. We're still planning things out and thinking of who to invite. It's delicate. See, MT cannot be soiled by too much mockery. We can make fun of the event in jest, but genuine nerd bashing is a no no. Only those who can appreciate the total dorkdom of jousting, feasts, roleplaying, and knights sword fighting to the death are prioritized. IT'S KINDA VIP.

One more day of work and I finally get a day off. Ooooof my shoulder is so sore. I can't wait...
I also can't wait to get rid of this computer so I can get back to my charms! It's taking up room at my craftsies station!

I'd move it if I had another power strip to plug it into. It was fun trying to find all the parts for this. Who knew I had 3 other mouse(s?) and two other keyboards just laying around? I DIDN'T. I'm gonna miss this comp. We had a lot of good times together. I played WoW on this comp when it first launched. It's been good to me. I can only hope it's next owner will be just as good to it.

It almost hurt when I wiped the hard drive completely for the OS re-install. I found some old pictures and videos on it that I had forgotten were there. OH WELL.
That's what memories are good for.

Ugh, I really hope we can go to Little Tokyo.